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pogba never said that manchester united wa dead to him furthermore just day after opening up about mental health and depression some journalist label pogba a toxic waste absolutely awful and just plain wrong mufc http t co m0oaeifywc
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reddit im miserablei know do ive waited long years get better problems count fault somewhat got hole know do hate waking every day imagine silly sounds problem accepting way look look really young im male could pull problem single doubt weightheight probably something well lb somewhat baby face destroyed self esteem social anxiety gotten better got older men supposed strongtallmature looking fall short every category think of gpa destroyed think gpa freshman year flunked classes stopped going embarrassed young lookedsocial anxiety dropped out silly know felt reallllllly place years also chronic disease makes gaining weight bit harder keeps skinny also brings pain days hard cope with diet somewhat limited dunno every day thing work enough get online work play video games go sleep rinserepeat every day nothing changing way yearsas kid always thought would get better eventually would ageget everythingbut nothing changed sadder im technically adult also constant thoughts redflag past screw ups past embarrassments constant reminder much ive failed cant make stop imagine silly sounds looking young bothering me look young people treat different remind every time meet someone new reason socially acceptable see people age finished college starting career feel behind sociallyacademicallyin every way think could actually commit redflag thoughat least im desperate yetbut know do thanks reading kinda long somewhat nice get out
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masturbated months im challenge anything realized jacked
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I'm so excited bout this Saturday! Hope Fatin can make it this time
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I added a video to a @YouTube playlist http://youtu.be/7luYt6eanbA?a  Her last words (depression based)
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ive fucked life cant anymorethe thing keeping much would destroy everyone loves lives hate fucking core thought beat odds teen pregnancy early s two kids different fathers lost love life fucking sabotage everything im crazy brain working every fucking second every fucking day thing know hurt myself cant keep living like this parents act like everythings okay know must disappointed life ive ended with want go sleep never wake up
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gonna tell guy claims convert made new must dating checklist since short time consider christian must date since theistatheist different theist relationships work lot cases people claim convert get you well fall someone claims that gonna sing some people go church signify trying make date neighbours wife brother let tell sure born better leave woman alone one days mark words think brother going work go work bang knock door thats brother knock more might run long time run on ducking dodging run on children long time let tell god almighty gonna cut down
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i lost a subscriber. just ONE! but still. ah well #36 most viewed today. THE APPRENTICE FINAL IS RIGHT NOW! GO KATE!!
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polite way kill single fact stopped ending life time time again people always tell things get better there people care you latter seems correct people care me still gotten better try might cant get this ill weeks go without incident faintest hope things change one bad day im back edge end life chose take easy way out id hurting others process decided jump would sweep up shot myself would wipe brain wall taking life leave others bigger burden im selfish person really want die stop existing depart without hurting anyone never existed first place option really know seek gain posting here get standard your life meaning there people help you you bad situation random people ive never met though ill probably gain even less devaluing people like that im live parents siblings never went highschool got ged im college sophomore despite loving family ive never able connect anyone deeper level ive always felt adverse toward people different feel disgusted people similar me actively push people away often notice actions affect others around me lot problems gone undiagnosed untreated long im sure bad really is bouncing apathetic suicidal day day good sign im honestly disgusted myself cant commit anything cant make opinions when theyre unpopular ones taste everything trash whole childhood growing specialed outcast among outcasts bullied felt like deserved it nobody ever took side stood one got punished may cherry picking struggle remember things childhood traumatic way parents removed school th grade nearly killed worst bully school friends help him teachers stood watched stopped moving finally pulled him im still haunted day school closed years later inhuman treatment students little late damage done suppose venting make feel slightly better somethings going ruin mood soon enough spent way long editing this
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talk tonighti cant sleep lot bad thoughts please comfort me
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organization american states essentially become eu open borders free trade among every country american continent
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hi all short years earth many trials triumphs life seems getting progressively worse best life ever already feel like lived lifetime worth experiences due trauma experienced life like sexual emotional physical abuse stabbed someone attacked mallet due bullying involved police chase surviving car accident addict addicted alcohol age last year age being deaf left ear birth survived surgery survived many illness infection young child revived birth due oxygen loss severe bullying around suicidal episodes last year many prior managed obtain ncea lvl even though kicked school due sevely bullied everyone hate me many fun sexual experiences done pretty crazy one kind stuff seen done things alot people could ever etc always made sure live every day last live fearless lived life edge fullest although lonely sad alot due redflag past trauma things starting look around last year acquired good job wonderful partner sc ironically car accident mins dropped friends place stayed mine met person night before relationship prospered crash made become clean alcohol drugs thought prospect career family always wanted raise children live farm countryside etc but life changed worst nowinitially illness started am jan th awoke vivid nightmare drenched sweat auditory hallucination diahorrea vertigo derealizationconfusion brainfog shivering chills went back sleep went away within day time went holiday suffered vertigo ear pain car ride initial sickness appear feb th got bad flu wsore throat vertigo ear pain coughing running nose chills diahorrea etc feb th suffered derealization severe brainfog crying sadness redflag rem sleep issues like falling sensation jolts awake flashing behind eyelids hypnogogic hallucination constant vivid nightmares every night head pressure diahorrea excessive urination shortterm memory loss bunch stuff around early march came psychotic ocd presentation delusion developing shitzophrenia intense fear constantly googled sort stopped derealization died bit left andeonia complete loss emotions severe depression mood swings came ministrokeseizures severe brainfog happened around start last month every time getting memoryloss long term shortterm almost dementia like memory loss developed internal vibration currently symptoms are slight brainfog internal vibration dementia memoryloss vivid nightmares still hypnogogic hallucination upon waking minor head pressure crying sadnesssevere depression complete loss emotional enjoyment life loss track time going around me inability retain information loss imagination hair thinning easily bruising loss libido abdomen pain months illness shts getting worse many blood tests tried different diets meds help mood none symptoms tried therapy ct scans head wo contrast tried heaps nothing works personally think maybe autoimmune encephalitis due virus covid maybe sure yeah pre much fed atm girlfriend long distance stuck this flys live today family lives comes every school holidays love much says loves supports till death keeping alive struggles issues feel useless dead example nana dementia home look eyes life gone soul lost mind trapped within body imprisons feel atm want go forever cannot feel life emotions feel severaly disconnected everything impaired cognitive function well experiencing symptoms daily always different insight life feel always thought felt different others idk feel special world sometimes wonder alive everyone else figure imagination idek haha plan spend last weeks feel better see reason continue end it sorry words wall text prolly need life story want make sure story read atleast someone goas many know dog eat dog world weakness tolerated strongest survive unfortunately longer strong man really yeah crying afraid death asking happened ages every night alone realise maybe good go first experience much suffering bad live generally die alone world strange place atm full pain narcassism suffering corruption also tried talking parents provide guidance tell accept fate yeah idek p thanks reading far btw god bless year old male life over
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@shaynaalise get your Phelps on
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im bored idk mention bored filler filler filler filler filler
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talkin to my man
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quickly think check seperate windows confirm profiles made recently within past month even day adding me becoming really annoying profiles add me weird theyre obviousy fake specifically pose certain kind person add another stuff me im lesbian date older men ive never really hung anyone older know cant actually know people weird joke daddy issues dad still around really funny joke weird also note one profiles since disappeared really really creepy
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finally today finally th birthday tbh feel much different lmao friends year older were age months least
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im way clinic right nowhey first post here tonight ive suicidal thoughts finally decided call clinic im pretty scared nervous right now experiences
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today one days one days u yet another massive argument ur parents endure two hour car journey rain huge box ur lap obscuring ur vision whilst listening ur mums favourite song goes take im tired now leave lie shoot shoot shoot never mind fact ur ur period anyway nice day
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@LLMMCC is she gonna drive a drill into my back ?
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i ve been waking up with anxiety attack every day for the past week it s been a while since my morning anxiety wa this bad i usually get anxious around people or quite randomly throughout the day which i m used to i ve had that since i wa so i can sort of handle that more or le but man the morning anxiety ha me losing my mind i can t function for hour i either lay in bed with racing heart amp thought unable to move or i m the most fuzzy hyperactive person on earth running around doing random stuff just trying to get away from my thought and hoping it ll somehow calm me down i ve tried breathing exercise meditation stretching taking a shower doing stuff to distract me doesn t help much i have to wait til it go away which take around h for me another hour or two until i feel normal again doe anybody have tip please i just wan na be able to manage this until i can get help the worse it get the more scared i get that i ll fail my university class cause i can t get sh t done which in turn make my anxiety worse vicious cycle
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someone asked ever tried cig said say try benefits could even come that like none id rather addiction even ruin lungthroat health thanks asking ig
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There's #noshame in talking about other illnesses. Why should there be with #depression? #notalone #KeepTalkingMH #stigma #sicknotweak #life @Fox6TedPerry https://soundcloud.com/givingvoicetodepression/off-the-sidelines-ripple-report-four-ted-perry … pic.twitter.com/6SNTLJ17m4
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dont want die sometimes alive muchim years old dads side abused brainwashed me made blame mom divorce rift family happened eight granny on dads side threatened kill last year screamed betrayed her dad didnt believe me blamed told apologise couldnt dont want relationship anymore hates im moms daughter thats something cant change blame everything dad recently asked talk couldnt understand told didnt want contact her stresses out things theyve said hurts head ive lot mental breakdowns recently hate myself live mom relationship bit awkward im working it sinking feeling chest crawls spine behind throat
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hate texiting cuz cuz like haha becausee im extremely fucking funny like come guys stop laughing extremely intricate jokes nice conversation
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Like breathing exercises do not eliminate depression... try again y'all
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stay alive mean cope stress little one talk emotions general pain existence
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gf navy bootcamp right want send memes look memes way much figured could print memes send mail send best got deserves best
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yeah bad idea idk came back here bye again thanks reading
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@bdawg123456 i know right. Thats what i was referring back 2, lol! its like the ultimate line!
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we failed that song
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dont knowi mess everything up one cares me ive deeply depressed past days like scale probably depressed ive ever been tried talking boyfriend im states currently im vacation sucks replying says doesnt know say know hes therapist still want someone tell everything going okay need someone tell that dont know anymore cry every night night since cant day im presence family havent eaten days dont feel need to im alone friends turn to one ive become shell human ive come terms pain dying annoy people nobody suffer presence me watched family today hotel room fun beach swam drank ate lunch constantly smiling laughing seemed happy without involved dont need lives one does got brothers two children wanted theres me im nothing wouldnt missed
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although alive feel like died long time agoi want anymore wish everyone life never knew existed could go peacefully wish spirit could watch family friends live happy lives without me
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Yahoo !! I have 300 Followers Now
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unfortunately happened adobe flash player gone think back memories weve made playing give robot chess tik fak toe castle crashes many f
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first thought normal feel anything hate ect became suicidal got idea tell anyone one here depressed life
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today daydamn realize fast time going funny last month actually fun knowing itd end end going end life last post hope bitch out
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im itmy boyfriend broke me had edit im mobile im sorry format know post vague emotional state couldnt think clearly ended taking way im supposed take daily adderall got back hospital hours know one probably see care ive finally made willing choice seeing therapist hard open people therapy never helped me want happy love myself whole story long complicated point anyone struggling mental illness please seek help extremely difficult know sometimes even venting someone feel better showing weakness strongest thing do took years learn this im sorry rambling im still ill okay hope helps someone mean im havent experienced lot life ive fair share internal struggle didnt believe therapy hope now
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mandatory evacuation order miles right evacuate too feel like might need to getting nervous
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imma honest yall straight tik tok extremely cringey awkward
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the best part about having alzheimers: planning ur own surprise party!
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brain hurty squishy mess
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crush know im m friends crushes girlfriends yet dont feel sexual attraction fit people really love somebody do im happy life told close friend think get girlfriend really spend much time girls friends kinda hang bois hang girls get know them tldr anyone romantically know why
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@Irish_vampire //text// Hey baby...I am going to send you something soon...mind wearing it for me
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tipping pointso recently boyfriend broke premise know wants work himself dating months seemed come blue really fell months thought based communication style could get anything really know anymore often feel like whats point mean im part much luck relationships really want build something someone whatever reason always seem push people away point all
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could kill right without ever firsts lifeive never relationship havent first kiss dont car job house im still teenager every day live care less less things im still high school care them dont think trying die sucks want enjoy youth want childhood want know first relationship would like college would pick graduate high school car id buy finally get drivers license instead im stuck trying cry everyday class im wouldbeagradestudent barely gets past gpa semester im trying convince everyday overdose wake wondering today day finally post redflag note online text friends teachers goodbye im tired living dont want die want everything stop feel lonely dont want try text call anyone know feel like ill bother ill add worry plate keep buying things online convince wait arrive fill emptiness materialism short span time sadness sets back in cant talk parents dont understand deal depressed child dont think teachers would really want deal break even though gave numbers case needed talk friends arent serious enough comfort me wouldnt know approach told kill myself im trying hard keep convincing live keep burning ive end rope weeks ill surprised manage live th birthday already surprised lived th
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carter co kentucky ha estblshd thier first public library and are in need of a director thier entire budget is only 000 year
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More than 1 in 20 US children and teens have anxiety or depression https://goo.gl/EN46R5 
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anyone help mei feel broken inside even know say guys ive looked help many places theyve failed me know do know much longer take this
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know young much shit happened nothing dealing temporary got bunch pills idk else cannot anymore
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good morning, Twitterverse and happy Followfriday
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look movie obscure brilliant classic sought means necessary suppose powers decided forever relegated towards bargin bin nevertheless could pray chance see one dvd would say even beats great phatasm like dark movie plenty spooky imagery look one see s horror movie suppose be
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theres one thing rely school for get something dad like go clean something ill like im school work leads choosing getting school work done something else
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cant anymoremaybe one actually cares think might tonight feel alone empty im worthy existing anyway
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Lunch is almost over which means i'm half way done with work.
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now we talk about football in lunchtime..anything worse? happy #hoppusday everyone! and mother's day too (fuckin&touchin&suckin hahhah)
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cant take voices head anymore want end allive lot mental trouble lately whether im work roommates voices tell say bad things bad awful illegal things could put prison dont want say would ever act thoughts ever push horrible thoughts away i repeatedly tell try get mind mind pushes want say loud feels almost compulsive especially bad work dont want go details too graphic disturbing every time interact customer voices start tell bad thoughts every time tell pushes want say loud brings extreme discomfort interaction start worry whether ive said loud start panic internally whether say loud end telling managers said call cops arrest me even im roommates silence im still tempted say things would make literally want kill get arrested cant take anymore mind turning dont mean anything comes mind would never act it im worried ill say intrusive thoughts loud would ruin life forever im sick this every day occurrence driving insane feel like way stop alone rest life interaction im sick shit dont know whats wrong me
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else disappointed whole lotta red sure like wasnt complete trash anything couldve heaps better
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selfish hypocrite be nothing encouraging say someone wanting toenditall comment would want one you literally happened block person keep bothering downvoting everything post insensitive someone elsessuicideattempt youalsorecently attemptedsuicide
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preparing kill jan transferring cash bitcoin use darknet hate pain plan bunch oxy probably fent press itll job friends family care theyre city doesnt change fact ill always alone single shadow former self good career means nothing end barely bring office anymore waiting get fired remove stress
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is in love with scrappy and is missin him already
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family whats stopping killing myself im dead wont feel bad iti know thats incredibly selfish wont go details long run world better place without here
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think need type outcurrently sitting car parking lot one hour stay least one hour going home told boyfriend id gone couple hours let house himself got fight yesterday didnt come bed am assumed id asleep morning stayed upstairs whole time pretty much avoid me left give space isnt major problem hurtful isolating zero friends family lives miles away rarely reach anymore kind feels like one whole solution fight would apologizing happy welcoming again cant that issues guess want come me dont want let leave did didnt care probably prefers gone again isnt major problem think cherry top everything else ive thinking killing seriously week now thoughts life usually serious though still exhausting functional person functional cant anything life bare minimum simply dont energy really tired living pain fear every single day tried pull bootstraps make life better end cant ive tried medication best makes numb doesnt really fix anything ive tried therapy good things end still solves nothing so started thanksgiving boyfriends family bad toothache lo behold sisterinlaw nurse decided call pain meds tbh would happy ibuprofen big bottle tramadol sitting drawer never took im kind antimedicine felt like would knock out cant quit thinking giving taking whole bottle pills researched actually causes lot deaths every year overdoses think could work real option issue is doesnt theres chance could end coma give brain damage heart damage dont want fuck life even more but losing endurance planet almost years now really sucks life fun happy good so difficult everyone hurts you everyone selfish included good place think would prefer nothingness
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it feel we live in such a cruel world people torment each other always wanting to make others feel worse give each other covid or hate or rage or despair i don t sleep well i ve met some people recently whom have treated me badly ghosted me pretended to be my good friend and i ve suffered a lot of emotional pain i always ask what ha been the point of all of this i ve had some terrible pain last few year what wa the point or is it all meaningless
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whats pointof anything
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dman didnt expect girls hard come ngl thought would girlfriend know finding girl would hard part
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depression over nike shoe which your own mother might have bought what disrespect too is this
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people k karma like long planning keep virginity for
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fellow lgbtqia people extremely difficult intolerant world still live amazing life nevertheless remember loved incredible people there thanks truly made life better made comfortable trans person well
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become sort caretaker someone depression hes boyfriend struggled long time seems lost hope getting better rejects therapists person programs lack success past want help help himself seems like one area truly wants help money therapists hard get remote therapy successful er stays get quick referrals everything think of help worked you give hope please
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28 Unexpected Coping Techniques for People Who Recently Attempted #Suicide https://themighty.com/2018/04/just-attempted-suicide-what-to-do/ … #chronicallysick #chronicpain #depression #mentalhealth #chronicillness
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i ve just got my streetcar essay back from jerry and it still no good ah man this is gon na be a bad day
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dont think herei dont think subreddit exist there said it sub named redflagwatch name blatant miscommunication redflag watch organisation dedicated making sure people wont kill themselves subreddit however almost seems encourage it problem sub consists mainly suicidal people hopeless thoughts someone posts suicidal responses usually people also suicidal leads suicidal feelings poster replier reinforced however fucking awful life may be least try keep living get it life sucks im suicidal myself sucks too point keep believing get better matter bad right now even beliefs lies terrible family members friends always outgrow family never know get thrust social situations youre tired job life everything monotonous try something new find way forward go psychiatrist things usually something underlying mental illnesses kind hopeless medical condition cant cured medical science advancing time knows future bring maybe things wont get better maybe never happy so it least try believe be next year best year life everything fixes everything works best eventually youll missing so much life never had dont think sub encourages thinking think subreddit eventually discovered uncovered really is mainstream media call atrocity reddit pressured shutting down think thats good thing want alternative get feelings internet much better one id recommend forum redflagforumcom genuinely wonderful people seem know theyre doing all keep hoping maybe get better never know
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ive picked method placenow need decide date considering making look peaceful trying ol running car garage ive changed mind want results im planning taking either amtrak greyhound new hampshire taking life there nature looks pretty want see myself idk works ill probably go trails deep woods hang myself ill aim making painless honestly point im ready go
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rubbish day of revision .. but Take That in 8 days !!
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i m about to be living in nyc and have never done anything worth wilde with my life and im sure im doomed to become one of those in the way people who don t do anything in their life which i feared most of my life nothing i seem to attempt to accomplish work out no matter how hard i work or how right i do it i gave so much time to job organization to further my career path only to used a free labor studying only to use up all my forgiveness credit and flunk out i ve been wanting to end it all for a while every time i sleep i see the bk bridge the spot i picked out year ago to end it i feel like i rather be gone than keep living with fact that i m a grown man that s not worth anything hell my mom ha told me that i haven t done anything for her to be proud me and i won t let my partner destroy herself trying to help me i wanted to be an engineer for nasa when i wa younger but here i am today the world shitist it guy that hasn t been able to find a secure job in the past year i ve been desperate for work for a while today i wa given a work assignment from my contract company only to be told i don t exist in the company so i can t work
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tired lost will sometimesno memes mei see world actually life
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want help problems parents dont know about thinks bit different issue thats probably true thinking setting therapy that would love go therapy big problem doesnt know id like keep way also would suspicious appeared eager go im stuck hiding one problem trying get get enough attention get therapy discuss real issue must look like dont want go laugh funny
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i m fucked up badly with my 9f ex girlfriend and now i m so guilty of how i handled thing i m punishing myself mentally and physically i ve lost nearly 0lbs from not eating and going the gym so now i m around lb at i don t leave the house unless i have to and i just exist in my room everytime i smile or laugh i stop instantly because i don t feel like i deserve to feel happiness anymore i think i ve had a mental breakdown because i m so guilty all the time and i can t seem to forgive myself because it doesn t even feel real that i d decide to make the choice i made i don t even know who i am anymore if i can be so deeply confused at choice i ve made in hindsight imagine knowing deep in your heart you ve met the love of your life and you ve thrown it all away because you can t handle a simple issue
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is ready for the last show
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hihi wanted relieve stress want someone pity shitty am really want die mum sets always gets angry me im tired shit every single fucking day time wants leave house suggested kill time pass homework send obstacle resulted breakdown im verge killing myself know do someone pity feel better shitty now vote ban call troll really want die
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On a side note: I have many POSITIVE PPL helping me spread the word of my new music n video. Like youuuuu my sexy TWITTER FAM I THANK YOU
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excellent film cried cried loved loved frustrated were film touched heart reality check since reality me year old soldier
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had a fun night at volleyball... beautiful weather
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long time coming depression since years old now turning november decided end th anniversary be sure look back life see fleeting moments happiness followed long periods misery family might find so going mention them time come attempts get help get medication try coping strategies cannot anymored today millionth time called work cannot take pressure today millionth time turned guy online bc men see good time overall depression leads lack motivation keep losing jobs pathetic worthless lonely alone decided call right roommate away hoping last days good ones ready
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guys talk go urself literally fullon conversations lol may going crazy
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want hug recent post may have said otherwise thats im trying fap like make chill im so recent influx horny post horny reddit cant horny school
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i have to wake up in hour laameeee
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Wasatch Brewery in Park City, Utah. They have a beer called Polygamy Porter... Gotta love Mormons
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poem first time felt elation oh no premature ejaculation
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im tired thistired living tired every single fucking day therapist says need wait itll get better ways cant imagine says im young understand im turn end december previously plans kill then think im gonna revive plans supporting grandma somewhat supporting grandpa ive lived majority teen years parents abuse still cant get past trauma im also trans think go much bullshit able person really am oh well plan make family hate move another country im kill there
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im scared ill regret itim scared ill regret it feel bad leaving parents brother two family dogs theyve much help me care me love much still want die cant fuxking suffer anymore anxiety sucks depression sucks symptoms come sucks life sucks like live wanna go really do im anxious scared go one knows happens death reincarnated afterlife absolutely nothing gone know much
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silly putty implies serious putty
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especially for @FizzyDuck. hi! ♫ http://blip.fm/~7t8uh
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like disappointment everybodysuicidal scary word meaning behind represents feel ive always wanted appreciated someone feel proud me im taking duel enrollment college in future one me parents bat single eye feels like second mess something want drop im immediately go work home improvement im lazy selfish disappointment day day listen parents complain other he realize much work shes lazy wants everything wears away way get screamed yelled thing control over maybe im suicidal enough fact im standing noose moment means issues worth here months now thought ending seems present mind cant tell anyone cant explain cant tell anyone life this need say this somewhere someway maybe keep thoughts bay while
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code geass watch it filler filler filler filler filler filler filler
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inching closer redflageveryday wake life grows pathetic days go on lack sex relationships one reason reasons include mental health issues lack friendships extrovert lack attractiveness every person seem always around whether work family always seem better appearance personality me come point honestly dont care well being dont eat much im happy im tired theres really nothing much tbh live til im ready leave world nobody would hurt leave already know it
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ashleyskyy but i wanted a margarita too
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@balloonpup You must be following some pretty quiet folks.
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