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listen song httpsyoutubeeaeiafutyu
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feel like life simulation made sick entity wants see long takes people kill themselvesi know im right sub im suicidal suicidal thoughts lately sometimes feel like sick entity experimenting me like trying see long take commit redflag sometimes moments hopehappy moments last long feel like entity giving false hope takes away make lose shit put edge anyone else feel way
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helpfor past year ive writing dates thought committing redflag enough dates make month dates really thought killing myself thought getting car running wall full speed freeway lot more wonder people would affect reason cant help feel would make lives easier im confused ive begun hate dont want go back way days hope wake next morning dont want live pain regret feel cant talk anyone try see talk redflag end day feel alone im fighting myself dates become consistent yelling something cant wrap around feeling happy again dont know do someone please help me
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think says lot pm conversations ive started ones anxiety freaking might upset someone years reddit cant think maybe exception majority convos started people
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life joke think people would better without mehi everyone name max im sixteen first post reddit may last one ive depressed really long time think time get rid ending life friends lack social skills spend every day playing video games watching social media avoid emptiness people know think im stupid lazy weird im afraid idea speak people think relate every time try say something usually connect other see loss time especially got enough money cant hang regularly always wanted express self way dress dad never gave opportunity choose want feel comfortable clothe wear hate people get wrong idea really like dress that people often reject way look make fun me parents care much feel theyre busy theyve never asked feel would like do know much education even talk ive never girlfriend im shy strange people interesting hobbies could get attention girls ignore time all anything special also cant anything without ruining it math music english hella nightmare cant anything right without committing stupid errors used good school seems like get dumber year sleep well anxiety depression harassing every night watch youtube videos get exhausted finally fall asleep nobody takes seriously im joke classmates teachers think im funny speak strange accent every time teacher orders us make groups activity class often leave alone cant like everyone expects be im different are feels like born another culture im colombia believe say cant relate them act like kind american european people do mean take things seriously prefer bother anything let things happen also music listen to movies watch language prefer speak way different do would like move us family cant afford it special talent something else actually nothing could make feel meaningful every day feels same take drugs think phone thing makes forget life empty used someone ton reasons live child seems like every dream ever forgotten tried hang twice regretted jumping chair think im afraid idea something could go wrong process stuff bothers every day apart ive said thats personal share internet want stop suffering
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day posting nonamusing fact get laid fact ended trimming nails half length yesterday filed wrong fml
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ship ahoy probably made order showcase mgm talent film fun trip ocean liner way san juan puerto rico time country involved wwii typical fare studios gave movie going public light weight entertainment distraction difficult times country livingbr br the beautiful eleanor powell seen best musical numbers clearly shows us dancer reckoned with red skelton also seen straight part much clowning pursues beautiful ms powell ship bringing puerto rico irresistible bert lahr good opportunities film show funny man also virginia grey seen fun girl fooled anyonebr br there good musical numbers featuring tommy dorsey orchestra one sees among others amazing buddy rich solos mr dorsey ms powell young frank sinatra appears also lead singer band backed pied pipersbr br this nostalgic trip savored fans genre mgm totally controlled
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oi mates discord server friends r trying get new peoplee chat send memes play games like minecraft among us overwatch stuff going on commitment guys girls welcome dm link d
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severe hypochondriachealth anxiety suffereri panic rare diseases every day like rabies cjd worry rabies much considered redflag free obsessive thoughts live country domestic cases rabies yesterday morning woke walked get breakfast saw brother wound nose told looked like didnt notice didnt care started worrying bat bit nose sleeping we never saw bat lives found sticky gum like thing thats white really big stepped couple times feels like gum convinced saliva rabid animal flew in didnt worry all later told fears started panicking panicked too didnt really give shit wether rabies im going kill soon really didnt want get rabies later moved forgot fear rare rabies country extremely small posibility rabid animal could flew without causing damage really wish cameras house see happened wont kill know doesnt rabies
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@jasimmo Ooo showing of your French skills!! lol Things good over here. Lovely weather, so should be outside How's u?
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i feel like i ve got no energy left to give or to keep up appearance like even responding to folk when they ask simple question feel like lifting a 00lb weight i m exhausted and can t handle the thought of any kind of interaction i m so lonely but so utterly worn out from being anxious to manage the effort can anyone relate
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experiencing joyim eating im showering im applying unemployment im cleaning cat box im taking trash im performatively happy friends loved ones desire to things make people happy make appear like im functioning whats expected usually makes people happy everything slog get joy it fake cling escapism fantasies real world rough unforgiving desire something unrealistic wish could child abused wish could happy child forever nothing child makes experience satisfaction joy im willing put hard work adult easier escape im going stop eating maybe body ive dragging long either start making food desirable keep alive ill start starving either go hospital die maybe im selfish dont care anymore im tired existing things people im tired it cant escape better stop existing
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@lyneL Glass of wine might help.
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it rain heeaaavily outside and i trap in this building cant go home
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aita calling cops suicidal friend ensure safetybefore get jumpy let clarify post aita tolerate redflag posts friend female lives miles she across country huge emotionally uncomfortable state she lot better now time parents even care thought attention so way could help her typing app called discord one day starts typing weird saying bunch goodbyes reason theyre scaring time redflagprone now admit something this wanted know lived chat another one close friends gives details name address however know county eventually found it found exact house via google maps so called police said name address probably redflag attempt get there texting cops there moments later get call one officers says everything okay thanked call empathy knew scared said thank you continued messages her proceeds rip new one saying never cried much life tell scared messages wanted know intentions apparently took complete wrong way tells fuck off blocked discord fastforward months later write supersorry message to friend yo her saying sorry huge misunderstanding asked meant messages etc accepted apology still wont forget night said questions aita improve relationship her
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super weird dream went cinema best friends love filmi even watch those middle film one friends starts kiss meat point cant move started strip cuddle naked almost sex nobody cinema paying attention feel bad confused idea fuck means side note gay
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freaking feel like crisis know do way get support rn mom busy therapy friday therapist wants make switch therapists anyway feel like losing support system know get this feel like breaking point someone please help know
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@julierockaholic STEPHEN KING FO SHO
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found ugly people exist keeping thoughts prayers cant imagine must going
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@luvara :O no fair! *hug* happy birthday though
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@winter_doll lol.5 shells that are thrown in the fountain will give you one poupee item.
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Heyy girl hey well I'm drivin to work and I'm deff late! Oh no!
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waiting waiting waiting for a phone call that may mean i can actually sleep at night but then again
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So i would just like to end all my social media, due to the post depression that Infinity War gave me. Move out (joke onli)
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The ever so patient Michael is back today Business as usual for those of you who need to call Customer Service today <3
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My followers keep going down. Hopefully I can get down to 0 again and that way no one will hear me. lol I love life.
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ddlovato david henrie ummmmm i cant find it
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Depression, mental illness, is NOT a stigma. Taking medication to fix it is NOT a stigma. Some people need it. Don't be afraid to try it, to try something. You deserve to be the real you, just like I do. I'm still trying to figure out who I am now. I'm excited to do it. (22/23)
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tell mumim trouble trying tell mum much cant take anymore want die anything like living dealing problems like family issues friend school issues much cant take anymore want sleep never wake hope wake nicer worldi never guts tell tried attempt pills couldnt pull want come clean get help im scared might react negatively
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us control lives anymore hours online classes hours homework thats school giving out exams student time things months since ive gaming session literally feel weight eyelids since past weeks know need break aside saturdays sundays holidays even festivals overlooked teachers constantly giving homework soon finish one new one assigned cant really anything trying stay battle one else cares mental health gone point im total wreck really control lives anymore grown ups controlling us constant pressure
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im upset fathers co worker tested positive whole family quarantine two weeks even test negative school literally reopened last two band shows next two weeks im band hate online school almost failed half classes last quarter suck online learning able talk anyone half year worst thing cant anything even know im posting guys probably downvote mad quarantining
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hey heyi got rope ill try friday
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want jump goddamn roofthe fall probably enough kill care want hurt myself im broke disabled direction life everything fucking sucks genuinely feels like end line want jump hurt beyond repair give fuck
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tik tok bad annoying person bus thought never gonna give tik tok lost faith humanity
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pain testicles now months last doc visit examined thats it nothing else testicle torsion etc etc scared going visit new one today night afraid ill loose young age
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people weird like friend like oh yeah cool everyone else likeoh shes trash like wtf
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march august its years constant pain cant handle anymore im gonna meet best friend tonight fun one last time go home maybe spend time cat call siblings text friends pretend go bed hang parents asleep ive done research written note even tested noose thanks support ive received subreddit goodbye
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at work and tired doing report fun no not really
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yo anyone want talk im hella bored female rn play soccer support man utd listen mostly rap im also dry hmu
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might going hawaii tomorrow idk wanted flex everyone
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worst geography teacher ever really bad geography teacher happen year online classes really good teacher start online classes resigned make online classes witch shame new teacher came becasicily class started played music with bad sound quality like michael jackson sand junior wolf time complaining internet half showing video really good geography take fist test made study really hard next one take get angry parents saw think get saw said bad responded studied hard realized test made piece shit why claims question test made sister discovered part text articles news gone relevant brazil newspaper note text relation content class studying remember one test question long text basque country region spain france country answer ireland school fired one test everyone get bad great school create bonus test people need better great new geography teacher inst bad take first test watch class
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people react losing someone redflagpeople grieve die guess people kill themselves others react anger confusion along sadness isnt really period terminal illness people cant prepare death death wouldnt parent react roughly way child died car accident think so except whole could done something stop thing weird people view death redflag differently
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waiting at the airport for my ride while i get harassed by men trying to sell me ugly hat why me i just want to sleep
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i feel like people would be better off if i wasn t here anymore i m considering jumping off a bridge i feel so trapped in my own emotion after losing a good chunk of my friend purely because i ended a relationship that i wasn t happy in i feel like a horrible person and the idea of jumping off a bridge doesn t upset me anymore i feel happier that if i d want to end it i could and leave my family with more money time i m conflicted i want to die but what would become of my family my sister my remaining friend what about nicole would she be able to handle another friend ending their life how about snowey he is like a little brother too me what about my sister could i leave her during a crucial time in her life i don t know life is so painful right now
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update last post tried talk mom headache soon broached subject ig well try tomorrow lazy check basically hour long mental breakdown prolly undiagnosed bipolar
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i ve been struggling with an eating disorder for five year now it ha stolen those year from me crippled me from doing thing i love due to my low body weight made me unable to think rationally and study diligently my family are exhausted mum especially sleeping beside me because she s terrified i ll die alone in my sleep it make my heart rot thinking about the hour they ve spent worrying about me or the time and money flushed down the toilet finding me treatment i always disappoint them the mental health team i ve been going to have been more harm than good mum tried to send me to them a early a she could after spotting my illness they did nothing to prevent it from spiraling out of control which it shortly did i had a useless councillor who would stare at me in silence for an hour every week once she broke it to ask if i drank chocolate milk pretty self explanatory considering i had anorexia my parent and i left each session in tear after politely asking if we could swap councillor the team began bullying my mum they thought we were attacking the councillor i wa seeing this meant they refused to offer me a bed at a residential care and threatened to stop paying for my weekly doctor visit unless i disengaged in seeing a private therapist whom i wa making progress with today i found out my mum s plea to put me into residential care ha been accepted i m scared shitless what worry me most is how much they ll fatten me up i ve read somewhere patient are only released once they ve restored of healthy weight however i m also aware i ll be alone with sick and possibly more malnourished kid than myself five hour away from home i lost it when i heard the news screaming and cry my eye out at my mum who should never deserve to be treated like that she ha done everything she can to keep me alive both her and my younger sister are so sick of me my sister hardly ever speaks to me when she doe it s usually to yell at me for being an idiot and retarded once she even told me she wa embarrassed to go out in public with that me and wished i died of cancer honestly i wish so too especially when i remember how close we used to be i went to my mum after dinner to ask for some support she told me i wa so selfish for continuing to engage in a disordered lifestyle and then taunted me when i said i couldn t drink an additional supplement formula i ve pushed those i love away from me i m so alone and lost i m praying to god i get sick and die because then they wouldn t think i wa doing it for attention or being selfish i m so sorry for the rant but i just don t know what to do
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im kind person call bitch something reply yea
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@kristallin I hear you dude... try doing it on a goddamn 12-string acoustic!!
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everyone hate meplease ic ant im crying bad everyone hate me
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recently saw movie international business class expecting anything another boring documentary not say love documentary ive hard bad luck movies class imagine surprise movie thats actually movie came up br br this film tell cultural differences work place need cooperate get anywhere culture clash shows different world differently perceive someone comes along gives us wake call would highly recommend film anyone business wants laugh yes funny br br well thats it cheers
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give gaem reccomendations now
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forging passports is better than attacking re: http://ff.im/3t3E4
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mom called asshole struggling mental health getting bad grades words exactly theres difference making mistake asshole whatever going irresponsible cant trust anymore response bad grades due mental breakdown severe adhd im using mental illness excuse parents zero understanding mental issues fact parents west african mental issues devil literally gpa like entire life obviously used hence bitchy regret scholar past setting high expectation parents started fucking none would ever happened feel dumb failing classes one quarter like im gonna fucking repeat th grade
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ladyerlynne awwww you could always post in the transfig classroom with sharmila
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@digijustin yes it has...and one of my best friends is profiting from it...
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I bought glasses today for the first time is EIGHT years. The lasik wore off and old age has taken hold!
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title super interesting anyone discord server small join it want many people talk want socialize more dm link u want join
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please help want know happeningthis literally happened fuck found sister ground crying apparently hour half muscle stiffness left arm small cuts perpendicular arm itself minor blood could feel toes muscle weakness pulse guess could find well even though ive training take pulse cut arm cold extremities less so still colder normal rough times friend cut often yesterday friend cut showed sister sister think also anxiety depression hid decreased appetite socializing weeks this ive rough time almost cutkilled never actually it holy shit know please someone tell happened said drink anything even though statistics say od favorite among females find cutting device anyone know did think know why know how help bad brother fuck edit thank all know much means
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im completely alone foreign country im afraidive lost fiancee drug addiction had moved china kicked habit reality situation kicking in today best friend basically brother started hate something did last person left world ive suicidal different im afraid go home live fifth floor im afraid ill throw window
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heroes one day
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cant anything right moreno matter hard try matter say never anything right eyes others more im nothing failure through im lonely undeserving failure died months ago every time think things getting better end cursing things get much worse maybe deserve happy things get better end year im sticking around cant more everyone else leaving turning backs me may well same better way care anyway
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gavlp yes i hope these shock are going to stop soon i think i m getting angry with earth itself
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girl class asked and said really cute nice people also need anyone early send screens chat friend told everyone getting bullied think thats bs tf wpuld get bullied like someone yeah thats
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remember first time got drunk warning eventfulinteresting expect alcohol fueled escapade all little tipsy else remember this mom asleep upstairs alone night already started drinking back sips taste barbeque previous day lot booze left could take top without noticing whiskey little bit more cognac thought always see niggas mixing vodka orange juice let try that already starting feel drinks went pour vodka orange juice poured way intended said going drink much booze drank all thats really started feel it wanted drinks stopped feeling little tipsy nothing much happen stumbled around little bit giggled fact fucked around got drunk watching tv focus anymore went sleep sleep pretty good night ampxb thanks reading despite pretty boring
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next stepsthis first time getting closer closer killing myself even first time planning it first time found easy painless clean way it first time packing things arranging apartment things taken care of late night friday home quietly watching qi pretty peaceful go sleep never wake up drug overdose painful messy want talk people know this and really long story last time here said goodbye wife it might well have different countries join here wanted break months silence mixed calling pleading loves me lapse silence finally divorced skype last years living nightmare finish started miss every day even though ive done everything move betrayal love like last time saw her hugging kissing airport even though blamed many things fault im blameless never point open communication willing make change project try help relationship think end met someone thought better her id like say cant blame her good blaming giving benefit doubt everyone else fault everything could think of imagine im reluctant share im also aware trying goodbye conversation anyone something do want talk someone know necessarily stop though dump someone want help next steps cant take time work barely pay rent is im dog walker cant extended absence further former colleague work suicidal etc took big extended absence serve whole companys needs big disaster everyone already bad taste mouth that
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time make another post boyfriend cause obsession lol yesterday spent day together cute stupid fun stuff day amazing love much im excited valentines day
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im freak lesson informed schools closed tomorrow bc covid see crush next months started look short glances times hour probably notice im feel like fuckin creep
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very happy!! coz he went h0me na!! haha.. i'm very excited for sunday!!
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gender sexuality even need label ive crisis last hour kind realized things used think im bi preference women thinking realized im specific genderers like feminity im attracted girls trans girls femboys really care whole gender stuff also even tho im biologicaly girl almost completly happy it sometimes feel like crossdressing basically trying boy even day would make feel bit better im sorry offended anyone im confused keep looking answers ignore labels me
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At Jay's with my brothers Soooo tired.
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requirements girlfriend female optional
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shower soon, reading geopolitics, and listening to kings of leon
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@krnkarina i think you should add more time to study nong
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so i have bad anxiety and it s been over a year since i ve worked within this past week i ve gotten job interview one i went to but then after i left the place i wa so anxious i developed a migraine and i vomited in my car the second job interviewed i completely ignored and this third one this third interview which i have tomorrow is for a prep cook position but i m considering quitting that too my brain always find some reason to tell me to quit and when i ask for people advice on this job or that job the bad experience discourage me i wa looking forward to trying to be in the kitchen but people tell me it s not worth it it s 0 hour work week little pay and no benefit and plus i don t want to be a manager either i just want to do something for income that i actually kind of enjoy everyone ha something bad to say and that on top of my past horrible work experience i have zero confidence in myself or that any employee or employer i work for will be considerate and relatable and not a total asshole to work with i m a horrible waitress bc my anxiety make me forget order and sometimes forget about a table entirely yet do i want to be in a hot oily kitchen all day and be responsible for people meal it s a tough choice between misery and misery i m depressed about the 9 work week humanity ha created my goal is to grow and sell my own produce and i m a current gardener a it is and my major is agriculture any job for money seems like hell and miserable and i hate having to dedicate myself and my time to a dumb fuck slew of ceo and higher ups who only see you a a number will i ever get over this enough to get myself a job my god this is just miserable day in and day out
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make poll add polls rteenagers oh wait
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@HeatherShorter I love that song! I was starting to think I was the only one that knew that one! #sameperson
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hide depression
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hi i keep getting stressed anxious all of a sudden and don t know why for example this morning i woke up pretty calm and wa just relaxing in my apartment doing random thing i started to watch a show then all of a sudden realize i feel restless and slightly weird and i notice my jaw is clenched but i cant unclench it and then yeah it usually just spiral from there or i just feel really fragile for the next hour or two any advice it starting to happen multiple time per day when i m trying to do thing and completely get in the way i haven t been able to do schoolwork in week or anything that requires much brain power
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tolu pepper omo this happens every period but not through out the depression is overwhelming and i crave so much sugar to balance the mood usually chocolate help me feel better
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ive done terrible things deserve terrible endfirst all im wrong sub id like apologize search redflag found im years old entire life ive done nothing bad ive prison twice currently parole next years ive hurt everyone ever cared about ruined countless lives remorse since incarceration learned lot im person used be predator hunted children unspeakable things thinking past sickens stomach see reason go here family talk me friends happiness still urges time time act again feel it take life now cant hurt anybody else way always meant be im looking sympathy im looking told change better know ive done life given thrown away selfish actions wish could go back young amazing mother supportive father brother never would thought would give me want go back days young free regrets want take back everything done theres nothing left say lay pool tears reminisce golden days one promise made got prison id stop drinking bottle tequila juice thank reading please hold flaming trust me know
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@PamelaKKinney.. Summer is finally here!!yeayyyyyy!!!.. I plan to do some traveling this summer..
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Leaving school and going to kathrynns to make an omlette for breakfast during study hall..yummmm
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rating cocks thats it thats literally it rating cocks
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is so excited about my new website coming soon. I'll let you know as soon as it's ready.
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casomai last movie ive seen getting married last year br br it also first movie ive searched for married promised offer copy priestbr br sometimes reality apart fiction wrote priests like don camillo exist real life would recommend visit priest pe nuno westwood estoril portugal br br to others would recommend see movie i do day br br rodrigo ribeiro portugal
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going burn alive hurts ive heardi dont want fucking body dont want fucking transition female wish born female wasnt dont want fucking freak dont want struggle fight fake thing want die tired social anxiety tired everyone treating like fucking creep social anxiety im tired everyone online telling get it im tired family telling get it im tired homophobic transphobic conservative christian family tired everything want burn alive want feel much pain possible want disgusting body destroyed thrown trash tired this matter stuck rest life
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recovered from camping rave at last! Bank holiday
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people app annoying comes originality like theyll call stolen meme account filled stolen memes like literally shut
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Tucking in all my babies 3 down 1 barley hanging on.
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depressed many years experienced failure heartbreak rejection insecurity know love anymore still live parents got degree psychology offer much right now work two jobs make ends meet try continue education afford it volunteer red cross smothered work lost hope love lost interest things used love art music everything sexually assaulted several years ago lost virginity result assaulted person thought friend month later confided let guard down true relationship lasted year half realized recently rebound bad marriage bought expensive car lost job dumped next day relationship nothing gaslighting manipulating me even grandmother dying barely supportivesince terrible depression worked constantly keep distracted pushed better things worked self esteem lost weight gained relationship tried getting back dating game people tell regularly attractive yet guys interested desparate lonely edge know ready not
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im letting life pas by because im so stressed and cant deal with my problem so i just hide away and isolate myself and it starting to harm me where im currently cry because i have no solution for the hole i dug myself in help me please
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wish could make onlyfans people would buy content im broke busy work
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had a moment with run fatboy run
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want hospitalized cant stop thinking ending allim bipolar type hospitalized jan year th time extreme depression psychosis meds working put lexapro zyprexa helped bit last month ive getting worse worse fucking hate damn bad im tired psych listening me tired exhausting family bow fucking sick depression started hurting again little im tired im tired shit working im tired pain im tired know do feel like complete failure tired told keep head itll pass im fucking sick trying endless game rotating pills work im stuck want go drive somewhere secluded found maybe jump cliff shit overdose pills cant get head want hospitalized take away anxiety meds real bad anxiety disorder thanks past sexual abuse im done life tired trying hard nothing do im confused crying damn everything im sick this
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Monday and Tuesday were beautiful and now it's raining. Albany is going to put me into a depression.
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idk im anyway long read willinhidk start male uk really good upbringing sense parents really care me sacrifices make made still blow mind understand stresses emigrating california better future done work put in however grew way fast fault guess ill start major factor jumping gaslit first ever girlfriend feeling love towards someone unrelated also friends someone mentally physically abused abused growing up heavily around drug culture toxins environment holds eventually got corrosive meanwhile im blamed everything im threatened freedom saying shell call police house get arrested stop friends him used anxiety kissing best friend trying cheat party cope in denied week told push bitch would stopped her loneliness honeymoon feeling relationship teen romance bubbling up romance shortlived work fiction lose sidelines illicit substances exchanging them recreational substance abuse intertwined scary ur considering heroin last year smoked weed mdma etc party ones however wound manipulated realizing finally weakened me found prescription painkillers look overdose overdose january th took mg school day academia future stuff like tax sex education getting high school sniffing capsules stools stand brain sober pain emotionally later overdosed realizing happened pull phone realizing whats happened thinking g threshold overdose adults threshold minutes would fallen asleep started go respirotry decompression panicked ashamedfilled guilt hid room hand throat trying throw cus panicked nothing coming literally mean hand throat would burp accept walk bathroom write last words dont want go details ptsd woke up thankfully ampxb traumatised thoughts head christian upbringing question existence heaven mile away devil manifested shoulder felt cold breeze spine heat hells flame my body going extremely hot cold clammy hands would stuck purgatory waiting waiting mother would reacted opening door find son dead sheets peers teachers headlines vessel beautiful soul another statistic fell brain fried suffer tinnitus grainy vision static noise vision driving insane constant reminder flashback feeling train thought running noose around happiness one really knew damaged was looked pale white couldnt eat shit couldnt stand propely cramps couldnt sleep couldnt handle moments silence loading screens video games drove insane sit exam halls complete silence days mock practice tests colleges look at concentrate always edge thought would seize dropdead since common drug that broke two days told mum happened helpline hour verdict go e within hour since might die awful look mother eyes say took overdose etc would question why idea couldnt think could feel like wanted overdose kill me knew never feeling sadness undescribable realised flesh consciousness whats matter meaning life arrive say information school situation supposed wait hour half according tv saying wait times ended waiting gf time found out called junkie always using me im rat phone died broke down non stop crying saw people come whole night get seen me like stuck hell really die bright lights swollen eyes fromc rying causing much pain wrapped longsleeve eyes ampxb get ecg check files drug told blood test since past lethal stage heart seems healthy psychological damage endured past abuse overdose ignored catastrophic told grow stop scarred describing crippiling anxiety tightness chest constant cramps nobody could help reach out would try mental health olympics try make positive it looked like functioning stop asked flashbacks happen conversation withdrew school friendships went fulltime work became hermit paranoia started happen took mdma night group friends eventually saw wasnt bad weird remember much felt like machinist ended sleeping constantly weeks eating eating never feeling full thought weeks passed started think watched wiretapped family it realized paranoia conversations would happen know veil became lifted thge line already distorted ended interview psych ward th morning birthday knew yes questions would get bed love family house lied answers knew id rather get head right home there did problem fix it gradually got better try look back whats happened realize bad things watching perks wallflower hit me sexually exploited child bad kinda basically two older brothers found pleasure ithen made friends online xbox taught porn also another friend mate saying sexual things young u wouldnt understand like putting special mayo food etc one instance stuck me never really understood still dont damages child robbed innocence still unaddressed feel sick damage done cognitive bias manipulated also result ur thoughts manipulating you overdose unlocked problems deal od issues im scared brain switch ill end taking life ampxb cant live activities got involved double narrative life ive lived someone inside im come across mental health support isnt best always thank phone also always distance myself never return calls im scared write back want new life im hypersexual realized someone genuinely called it sickness bacteria taht grow ur darkness stopped growth trying rebuild life skeletons closet even friendliest faces idk typed maybe last nail coffin feeling bad stuff know wrong ignoring it nail really confirm taking back life illness slowly plagued thoughts
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is that snow
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going to sleep can t be up until am again and no i didn t finish my statistic homework
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im fucking doneit one like claimed many lies hes gone way kill career warning none wed best friends fucking years became lovers everyone said perfect couple love him love him love theres huge difference loved desperately felt same looked way looked him said even kinder sweeter things tuhe wholb w ekugsgiufucking time lying face hisotry wuth killed career fucking ym work client idea another one told turned father swore would never violent like swore would never lift hand never like this never never kept last week gave black eye course three days kept trying destroy life warning none warning tried get help last night specifically calling hotline asking acounserllor dealt female male violence think less like people finna get help fix things cried swore loved sorry found trofay lied affair jhust once get trickle truthed every single day since october work client tiold came home left scene find called cops nothing whole life swore tio every day loved desperately cant cant abvuser canbt person hes twisted meinto bveing dont know many times came keeps lying im done im done
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ashleyemma lucky devil i m dreaming of a crispy bacon sandwich but no one a yet ha volunteered to go get one
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