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im going bed cya tomorrow seeing good morningnightafternoonetc
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OMG, I'm so glad there's no more IT work to do
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dad zoomer know do uses quotes tiktok daily calls bruh public random times day say something finds funny hell basically make one catch phrases acts personalitywise like people rimandthisisdeep makes fun of kind funny first going almost year now
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helpits much insecurity anxiety handle think im really commit redflag
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im bored ask random shit eat frosting donuts
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@YoungQ I have made several close friends because of NKOTB!!! It's a beautiful thing!!!!!
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nothing left giveim finally decided ill it get work im going withdraw money eat big steak leave huge tip clean pack apt put notes remaining money envelopes im going take pills try co method tonight fail capable so tomorrow ill go next door gun shop come back lock bathroom try hope fuck too two hours work
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@jeaninenicole_ depression...no joke from 70 - 67 kgs ako within 3 months
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must play something contrarian reviews ab tak chappan extremely notredflag mine notredflag slightly equivalent c letter grade mebr br it seems lot praise rooted two factors one ab tak chappan realistic typical bollywood film two trying things differentlybr br the first point care less about im looking realism films score higher film shows story characters closer believe real world beim big fan surrealism fantasy absurdism on although dislike realist films merely fact theyre realistbr br for second point agree commendable try things differently however think originality versus formulaicism makes better worse film itself film original poor like film formulaic excellent matters well film whatever sets enjoyable aesthetically rewarding viewerbr br ab tak chappan based true story mumbai cop named daya naik naik encounter specialist encounter specialists could said early instantiations real world judge dredds trained operate like criminals gang members pursue theyre basically given license killeffectively acting policeman judge jury executioner matter moments ab tak chappan follows story sadhu agashe nana patekar encounter specialist based naik see work interacting fellow encounter specialists engaging violence see home trying live normal life lessthanluxurious surroundings see trying adjust new commissioner halfway film see odd relationship notorious indian gangster zameer zafar prasad purandharebr br all potential make fabulous gritty film agree nice forgo typical bollywood musical numbers romancesnot every film needs stuff ab tak chappan producer ram gopal varma famous leaving music romances background wayside many films hes directed produced additionally ab tak chappan good performancespatekar almost gives death wish era charles bronson vibe also admirable cinematographythe handheld stuff near beginning film particularly effective example great score mixes moody hollywoodsounding actioncrime score traditional indian instruments modalities violence well done grittybr br there also decent exploration subtexts including morality having encounter specialists idea following orders on encounter specialists shown largely divorce ideas right wrong poignantly film questions merit blindly following orders parallels drawn encounter specialists following orders and say members countrys military were shown corrupt situation lead tobr br but you knew but coming you director shimit amin scriptwriters created story far many characters far much sprawl moves bit slow problems may due amin crew looking godfather films ab tak chappan at least superficial resemblances to although policemans perspectivebr br most encounter specialists get know wellthese shallowly drawn characters say least except agashe jatin shukla nakul vaid one narayan know least halfway film name mentioned number times id get glimpses scene would change everyone would change clothes time appear id start figuring narayan wasbr br the thing happened agashes first commissioner film already far new commissioner could figure relationships seems like new characters every scene never learn stories them might artistic merit encounter specialists mostly killing people know anything because theyre mostly orders since learn much encounter specialists either difficult find characters care about exactly make gripping filmbr br the primary villain zameer halfway film theres indication this get much screen time villains parading film hes literally phoning performance inhes another location dubai communicating telephone majority film actually see zameer much extent film depends couple twists necessitate showing zameer number things could see things lot villains could left outbr br that would tightened film bit making focused halfhour shorter would benefited impact actionpacked film means least first minutes so found admiring ab tak chappans considerable style saying okay get story already
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@GuySebastian Thanks for the follow first celeb YEY hehe I bet you never get used to being called a celebrity x
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everyday last three hours days short im even enjoying hours
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almost almost subs pls help httpswwwyoutubecomchannelucthaqrfgkugrun_mq
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want stop tearswhen im alone cry time ever since wife died years back ive sad constant sadness made depressed stopped basic things like looking properly amp ended getting bullied work life went like years every day another comment depression amp dull background roar grief loosing her cut recently amp spate bullying gets angry one bullies mentioned wife words said amp ended resigning sit amp wonder happened me guy all wonderful women great job big group friends gone now ive nothing tv cat amp roof head roof go money runs feb now get new job bother everyday suffering me everyday live suffering people want go sleep amp wake heaven wife want kill myself want top stop tears
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Gonna plant some flowers!!
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iamigboblood nonyekings mizzzidc likeee someone who s depressed with rant they ll go low they won t even bring it to social medium doe she know what depression mean people who re depressed don t cap outside
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i just can feel it i can t explain it but i can feel it i feel like this is my true self and if it go on i ll lose it
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keep searching boys cant find single incel post everyone else complaining like tomorrow
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kelleyrowe hey you remember that time we used to be friend ugh vomit sick i need sleep
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laughing heart charles bukowskiyour life life dont let clubbed dank submission watch ways out light somewhere may much light beats darkness watch gods offer chances know them take them cant beat death beat death life sometimes often learn it light be life life know it marvelous gods wait delight you charles bukowski
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often happens great directors last movie becomes moving brillantly performed filmed masterpiece cast excellent well camerawork starts merry comingtogether group welleducated citizens earlythcentury dublin turns dark philosophic narration fear death sometimes dark shadows past thank you mister huston last piece great cinema
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on my way to chicago finally connecting through london now and will be home for measely day and then back out again
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showtime showtime simply bump eddie murphy robert deniros careers entertaining movie guilty pleasure quite actors standards especially roberts showtime directed tom dey features small roles guys like william shatner mos defbr br showtime two different cops mitch preston deniro trey sellars murphy one takes work seriously low profile quiet manner easygoing wants fun felons back seat felons behind huge caper televisions vcrs etc cross paths tv station wants new reality tv show fight crime tv mitch hates publicity trey loves line its showtime tv antics methods shown tv new cops show fun beginsbr br overall showtime fun action comedy good film quite actors expectations standards however rolls along treads parodies reality tv shows good break shows like cops truly end guilty pleasurebr br my rating br br eliason a
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want supporti want end life want somebody support me somebody judge call weak wanting to weak continuing life past year completely miserable every single day want say bye loved ones without trying stop
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Today I will be on the road a lot. I don't really mind though.
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lgbt community much power cancel people wondering anytimeik time often not someone mistakes someones pronouns assumes gender get hate mob them understand lgbt around long time recent years become much prolific society young people one seems able stand community someone else makes common mistake misusing pronouns baffles theyve got much power cancel someone see world way do ultimately led people scared ask common questions one ever say anything without bombarded insults community got much power short time
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@JeriWB Quite welcome!
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Is watchin colbert I <3 Casey
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nothing metric life worth staying except stupid catanything compartmentalize area life terrible partner interests friends hate job im terrible even know ill job go back im broke cant find new job field car needs work money apartment feels like prison might lose soon anyway one care one cares me spend every minute crushing loneliness failure see way out even anyone give hug text message im worst spoken another person face face two weeks literally nothing getting worse day day ampxb keep thinking could find heroin fentanyl lot it ive never done either guess means would take less ampxb love fucking cat anyone could trust take wake every fucking day life hate know hes happy
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@coolacid Well if you got the email, it must
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nontheist im going comment great mans theory changed world years ago safe say science based evidence religion based blind faith nuff said thenbr br the film produced bbc honest could quite easily shown television acting superb film really worthy full blown cinema release said reaches wider audience way it seen many period style dramas bbc tv well finished standard this expect much big budget thrill ride going see itbr br in ways found movie almost going limb apologise religious fundamentalists attains good sense tension whole way through help wanting get publication origin species much quicker actually youll wait right end that seemed dwell much ever aware darwins struggle wife emma portraying almost kind insane lunatic times hardly true many errors facts missing relation real story lead publication origin too whole premise movie focuses almost entirely difficulty darwin faced domestically book small portion death beloved daughter annie gives film moving scene annie passes away asks one final time hear darwin tell story captive orangutan died pneumonia though probably feel bigger connection primate scene darwins daughterbr br with early controversy apparently surrounding movie usa work well promote ensure many people get see it honest actually little insults mythical godhead hardly headline news theory around years all but fundamental christians and many religions were well aware of like wave placard two whenever possible guess movie good excuse any personally cant see fuss about maybe theyre monkeying around
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@iamww Just holler if you have any #habari related questions, someone will hear you
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parents fighting today another day parents fighting mum asked dad buy snacks going buy groceries said fight started went yelling mum threatening do something by means kill herself throwing stuff around im kinda used never fails ruin day make feel depressed fuck parents raised healthy way mum always told inside home go made really anti social naive dad always demoralised hit lot dad today bipolar disorder heart disease diabetes mum disease ig say shes bit unstable love parents know fighting battles fighting makes feel trapped cant kill take care family cant solve problem also two twin brothers im really concerned witness also seem anger issues mum threatened redflag once took knife hand screaming also went outside follow convince come back home whenever confront says doesnt mean things says anger understand holy fuck significant impact me mother fucking knife hand ready hurt scariest thing ever im im india last year school corona fucked im already stressed future idk situation im trapped feel really suffocated
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thinking mans silly movie expect star wars enjoy british humor might turn cult classic wife casting voice cary grant jack nicholson martians overly simplistic populace big bean movie either sleep watch carefully enjoy either waybr br its everyone enjoy relaxing easy humor takes quick mind see joke slips enjoy movie
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every success ever life come extremely lucky high school applied one college early got in senior year college depressed incapacitated managed send one grad school application somehow got accepted grad school ending still depressed actually work applying jobs replied email got sent mailing list on miraculously got hired last year got laid covid could even work motivation send resume anywhere old boss called offered position back somebody else quit spot opened upi never done work deserve things feel like cannot actually function independent adult wait things magically fall lap keep going another year every time way rock bottom manage make back surface water keep desperately gasping air little longer honestly wish could finally drown get with everything pure luck deserve it
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help stay idk milligrams caffeine im trying stay watch finale wandavision
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@DaUltraBeast I am really really reallyyyyy scared that i'm going to have postpartum. I hope not tho. At least me being paranoid about it means I won't be in denial and will get help if depression hits.
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finally really great year reddit joined communities already love found new ones thanks making place really cool
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limburger 00 infrastructure and improving their coverage service most of the wifi hotspot are in adelaide sa though
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i won t be able to start college until september so i ll be at home doing nothing till then so a job would be great right but i can t get past the interview i have a panic attack every time i try i just fed so unless i sit at home doing nothing every single day ugh any advice would be great
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Presented my senior seminar research today on the use of mushrooms as a treatment for depression and everyone's take-home message from it was: I do drugs.
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Had so much fun with the family this weekend, really had no time to tweet. Will do better in the morning... as for now, good night
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uhh? three more days left oh hot damn
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mom f retired moved back childhood home week ago years essentially living alone put much weight career worked hard whole life feels like purpose grieving preretirement life depressed cries often try sit her letting know retirement major life change take time get used to anyone experienced know supportivei f single lived alone last almost years moved feel overwhelmed part moving also fact closest friend one true love died suicide days ago grieving hard finding hard support need much support myself advice support depressed recently retired parent
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@Kissmekayley hey I'm at work , but ok , I still can check twitter every 15 mins LOL .. So all is great ;-) how's you ?
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@boysnightout899 tuna sashimi at saisaki or circles the beeeest!!
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normal start day asked was card worth wait answered yes cried park jokingly said of course did tiny tears x asked did take photos chocolates said yes babe sent photo still online last messages wasnt read next message sent day wasnt sent anymore offline thought getting ready work phone died network hour got worried sent messages social media has know
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keep making mistakes never learnim always saying wrong things never learn experiences im scared future
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want extend much really know type advicesmy psychiatrist therapist aswell friends told thing try new thingsyup would like to impossible something new enjoy minutes longer find fun hobbies aswell everything feels bad fun enjoyablethis th year dealing depression getting worse worse cannot afford therapy sessions last week nd suicide attempt everything went wrong stuck shitty life try new things
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I. Cannot. Stand. Depression. I. Just. Want. To. Be. Okay.
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ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee boooty boooty butc
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like u wanna dieeverything feels pointless yanno feel like matter much try nothing way want be possible want it
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sat at work not fair so not fair
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constantly threaten take son ill never see again last night started journal less abuse feelings day day basis morning hide meds me hour woke asked were cussed told talk pm last night forced sons room trying escape slapped wrist door
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know give upthree months ago got hyperacusis tinnitus panicanxiety disorder light sensitivityvisual disturbances shakingspasming attacks pains headfaceneck amidst general unwell symptoms following three days antibiotics xiflaxan neomycin attempt address digestive issues ive four years greatly worsened year ago worse a year ago weighed weigh unable sleep reflux also became much worse gave ativan sleep night im still months later im sure fucking body more im stuck parents basement unable tolerate barely noise constantly discomfort ears ringing ive diagnosed lyme disease say could reason everything im pretty sure ears damaged antibiotics iv ceftriaxone making debilitating hyperacusis tinnitus worse cant drive cant go outside cant anything except suffer discomfort basement day every day little hope antibiotics make better even benzo addictionwithdrawal get through state ears taken away chance really living again im trying hard give kill myself day antibiotics ears hurt keep ringing harder day sign getting better give hope and understanding never going get better getting worse first im hopeless alone angry unfair happen me wanted able keep living life friends hobbies go out find right girl my gf broke week started im broken think fixed im stuck tiny ass town pasadena md parents basement alone wishing someone would come hug keep safe tonight im always alone keep fight thoughts cutting end picc line ending it even want call help came every drive car hurts ears much more know do im trying hard give end it hope maybe sort recovery able live again feel hopeless alone much pain
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@ddlovato lol. can you tell whats the name of your new album?
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broke boyfriend want die so broke boyfriend year half small crush another guy felt unfaithful liking guy ended it regret much want back boyfriend know hurt ever before want back really feel like soul mate regret breaking him this im depressed hurting last night accidentally burned burning paper scratched chest scissors thought killing myself hoping would send message really regret prove truly love him puppy watching whole time reason im still here im really scared want end life want make pain stop get back feel like want anymore please anyone anything say please say it im really positive hurt get help
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spending the day with my sister
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took look mirror today big thought was still need alot work im confident before also makes hopeful eventually go ask crush out
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@williambason @ajhice I'm lucky to have such great friend that would drive 7 hours each way just to watch me race....awesome. Thanks guys
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please help meive posted didnt get enough replies two weeks ago broke boyfriend got along well loved much thought manipulative evil person told wasnt told would love matter oneday something kind annoying breaks like would understand little annoyed breaking fun didnt make sense god miss much ive thinking hanging last thing life made happy thing could come life make happy dream building portal going anime world everyone tells never accomplish do please need help
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@tommcfly mmMmmm write a song
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studying suicidal thoughtswhy study anything going kill someday need learn anything need learn kill myself hate life much kill myself live homeless parents jobbless motivation anything life deserve live shit life nothing reason live give fuck someone get sad kill myself think deserve kill myself
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hate wholesome posts get loads awardsthey already got happiness event increase meanwhile award sad persons post make happy
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im sure sayits constant pressure bullying family im youngest years old older sisters older brother everyone says siblings siblings point im constantly put them every day constant physical verbal emotional put downs dont know always target me love parents sit nothing stop it im fed dont want anymore school escape even though see sometimes school mum knows struggle mental health feels like one cares nothing ever changes im emotionally drained wont get better since parents wont stop despite talking problems
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want fucking sleep little ago stupid sisters friends went room sprayed glitter perfume bed lot fucking perfume now im allergic perfume get really itchy touch kind glitter shook washed bedding still fucking there cant sleep bed fucking love sleeping there anyone know get rid glitter im literally misery
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you ever see a grassy hillside and want to just melt into the soil and be consumed by the plant
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oopsyesterday ragequit job brink called parents told needed come pick up also handed revolver now morning feel like ive made huge mistake really wish gone it im parents radar bigtime drive back apartment feeling captive life made suicidal asking help made captive powerless ever before god really hope get chance kill himheritthem
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cant post images cant post images
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hate cannot talk problems friends family say want help things start get real longer want listen mention suicide longer want there worst part whenif actually go it would first people say reached help want someone try understand feel come from want family understand least attempt understand anyone else feel way families comfortable listening you hate cannot talk
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Happy Mothers day to all the Mothers in my life
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whoh what a day now for the shut part hydraulics assignment time
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@dance2jeffreee I have already watch that video lol
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some people with anxiety experience loneliness and deeply understand it so i am posting on this forum i have plant allll over my apartment to make me feel le lonely since plant are a form of life it doesn t do the trick though oh well although it doe give off a feeling that i would not have of there were no plant so question do plant make you feel le lonely
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i got a new job two week ago it s going amazingly i m a cashier at a retail store before this job i mainly did stocking in retail but i needed a job and they didn t have another position open everyone there is fantastic and it s fully staffed unlike a ton of other retail job i ve had i feel really comfortable already they even asked if i wanted to be a supervisor so quickly because of how well i ve taken to it a downside would be that i don t love being a cashier you re kinda chained to a little spot and have to interact with hundred of people daily but i m managing i m also used to heavy physical exercise at work which i no longer have however i adore the people at the front end and have been invited to a hangout with them i m super extroverted but i m not used to this level of constant interaction however i m well liked by staff and customer in the moment through out the day for most part i feel safe and comfortable however once i leave is a different story i ve always been an extremely anxious person cripplingly so at work i can get overwhelmed but i m always able to soothe myself i don t usually freak out though once i get off i feel a wave of anxiety i immediately feel tense driving home i had a panic attack yesterday on the drive home to the point that i wa hyperventilating i can t seem to get myself to relax i go into fight or flight then my brain will search for literally anything to be worried about covid cancer my boyfriend leaving me my physical appearance declining i end up staying up all night worrying and freaking out i can t get myself out of the thought loop i begin to feel terror and existential dread yes this happened before i worked this job but it s worse now i can t get myself back down from it why is this happening any tip to bring myself in the moment after work
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wanting nothing kill myself order hurt mother simply runawayi every years so drive run away
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diei want die cant seem kill myself decade ive struggled depression fought again exhausted tired climbing hill never get reach peak sliding back down terrible person need change better motivation so broke boyfriend five years let coworker move me let fall love let get heart broken let used used others let anger hatred bubble everything have lost best friends im going lose job everyone hates there loser im im alone broke depressed bitter cant drive rely friends family everything cause problems could ever hope solve never made single persons life better it once suicidal years often thought almost comforting point never wanted die right now im fuckup comes redflag too cant commit access gun im chickenshit take pills try hanging myself work then failed life much would feel like failed death too want die tonight never known wanted clearly this yet feel trapped cowardice always maker nightmares would ever think would different right know point die
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watching movies all night Whoaaaaaa
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If you're wit Double S bring sum grub n a grill... If you ain't, bugger off
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nyquil sleeping pillsive broken many times again today last time guess
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hi guys watch fany motorsport general car guys want know one yall share interest thanks
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will deplurk too. buhbyeee http://plurk.com/p/rp3ir
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I'm slowly but surely forgetting about you. now that I know something more about you that I shouldn't know. I thought you were different.
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@dortt You were dortt? Awesome! Congratulations!
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need music suggestions used know music liked dont
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like multiple people call attractive still girlfriend asking one funny
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Morning all lovely day in Leicester again only tainted slightly by the fact that i have to go to the dentist
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people like women better men men better women im man quality believe genders suck equally
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scientists behaved way hg wells confident would future history quite turned way things come almost years past point wells wrote shape things come film based closer world describes before ways farther awaybr br though well known players raymond massey ralph richardson cedric hardwicke cast theyre caricatures real characters main weakness film devoted wellss philosophy science solve problems rest us backward foolsbr br masseys characters two generations family holds supremely optimistic view cedric hardwicke skeptic feels man rushing far forward ralph richardson warlord arisen destruction another thirty years war fought modern weapons way atomic bomb invented poison gas deemed weapon almost destroys mankindbr br according wells science conquest never mix scientists group far world politics engage things wellss lifetime scientists certainly fled rightwing fascistic governments hitler mussolini folks however order defeat them subordinated allies fashioned atomic weapons ushered modern age behaved wells would liked to someone like albert einstein would headed junta scientists would established new order world war ii br br wells got wrong time development apparently never envisioned computer well atomic power computer programmers far likely rulers brave new world scientists moment still things come aided direction william cameron menzies sets created offer interesting glimpse mind hg wells certainly respected thinker time though quite get right shape things come
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sleep past mistakes keep haunting know theres nothing cant get head gotta wake hours anyways fuck guess
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literally waiting die im assuming like people here know start please excuse throwaway seems popular please do also already see therapist please no you get help it already know how thing brings solace ive familiar death since young age would really rather acceptforce alternative obviously im hurtdepressedanxious managing years think manage anymore problem brother died years ago cant put family again although im actively trying kill myself im becoming reckless daily actions decisions hopes accidentally die know pretty much it im pretty super keeping happygolucky faade want family thinking anything different four years later still blame brothers clearly accidental overdose im essentially waiting immediate family die also know written well deleted need posting rredflagwatch
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i m 9 male and autistic i have never had a relationship with anyone not even a date i had a few crush but i m too shy and socially awkward to act on them when girl try to flirt or hit on me i miss the sign because my brain doesn t work properly so i accidentaly reject them just to realize what i did a few hour later and get even sadder because i blew another chance i don t understand how i m supposed to find a romantic partner but i really want one i also don t think i would make a good partner my sex drive is high every slight mention of anything sex related give me a semi i really want to lose my virginity but the idea of being that intimate with another person is terrifying to me i would have to break so many social boundary to let anyone get so close to me and i wouldn t be comfortable breaking those boundary for another person either i stopped trying to talk about this with people close to me because no one understands i just wish i didn t have to deal with all these urge i ll never be able to fulfill i hate my life
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thinking much keeps alivewhat mean ive thought multiple ways end myself wierd common thoughts are feels pretty normal decade lost best friend rollover catapulted mental rock bottom state didnt help deployed time stateside anyway years since finding out ive since pushed dozens life became recluse care outside world ive spent countless nights laying awake fantasizing ending all mental exhaustion constant battles inner demons dirt nap sounds good however countless nights planning redflag im also countering thoughts happens fail end vegetable forced stay alive machines bad hurt noose doesnt kill im suffering would pretty awkward situation someone walk seeing like right ive thought slitting wrists id rather kids see aftermath that jumping bridge standing tracks waiting train turn bits popping many pills ive thought up thought failure thats kept attempting it today feeling like im fucking cursed live days death finally takes me typical day wouldnt bother say due disdain society anyone reading feels hopeless dont give up matter hardships enduring keep fighting sometimes gets worse gets better take upon reach out follow another path know definitely alone
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feel lost took mg metropozol let us see happens hmm help
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forced send photos someone found site tell parents long story short black mailed man forced send lewd photos anything extremely nsfw mainly lewd faces took screens them put site months happened decided see posted anything took selfie myself reverse imaged found them want tell parents know im gonna disowned kicked do
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well todays dayive today picked awhile mixture emotions plan tonight still go buy gun im freaking lazy im worried motivated enough go get it gun place opens early closes early able get sleep want go get it would easier thursday work want ask borrow elses gun everyone knows id want it im sleepy wanted tell guys today last day im going play destiny go bed pretty bad actually small amount power live longer want play destiny
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depression is something i don't speak about even going through it because it's also such a double edged sword. i love every race. even if white people had done so much i can't hate them all. my grandma is legit white! how tf can i hate, i do dislike people though.
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devil dog hound hell really good film good acting cast including richard crenna rg armstrongthe music spooky gives devilish chilli liked effects dog think creature looked really cool hornsfrill like part neck acted really viscousif like horror films seen devil dog hound hell able find buy rare film good movie think disappointed
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movie excellent save scenes esposito enjoyed brought together every detective series wrapped plotlines never resolved series thanks nbc great see pembleton bayliss together human basic persons braugher secor great job usual get overlooked hurt see end homicide memories tapes reruns courttv watching come every friday movie job well presenting great depiction life al retired family relationship existed unit enjoyed lot
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im sure ever botheredim sure even begin like anyone cares im currently sitting bathroom knife crying uncontrollably guess years shit finally hitting me baby shes beautiful weeks old tomorrow shes reason dont want anything name ellie im shit marriage used love him still care way years mistreatment negativity crap sex life taken toll me cheated too sad part still cheating guy believe im actually whole heartedly love with im scared leave husband though dont want anything stupid want happy want us happy dont see anymore ive tried leave two maybe three times avail hate job shit money paycheck goes straight outrageous student loans im boss employees just awful left basically everything guess fault though im bad manager wasnt bad manager id good employees hate fucking family years years fucking judgemental hipocrasy mother morbidly obese bitch nasty drinking problem starts shit everyone especially sister ive literally middle man family listening everyone bitch complain everyone else dad cool though marine vietnam kinda scary though ive overweight life last march started diet lost pounds close goal weight got pregnant surprise im back fat fat fuck jiggling around everywhere none clothes fit im poor go get new ones also motivation lose weight probably already fucking lost gain fuck back again friends mean theres like maybe people would say otherwise see like that one bothered visit hospital since ellie around everyone else like yeah meet baby thats it someone best friend even bothered visit since thanksgiving guess goes ways shes pregnant wanted throw shower realized give shit ellie waste time person ive ever able confide guy ive cheating husband with hes one whose ever given hope loves me insane smart hed walk away trainwreck life im scared tell bad feeling right now everyone needs break awhile different tldr seriously dont even worth time goodbye
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need helpim sorry dont know im asking im hurting want numb
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