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legit i am yet i wan na end it bad parent not my other one tho there good friend don t even care and only talk to me if i talk to them yeah and i m trans i didn t ask to be born male did i fuck it
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film first acquaintance talents chris cooper deeply impressed character played knew saw film great things come gifted actor plays union captain who along couple enlisted men foraging eastern kentucky happen upon farm sesech woman whose husband chosen go confederacy br br the portrayal eastern kentucky seriously divided sentiments war accurate looking war film lot blood guts would it looking drama explores psychology peoples war actually philosophically best study divided loyalties affected interaction peoples border states americas civil war
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following crimson stained roadwell following dusty red road path turns sideways every step sink deeper deeper thick red blood red blood path special tells dirty little lies finally start believing lies fake smile put someone asks whats wrong path let sleep night pulls deeper every hour sleep cant breathe step step step dark crimson lines wrists finally breathe dark angry lines remind certain crimson path hopefully ill see person tonight
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My kids graduate tomorrow! Aww, I am so proud.. Can't wait
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@kpacek330 lmao aw amazing i dont think i could ever get used to things like that. but hey thats me hah ! aw with DNA and stuffs ?.
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struggling year nothing improved anything things gotten worse something clicked inside today think current situation ever improve cannot stand around family understand support me matter many times try explain never understand never help me hate think ever change see way
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im suffering inside badim almost mild cognitive disability iq around ocd major depressive disorder severe anxiety officially diagnosed potentially bipolar disorder psychiatrist said severe anxiety cant drive lose control bladder operate motor vehicle difficult cognitive issues ive sex havent sex almost years dont job live rural area dont drive keep getting rejected remote jobs positive side best supportive family entire world love much basically sleep day havent wanted survive anymore really need game plan do ive tried going office vocational rehabilitation help worth jack shit
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a little about me first i have always been the type of person to see thing only black and white i live my life through fact and being direct im very detailed and observant i observe people behavior and see who they really are are they genuine fake im also the type of person who analyzes everything could be over thinking i analyze every conversation every behavior every tone and i start to over think doe this person hate me did i say the wrong thing i dont think i can change the way i am by not caring because i had a lot of pressure of being perfect or good enough growing up i define myself a a perfectionist and a people pleaser i hate who i am and i push so many people away in my life because i dont feel like anyone actually care about me i feel alone and im sad i started a program at school that is very competitive to get in i wa hoping to make friend there since we all worked so hard to get in it been about a year and i dont see any of them outside of school no one text me outside of school and during school no one talk about anything other than school it like no one actually care what i did over the weekend or how my life is i would put myself out there and be interested in others life and even invite them to do stuff but i always get turned down every time i get turned down it just another step deeper into depression i just hate the person i am and i feel like i dont belong in anyones life
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lounisdell stats feed i don t think a country s depression rate depends on world event people have their own personal problem too
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almost feels worse dont reason feel suicidalim college work friends family girlfriend reason want die jesus christ think sometimes obsess past know brain feel like fucking terrible person waste drain people around me fact theres external cause feeling makes feel much helpless went long time thinking everyone went periods think killing one time close friend confided death someone knew first time life thought would like without the friend around hit isnt normal think way fucking time ugh wish would happy want dead
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why do i keep looking i know that what i read is gon na hurt but i still look i guess it s just a girl thing
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really want butterfly knife im allowed one meanwhile friends fucking swords
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first saw track dvd hifi show nov london really cream nowit high end arcam systemit sounded great dtsi get dvd ill tell far exciting music dvd ever watchedthe performance cream age mind blowing sound quality best heard music dvdit matter type music likethis one definitely grow youits sheer brilliance performance make watch againeven new musicians cut mustard days old rockers do
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not birthday whatever wantits birthday im level survived fucking years ive depressed long remember cant recall happy memories never gf never many real friends years since last saw old friends moved on lives moved cities study old high school crush wished happy birthday told go friends friends irl online friends never met irl social anxiety let make new friends or least thats excuse im high school see working hours week again much hope future die now leave much behind parents brother upset probably never forget redflag cant live satisfy them know today would nice birthday wish someone would kill without pain maybe give gift
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redflag depression mental illness much life able get proper treatment local mental health clinic ways helped immensely able get pure obsessional ocd control longer bad symptoms still definitely sometimes flares bit faded background noise part ways mental health significantly deteriorated mids completely lost self confidence gained time college found tribe got better art skills could finish college drop due mental illness adhd trying get freelance artist mostly living disability though able earn anything close living wage would attempted without financial aid government would living parents parents supported me god knows would be would probably homeless know happened college friend mine parents support artistic pursuits quit school would kicked out mental health bad shape several years now since completely incapacitated comorbid disorders dealing with severe social redflag agoraphobia body dysmorphic disorder well adhd autism spectrum disorder also credflag parents drive everywhere driving terrifies cannot even call taxi social redflag credflag makes terrified space people know quick exit sitting taxi driver would mean would unable escape easily turned mean know highly unlikely still scares me friend one experience mean taxi driver late teensso crazy idea trying drawingart video blog seems lucrative tubers earn passive income think would great instead relying government financial aid want think would good it actually seems impossible even though decent drawing skills people skills socially handicapped mental disorders one main reasons draw hard time talking people drawing helps make feel comfortable around them idea would ever feel comfortable enough talk camera scare people away want insincere fake pretend talkative bubbly am actually thought voice changer thing captions talking scares hell me scared voice name recognized bullies stalked harassed real life online may try one video perhaps even post get feel work bother multiskilled vocation art vlogger also good people skills well videomaking skills hate idea video blogging hope earning money hating people like youtuber genuinely friendly acknowledges followers that would want put people unfriendliness social redflag responding comments messages turning comments really know myself cut existence feel powerless mess know prevent life going sht
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f stressed depressedlast night shitty me told crush liked said adores im best friend looking relationship feel like wanna cry get enjoyment playing video games im behind d art one project due week concept another project almost end fucking semester term classes worst especially teacher bullshits way quarters class rush projects onto us essays due english class next semester gym im usually one whos borderline fat really want dead hope really awful year year think going get better might well try od depression anxiety meds
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time mother work make sure took time take care father deathbed grandpa told landlord face perhaps the latter mothers words mine want daughter granddaughter homeless wanted take care us make sure place live unbeknownst me behind rent know much years later got first job
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honestly really point staythey say redflag permanent solution temporary problem thats really true it life permanency us know thing want really end me everyone else keep living fuck it wanna live see anyways
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@ExclusiveDay26 Good morning!! Have a safe and blessed day
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swati yeah i havnt got any crad unlimited to text call either suck will catch up with you today sometime xxxxx
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is there anyone i can talk to just for a while
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one best romantic classicteen deviyaan film selecting among equals soft emotionlovethis simple story middle class man came limelight poetic talent charming personality attracted towards three women vice versa one hindi movie star second rich lady third lives neighborhoodbr br the situation put confusion decide one life partnerhe asked days themultimately goes astrologer asked loves mosthis confusion came know lady living neighborhood really cares loves true lovedevanand played lead character fully justified contemporary romantic image
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scheduling redflag the reality going break leave boyfriend next days tried times times hes talked staying disappearing him mean him breaking up years love him refuse go life pretending love him right leave right break up right date people married talks it again thats it im done going bridge jumping known people jumped deception pass seems like every week car found lot dark one around claim it car one cars august st leave commit cannot live life want choose live choose live life all please comment telling give boyfriend another chance want to want single want free want live life way want to please please tell stay tell need save date ill thing need ill leave leave earth
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take interest profiler test like wtf since computer tell like like test proceeds inaccurately describe individual yet score school going use profile me hello person brain ability communicate like ask students what fuck like bro annoying
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fucking hate people say shit like art meaning people try analyze everything scribbled pice paper deep like shut pretension ass artist everything deep sometimes want draw alvin alvin chipmunks alcoholic funny
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hey so i feel cringe posting this and will likely delete but sometimes just venting and writing thing out is rlly calming and therapeutic this is my first post here but i ve lurked for a few year now and always read other people s story when im feeling down and alone which help sometimes background before getting into this i have gad and major depressive disorder and have been on ssri since 0 my dad side of the family all tend to have the same issue just on a way le of a scale i am awful at articulating my thought and it s insanely frustrating just a head up before getting into the incoherent vent post i m just gon na be listing a bunch of different thing that have been bothering me i am soon to be i am absolutely petrified of turning 0 and i have 0 accomplishment in life i still live with my parent i work a shitty job paying hr i have 0 motivation or drive to want to pursue anything like a better job meeting new people getting into a relationship etc i sit in my dark dimly lit room all day and play game watch twitch stream all of my friend are moving on and having kid and getting their own place and embracing adulthood with open arm i seem to be the only one that is incapable of making this transition i want to be a kid again i want the simpler time i hate responsibility and expectation i m immature and dumb and don t want to grow up i have a shitty jealous easily angered petty personality that i wa also blessed enough to obtain from my dad side of the family i have never met someone with a personality a petty and insecure a mine ex so i have this friend that applied for a government job that would be really good for her and she d be making good money this is obviously a great thing and i m happy for her but i would be lying if i said i wasn t kinda hoping she got turned down we both currently work shitty job and suffer the same money work struggle i think i just don t want to be left behind and feel like i m alone in my struggle i feel so shitty that i m even thinking this way i also have an ego that i rlly shouldn t have considering im an ugly short bald year old that peaked in highschool idk if it s undiagnosed narcissism or what but i know something is wrong because of this i am most of the time an awful friend i ve gotten better over the year because i gained some self awareness before though i would burn a lot of bridge i wa getting into argument with irl friend and internet friend weekly man i used to be such a bully to my little brother growing up too and i cringe every time i think about it im incredibly grateful every day that i wa able to gain self awareness and a want to change i have anxiety attack and sink into deep hole of depression when faced with the realization i have to work a 9 0 hour work week cuckjob for another 0 year i used to watch twitch stream a an escape but now i can t even do that anymore without having an anxiety attack that i ll never get to live the easy luxurious life that they do wake up whenever they want go to work whenever they want do w e they want for hour and then log off and go do fuck all they can take off whenever they want without the worry of being fired all while making more in year than i will ever make in lifetime of busting my as i understand i m describing like the top of twitch streamer but still i have really awful self esteem and have had for a long a i could remember i used to hate getting picture taken a a kid and would constantly try to hide my face it became a running gag in my friend group that i would never take picture it wa to a point where i wa having anxiety attack just seeing picture of myself there are time when i start to feel better about my appearance but then ill see a picture of myself and immediately get reminded that i m fuckin nosferatu i genuinely think i m incredibly below average and if it wasn t for the fact that i am addicted to working out i might just be the most undesirable man on the planet i would put myself in bottom 0th percentile in look i do think i have some degree of body dysmorphia and it s especially bad right now because im in a panic y state so i am probably overreacting a little about my appearance i ve always had some social anxiety growing up but it wa maintainable and didn t rlly stop me from doing most thing i wanted to do but there wa an incident in 0 that just made it skyrocket and it ha been progressively getting worse since quite frankly i think i am just doomed to suffer i genuinely do not see a happy ending future for me i am a walking abomination of every negative character trait imaginable that doesn t deserve to have good friend i don t even want to have kid because idk for certain if i just won t day get tired of it all and shoot my shot if u will i wouldn t want to have kid growing up without their dad i also don t want to potentially pas down to them the shitty mental health gene that i have and have them go through everything i have mentally bc it suck and i would want a better life for them honestly there s so much more fucking shit that i could complain about regarding myself but this is already long enough don t feel obligated to respond to this i ve already started to feel a little better just from typing it this is the th night in a row i ll be up till am bc anxiety attack keeping me from falling asleep oh yeah and reminder that this is all while still taking ssri s i do not want to imagine what my mental state would be without them tl dr money work growing up age look self esteem personality social anxiety it s all freakin shit and make me depressed and anxious
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ive considering years years old now think finally time gosince seven years old ive wanted end life suffered home drugaddict parents heavily emotionally abusive father contribute financially emotionally life school always worse despite straight student spent every day life cowering classmates beat up excluded me threatened kill me always overweight even though ate healthy foods took martial arts resulted severe criticism family friends severe selfloathing part depression nothing new me think keeping alive whole time little half brother closest dearest friend life backed defended everything looked despite tortured child im never month gone redflag surface thoughts never courage tell single soul insecure ive recently seeing doctors dropping college my gpa quickly became gpa semesterlong severely depressive episode grades much low accepted school scholarships revoked ive diagnosed severe thyroid problem reason ive fat whole life never children first boyfriend past years taking advantage emotionally entire relationship threatens break every months loses temper due crippling insecurities today broke again want anyone else cant help feel cant stand sometimes im set move hellish home live him feel nowhere go prescribed prozac take phobia taking medication want live anymore even want happy get better want go bed want wake up ive felt way better half eleven years ive lost optimism want everything end
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@BTS_twt @blueminyoongi_ Bts helped me when i went through depression (it wasn't anything serious), though i was feeling sad everyday and nothing seemed to bring my moods up. So when i stumbled upon them, i seriously started smiling and i immediately loved their songs. And army is also like a family
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weird way feel close death strangely nicesometimes theres tension air im feeling lethargic sad go kitchen open draw get knife put neck start feel better sometimes bleeds sometimes get scar thought death close could swipe weird yes is care
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gave discord tag gave discord tag would crazy gtlrop not order unscramble yourselflt
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..dieting works! hurrah! i now weigh 53kg..at 5'8'' that may be tiny but whatevs..almost aus size 6
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@boborama lol Bob, well that's a good thing to worry about! Wish I could make it down Will do one day!
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manual breathing blinking lmao gottem manually breathe blink next minutes brain forgets read
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cant find reason keep goinglife thrown wrench toolbox full wrenches me due event suffer ptsd depression anxiety paranoia night terrors get average hours sleep night years now hear voice see sometimes paranoia distrust caused end marriage divorce left name moved friends another state opened one woman one two roommates something similar loved one another ended pushing away shes since left sleeping roommate night horrific hearing them job easy stressing poorly employees do cant handle all ive since far surpassed threshold want end all motivation life whatsoever im robot autopilot wake or simply get dont sleep go work go home lay down waiting end sometime dont want kill know hurt family friends also want die want hit car choke something die lose control car poor conditions someone rob end shooting me ive keep going all
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yes ill say start commenting movie incredibly underratedbr br sharon stone great role catherine trammell morrissey dr glass analyst sent evaluate death sports star glass drawn seductive game trammel uses manipulate mindbr br the acting good apart thewlisbr br stone really talent role slick naughty seductive look day older firstshe really impressed melike casino morrisey also good showed much vunerablitity role needed it thewlis however lame ruined character overthetop whole way really suckedbr br overall movie good first stone hoot watch ignore thewlis
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man i want some nike air yeezy s but a i don t live in state have no chance in hell ahh well spend the 00 on pair of sb s instead
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take huxtable parents blend kyle parents get perfect blend top edge parenting wish family childrearing skills best part show parents come pompous selfrighteous upper class know alls time stereotypical undereducated parents constantly bamboozled disrespected children kids ages kyle kids see much situations mirroring experiences family silliness indulge goes show love family take seriously keep household together fun kids
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25-04-2018
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dad wa admitted to hospital yesterday so want to fly to cape town to visit r 900 for monday return ticket on kulula
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saw movie years ago subject still infuriates me should anger initiative inspiring would takeover army kill people scene well rebel strong hold never leave mind great film prepared strong subject matter
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very very very happy and slightly skinny xx
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classmate mine tested positive im gucking anxious ive got ill tested tonorrow go back school mom heart proplems diabetes yesterday spent hours step dads mom brother old weak im ancious it since aslo dont best health hope guy class alright so mate youre reading this please dont fucking die
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failureso somewhat long apoligize that story much different yours age decided wanted cook college carpentry becauae know since men family useful me im nerd im gamer im enthusaiastic types things play acoustic guitar fairly well friends rely everything mother stepfather cats age reevaulated life never carpentry job working kfc coffee shop eb games years marine cooking work cook sea first real job canadian coast gaurd hazing ritual refuse acknowledge hazing bullied taunted til point hazing walked away it much anxiety built point people saying hazing ia that sexual things dropping us overboard arctic water sling lock door put something people cant pour water night typea taunts walked aeay coworkers chased cooler workspace cornered demanding go saying everyone elae ia ur pussy u dont go physically handled trying make go yelled tears eyes fuck off telling im job put bullshit next day captain ushered mw come mess hall officers humiliate me present half document ripped front said compltleting ritual took picture forced shake hand laughed me point im mockery odd crew laughing stock pussy told bad attitude attitude developed happened courwe attitude im bullied humiliated stuck almost days never got justice process trying get settlement sue them theyve ignored years fucked bad gained ton weight lbs years later surprisingly atill work sea ships hate it nothing else skills live mom arthritus step dad basically cuz failure launch n know id dead broke wasting time im alleviating bills biding time moved away months friend met cooking school knew yeara turna big narcassist drank amoked dope house whatever always friend r laying board games one day feela need quit drinking smoking holier thou ao tella im allowed beer joint even outside ita disrespectful trying get better turned thia loat hjs mind got us evicted landlord said telling us bullshit hypocrit aince fine one day next also gf time fought brought ahit up hr celebrating birthday except weeks fact already done that did im allowed upstairs house make noise friend smoke drink betrayed me went batshit crazy us got home messaged saying wanted kill me ao told girlfriend cheating like good ex best friend would hates hates her tried fuck one night honorable hindsight wish really nice albeit broken mentally extremly hot league anyway ended moved home bringing new kittena cats love cats ash baby jax ollie bullied high school usual mom til pop drunk hated mom uncle made fun far back aa remember child essentially eatranged moms family since hate us hate mom broke gambling problem yeara high school dont get invited family things back work thing ive dealt good bad people this becauae first work experience enthusiasm toward going work dont talk personal life dont add people facebook im job dont want friends gruff tough type people dont understand emotion hardened life sea generally talk pretty lewd angryily last year got stuck year exconsexual assault robbery forgery fraud domestic violence assault deadly weapon ties hells angels blah blah blah usual told atories held ppl gunpoint robbed young guy gas station split head open bat got away it frienda abslducted guy house put bag head held gun head beating something wasnt business started getting scared guy drugs work coke percocets smoking weed drinking heavily messaging am passed go drugs himi got uncomfortable around started messaging calling everyday time off hes years older me like making excuses hang go back nd trip hes showing lot aggressiona anger toward crwq left days becauae itfastforward months new ship new company better job better payharassed bullied relentleasly year old thought best was putting taunting me throwing buss qnd humiliating verbally front entire crew noticed told put complaint did backfired longer able work boat since senority month later got fucking promoted boats left company way less chance employment now im rd ship ive battling since harassment xmas crap thinking redflag daily months even saying loud life spiraled control dont tolerate anger arguing loud voices taunting bullying kind now cannot hours boat cook ia yelling arguing me since apparently boat special doesnt follow sqme guidelines cannot know something right way unless told something wrong instead telling respectful manner yelled asking retorical questions make feel stupid kept liatening saying ok ok ok goes atop saying ok staring like idiot use fucking head hours later return break mins early except mins late tell know job drscription break times tella im full ahit im wrong says domt give fuck boata im fucking boss say becauae youre boss doeant mean right says gonna problem arent we respond yeah started morning alao blamed mess made play stupid get back yelled brek thing also said tomorrow youll chimed goes say say said thats break ends goes ballistic walk away tears eyes confirm captain hr job duties break times right fuck guy except knots stomach im crying front captain years oldthe pattern disrespect bullying led feel like everything fault like im blame everything im leaving day turning thousand dollars options put bullshit get fired losing him go home lose money intolerance bullshit know chances gone fullyime wouldve came around another months id making k taxes year insane bonuses benefits go home parents whove grown used failure im making miserable becauae im miserable cant get bed shower week maybe im performance issues last ladies lucky enough drag bar might get unemployment cuz im leaving though im trying since got union involved put formal complaint first ship thia company union rep saod contact anytime get bad feelinga theres emotional fallout mental issues harassment ever since home til crapim praying get layoff fired quit roe cant afford broke itll take til find suitable jobless time easier workload hopefully solo charge mom dies ill alone kill know too tomorrow go home im going straight bed dark know cant face them even know left pritct mental health ill still failure
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watching show since ive loved ever since love show plain funny enjoy show lot shows something new funnier everyday favorite part benny always last comments george every punchline fat giant headlaughs would laugh id watch friends home itd like watching funny movie short love george lopez funny talentedfunnyspectacular coolfunnyfamily comedy series enjoyable everyone definitely enjoy iti did watched yet suggest start watching want stop watching it even though anymore brand new episodes still enjoy reruns still funny never wears off br br
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testing post perns nothing see
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rip mf doom died october death made public yesterday underrated rapper deserved love loved music rip hip hops super villan rest easy mf doom
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i don t have enough med to od myself i m afraid of pain so i cant slit my own neck if emotional agony can kill me then i would have died a million time over already
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quick psa males shower uncut men pull wash nasty stuff out takes second better ya wonderful rest day
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The only person to make music keeping people away from depression instead of idolizing it. Nobody can compare to what Kid Cudi has done. https://twitter.com/ogthraxx/status/989254879502897159 â¦
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hours buy first car one picked out ive test driven looked car fax it ive looking car months finally found it even dad anything say it nissan altima k miles for know thats good old car already passed emissions safety last class gets get home im going bank get k cash cause fees taxes including registration comes it thats much is all money ive saved since first job pay insurance gas well
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little sister came room got made went outside back mom told look something like room frustrated since annoyed went backyard came back noticed phone missingi know knew password since keep mine remember easieri told mom tell little sister give phonethen little sister shows tell know phone telling give backshe started talking shit normally would ignore depressedbut started talking could hear voice almost sounded like wanted cry kept trying defend myselfmy sister used wayshe used nice everyone liked acting like better everyonesometimes psychotic way tone voice getsmy dad died maybe sleepi everyone since want left alone like looking since rude anythingi know deserve pain long time already hard happy already people acknowledge mental state makes worse embarrassing got hurt little sister
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keep upive always kind overweight obese big guy ive always depressed guess two kind go together eat junk feel bad two months ago er visit told affecting liver coupled family history resolved better changed diet fried food sugar all exercise daily ive really really good first positive change ive ever resolved make proud myself would it id start losing id get confident id feel better moving maybe even id work courage ask someone out todays weighin weigh started ive lost maybe pound know im wrong two months came rushing back im going always big miserable lonely person i im fooling thinking could make better keep up try make change im going end anyway give go back coping easier see point
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feeling ill today too so not having a great day
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11 Symptoms of Depression in Men and How They Differ from Those in Women https://ift.tt/2HuMCSYÂ via LearningMind1 - #learningmind
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wanna bury face pair thighs getting petted kissed top head dream boys
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theekween heart break trauma anxiety depression pain of losing a loved one thelmasherbs http t co ayy9 a u r
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i fucking hate my life i hate everyone
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want die reallyi compelling reason get tired feeling this know family friends love me imagining would im gone makes sad deserve love maybe want give deserve maybe years would stop wanting die maybe years enduring suicidal thoughts worth it compared lifetime pain loved ones would disappear
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have u ever noticed depression naps are great for like a second? That one second when you wake up don't remember but also the next second is nice when you go back to sleep
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find something next two weeks im gonna fucking blow brains outi add hate passion current part time job thing majored in im s live parents fucking hate here also many mg dextroamphetamine fatal
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hello i have this issue that s been happening more and more frequently a of late starting off back in the office i wa extremely anxious but i found that when i got there i usually always got excited and talkative for about an hour after which i start crashing it feel a like i start sinking into emptiness i get self conscious my selfless esteem crumbles and i start feeling depressed this happens regularly and follows me back home i don t know what to do or how i can mitigate this any advice would be greatly appreciated thank you
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valentines day coming soon valentine yet friends
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im big fan movie musicals annie stage show loved movie flop phantom opera movies and believe three failed match weber staging loved this dvd take place honour among keepers even though movie adaptation somehow captures flavour atmosphere live theatre bette midler always treat exceptional role theres great music lots laughs even tear two ive seen big musicals eighties nineties somehow missed one theres comparison make gets revived shall first line tickets movie good ill odd position wondering stage production measure movie
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well ever since toddler parents never got along well hardest part choose sides currently live little brother mother younger chose sides father since little less strict mother holds lot hatred me insulted since father around past years ever since covid started started taking work home mother never got along well mostly tomboy bought lot tricks girly dresses tshirts so tend wear tshirts neighbours kid girl loves girly stuff time mother wishes daughter also earlier stated hated reason that mother started insulting dumb since girl etc went kind crazy one day could take anymore screamed know bad could control time top things off brother behaves like literal baby even though one usually gets trouble fun fact brother mistake me mother kind compared me currently bad relationship father anyone go to think mother weird obsession making look bad front people telling day day mistakes ones perfect mental state gone thought killing myself tried dreams get way like singing mentioned earlier screamed pretty loud since voice went high practicing songs days like interacting many people opened people lifetime neither parents included list people mother makes feel worthless tries make feel bad girl know life anymore seems hopeless needed open
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depressed broke hated friendless unemployed worthlessi found today someone actively prevented getting job someone knows ive struggling years knows poor am even go on bad enough knowing one cared lift finger cried help live reality people lift finger comes holding back
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i f met my girlfriend on a game called genshin impact she is amazing really kind to me and is the first person who ha made me feel loved in a really long time the problem is that i still deal with suicidal thought worse now than any point before in my life and what hurt all the more is that i don t want to disappear from her i quite frequently find myself cry because of the thought of her losing me i ve felt incredibly lonely for most of my life that i can remember i used to feel like nobody would miss me if i died now i know there s someone who would really miss me and it hurt a lot i don t want to talk to her about this mainly because i feel like my bad mental health already affect her too much and i really don t like making her upset i wa on the verge of getting to therapy but then money trouble hit my family i feel hopeless and i wish i didn t meet her so i could just end it without feeling terrible
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puzzle mv removed my depression
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character customization character customization irl locked behind second dlc messed character creation accidentally skipped
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anything requires math numbers mean
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boyfriend says hes done summerhe says hes done cant take anymore hes much pain hes convinced wont get better back ex blamed redflag hes never able accept wasnt fault says hes going fall thought getting better hes not told knows im going call police tries hes going unfairly hate it hes therapy doesnt believe itll work dont know help him dont know point feel horrible asking keep going things might get better hate seeing pain hes told hes held long doesnt want hurt me know live others long dont know do know dont want kill himself anybody anything think might helphas similar situation please let know appreciate it
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i m leaving tonight i can t keep doing this i m sorry
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happy thanksgivingjust wanted hop say hope found something remind someones thinking holiday could if youd like could another stranger could someone unexpected could someone youd expect could family could friend could coworker could neighbor etc regardless hope youre well faceless internet being wonderful holiday
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Bottles of Jones soda and long car rides.
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when something is already stressing you out to the point it's literally triggering your depression/anxiety to go full force on you yet someone wont stop bringing up the stressful situation, making things worse & more overwhelming then it already is pic.twitter.com/PVb6IG1FKm
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leave positive impact ending lifeall want life make others happy really hate though simply cant put living myself possible im thinking ending life really soon get need it thing im probably gonna spontaneously disappear every community im in want everyones last memory positive one make sure last thing people hear something good think back theyll happy there sad im gone
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came terms im gonna make end yearamp im content
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fuck omg austin always there though man lt love you
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think song wrote addiction runs family right staying up able sleep night mental illness ive enough give fight judge depression anxiety fill mind like balloon dont know do like hands tied head expands roof emotions feel consumed family abused wanting commit redflag like really lose
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i think everybody on the internet forgets that the people they talk to online are actual people behind the screen people with real life with friend and family and their own personal issue i know it s hard to remember that sometimes especially when everybody just publicly post when they are at their best and doesn t want to share any of the negative or boring part of their life but everybody here is a real person people on the internet have a startling lack of empathy never even a little bit taking into consider anyone else s feeling or experience people just say awful thing and are surprised when others retaliate people these day especially younger teen are so terrible at understanding that other people may have life apart from what they are willing to show online and i think that is going to have devastating consequence on them a they get older
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spoilers spoilers without doubt best film rainer werner fassbinder ever made even marvelous script film enhanced great performance hanna schygulla film starts maria schygulla hermann braun klaus lowitsch getting married bombs continue fall hermann shipped towards waning days war maria mother sister must scrape survive maria decides get job dancerprostitute club caters american gis meets black army soldier named bill greg eagles start see one another steady basis maria hears husband hermann died war gets serious bill one day getting intimate bill see hermann door died enters room scuffle occurs maria breaks bottle bills head dies hermann takes blame sentenced long term jail maria tells succeed something get out war ended germany must rebuild one day train maria meets karl oswald ivan desny successful businessman textiles uses charms get job maria determined well climbs corporate ladder becomes karls mistress tells never marry love her hermann gets jail goes canada try get everything maria done since locked upbr br spoiler alertbr br one day karl dies leaves maria everything maria buys house hermann finally comes home wife ready start theyre marriage even though married time now maria leaves gas stove house explodes still itbr br there many interesting things film one movies studied talked great lengths like fassbinder films use color used interesting way film begins tones brown gray represent war torn germany maria starts become successful change bright rich colors like red white rebuilding germany sounds construction used backdrop film stays focused exploits maria fassbinder want sounds rebuilding remind us going germany time hanna schygulla never better performance key success film lesser actress would another interesting film schygulla strong performance elevates film elite status schygulla shows maria determined smart time uses beauty femininity get wants embarrassed feel guilty fassbinder wanted show maria woman practically sells soul survive schygulla nominated academy award gave great performance stand test time fassbinder appears film peddler mother lilo pempeit plays frau ehmke heard many things ending film whether maria purposely left gas on later bathroom running water wrist appears sad speculation think im wrong please email me think overly excited hermann home left accident remember putting dress reason read point learns hermann karl become friendly without knowledge think felt everything done nothing thats reason bathroom scene house explodes accident think reason fassbinder ending like show anyone would sell soul business living fassbinder fascinated survivors also incredibly passionate view maria cant ways fascinating film
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girl hit today hit balls specific hurt
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okay actually wrong reddit like k word yet every red house get tells got first one like no please stop
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anyone want come join minecraft birthday party bet ones gonna join like real life
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@alireddeer hah, I wish I had the luxury
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yesterday finally great time lot shitty days cooking listening favourite music feeling good mother came music stopped started feeling like always knife hands thought stabbing would stupid shit live someone like mom empathy people also hypocriteshe always told us kind people judge appareances said sisters taste clothes like going carnaval costume partyshe always told us lie hide truth always lying dad telling need money school something dad send money evaporates something she lot shoes closetshe always told us violence solution clearly remember hearing threatening sister saying would break face listen obbey also remember day came form work hit thrown trashshe always told us trust bothering lot care anymore thinks smoke weed something seriously person since child refused alcohol every time offered himshe also told us care us always ther hear hep us said wanted calm got mad started yelling asking reason like this said care fake when get home work want smiling hug me said almost everyday ask something tell need help blah blah blah always says no want talk would get even worse morning made wake cross whole damn city her arrived place waited minutes told needed could go home wtf knows school wanted disturb me fortunately see next days hospital showed way going visit her forgot write loooot things started feeling worse leave everytime mom near want stab knife
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even live yourself supposed doing personally derive enjoyment nothing none hobbies anything ways pass time or convince better nothing what fuck waiting for hate existence like hate myself said countless times done know direct intent know method use when soon preferably year deadline closing it even suffer well would dead long after cares would care moment would nothing life huh
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question everybody here favourite organ
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saw movie first came out official selection temecula valley international film festival voted best picturebr br justine priestley hot psychotic complex amanda ordinary psycho movie lots interesting original slants genre sort fatal attraction younger set great blues music mixed object amandas affection married coming blues singer less time husband career takes offbr br
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wtf ask christmas mom idea neither i limit im tempted ask vibrating dildo dont think thats appropriate
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im suicidalitd easier daughter cant seeher mother thinks im bad her context
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friendfemale said lot veins arms compliment take grain salt really want misinterpret anything want ruin good friendship starting overthink ton
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interesting title pheui day text post optional well really optional tho
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finished binging hero academia say unhealthy obsessionlove uraraka thank time
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thedeshbhakt are u alright posting against jihadis waise watched some of your old conversation on newslaundery man u changed a lot ye modi bjp se hate is part of your own depression and propaganda
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wellreadkitty oh poor thing i used ot love squeezing out the pu when i wa a vet nurse kinda gross really
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thinking ugly im fat went kg earlier year mom unsupportive soon back kg u hate fat am eating less damn hard smh idk im complaining lol fault anyway
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theres way im going live thisim a im completely useless severe low self esteem confidence depression generalized anxiety chronic loneliness trust issues im shy quiet person one friend give shit using fulfill desires studied worked along fruitless path im job know drive even move around city public transport im scared call phone ask help let alone search new job single useful skill know listen get paid that im going die know live dying feels natural correct im living parents narcissistic mother alcoholic father im scared everything everyone got gun sleeping pills blame disappearance nerve ask other makes feel better know possession im useless im needed fault going get better time nothing know live
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damn i don t have any chalk my chalkboard is useless
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cut onion first time gonna harm eyes right felt like im going blind
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