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oh boy my 1st text message of the day my boy friend sent me a text yay ?
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cutest thing happened petting kitten watching dreams newest yt vid hitman premiere decided boop kitty kitten booped back
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@Loviin_lyfe well, I think I'm going to focus on school and career and invest in a good good DEVICE lol.... (TMI?) if so... Good !
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thanks american school system found little pouch thing near bottom stomach uterus almost starved death years ago uterus learning
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think gonna get mega pranked april fools ya know like black plague part wild ass shit ofc thats world doesnt end december
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im going hang myselfim tired cant stand alive anymore give up hopeless
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@blackcabsession @tonyhawk gave you (much deserved) props
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cant get past redflag guiltmy best friend took life feel enough help him feel partly responsible redflag cant get past it cant sleep well cant eat welli feel completely dead inside feel deserve longer
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@runnersrambles posted a words only report on mine ha ha www.chicrunner.blogspot.com
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never proper doctors could diagnose me theres long story there suffer redflag abused entire life physically abused teacher years old mother physically mentally emotionally abused me left house
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im damn years oldjust got enough equipment christmas cant fuckin wait feel nothin nothing keeping alive guess like think gonna waste life god matter fucking waste goddamn life im piece shit im asshole everyone knows it aint got nobody dogs goddamn thing notice want anybody see corpse feels like im faking this like want suicidal depressed rightly fucking do want get rid myself throw goddamn trashcan cant wait times tickin better get sooner later
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nd redflag attemptjust tried commite redflag again wish scared go it delt much life strength stand tall anymore
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Han Solo has depression. Pass it on.
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@wstmjonathan proveeee itttttttttt
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sounds odd however late feeling anythingi used constantly sad bursts motivation fail make even sad feel nothing every time something bad happens realize matter life always shit always disappointment people try get wrong still severely depressed feel like entering stage numb see lot people saying feel nothing anymore even sadness might prolonged state depressionyears told one gotten help all living inside hell silently probably caused severe damage cannot feel emotion anymore momdad usually screams me head hope die later take back feel sorry anymore care die leave that person care me everyone else commit suicide die me depressed world happy conceited depressed depression
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keep fighting dark side always feel verge losing battlefor suicidality never big part recentlything is dont want die dark side wants to able keep bay months nowi somehow able observe distance fear itll come back soon stronger ever feel coming back slowly
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title says anyone anything try cheer up literally could care less is want think killing minute thanks bored sad
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sonnyjoeflangan oh awesome shit i missed it
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hi fellow peeps peepettes discord server friends r trying get new peoplee chat send memes play games like minecraft among us overwatch stuff going on commitment guys girls welcome dm link d
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my story is nothing compared to everyone else here it s such a stupid reason to post i know but i still wanted to say it please hate on me if you d like cause i deserve it there this girl i recenetly met from my college program for month so far obv with everything being online i have only met her irl once at school but i have severe social anxiety and always have been an introvert since i wa in like middle school so i couldnt talk to her that day i actaully even purposly avoided her because i dont know why we also live far away from each other with the college being hour away for u both but for each others house it hour so this would be a long distance relationship if i ever asked her out which i never will but it an idea before i met her i wa always sad with my life not studying playing game all day not going outside eating unhealthy spending money unwisely no friend and also with my parent not caring about me or talking to me at all so i wa alone and lonely i wa actaully thinking about killing myself because i wa just so done with life and thought there wa nothing left to do in life but literally right after i wa thinking about suicide i met her after meeting her i have been eating healthy studying with her playing game with her exercised because she told me to and she is just someone i can always talk to we basically talk to each other everyday with over 000 message and she is really a joy to talk with ive never really liked anyone this much in my life shes just perfect shes funny kind beautiful thoughtful trustworthy sweet list go on i like her too much and it now starting to affect the thought in my head im constantly thinking everyday how im unable to always be beside her how we will only stay a friend how we cant ever hang out together like friend normally do me not being able to say a word in front of her irl it just make me so fucking sad im such a fciuking loser and i hate it i hate anxiety i hate depression i hate my life ive grown too attached to her and i just cant stop having these thought in my head im also mad ugly so im also insecure about that im back to being suicidal but idk yet today we had an in person lecture that wa mandatory and i sat in the corner a i always do far far away from the people and she came in and sat right beside me i shouldve been happy i should have been gratful that we could be together in that short moment but my anxiety got the best of me and i ran away from her left the class left the school and went back home when i came home i saw so many message she ha sent me and i havent replied yet nor have i looked at it i dont know what to do anymore thanks for reading let me know how much of a dipshit i am please
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nipples always hard school nipples hard embarrassed someone might see nipples shirt omg
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People at my work are fucking retarded. Makes me feel good about myself
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hey everyone i recently moved to another country for work this seemed like the best option due to lack of option in my own country the move came just after various treatment facility to manage addiction which i believe wa a side affect of my depression my experience in this new country ha been hectic no one can speak english so making new friend and connection are so difficult i have found myself wallowing in this outside of work i pretty much just sit in my apartment feeling really sad last night i had a dream that pushed me to a new low this morning the dream pretty much had me in a group of friend having a good time i don t remember any of their face there wa even a girl that i remember making me feel loved i dont remember her face either but that connection left me feeling so so alone
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just got back from the funeral of a government employee friend http plurk com p n0bvd
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feel like dog sense suicidal condition think know store myselfim sorry thank good companion
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pe straight people subject like bruh would always put much effort
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danphelan urgh it wa just the video and they cut the robot part
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is going to sleep for a while.. --trish.out. **to OUR pillowcase: i want a hug** **musicians are sooo in. **
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oops help maybe years ago wrote hate comments tiktok cause yea insecure that checked today saw someone commented bye one didnt really expect deleted course dont agree said back really hope dont know person gonna get cancelled something wrote many things bad things really regret do
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aha, everyone seems to be dead hot, im alright
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Walmart: hair dye and ice cream.
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Where ever I go now I'm making an effort to hang out with my fellow illegals, and fully experiance the life in the shadows
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struggling wth alonei guess seem okay outside people tell pretty smart funny interesting hobbies functional go work study family friends want bother issues feel close enough with ex best friend cant rely anymore pets anything live alone tiny dorm room foreign country feel like desperately looking another relationship someone important would sad died it right okay alone objectively see fucked seems care anymore feel like nobody live
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Hi there, my name is Kuuku. Are you struggling with disappointment, depression, suicidal thoughts, anger, or do you feel lost and left behind in life? I have also been in situations in which I needed someone to talk to. You can definitely talk to me. DM me
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going beach trip think thats ill end ittwo good friends middle school planned trip south padre think perfect plan away family cannot try save me already planning head guys finally time end it
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think going kill tonightive living mental issues since middle school mainly depressed lot issues amhow look time started accepting relationship someone remind least thought attractive mattered however insecurities eventually got best became toxic jealous led end relationship several months agoi deserved that deserved better know hurt lot trouble living that also reduces self image further trouble living general think incredibly lucky relationship someone like that think happen again want happen again know would end way therapy help groups since break trying deal better person noticed improvementi think point burden holding people around back always bringing issues wanting deal them point one wants see anymore that also scared seeing toxic part trouble changing leaving mei feel bad people hurt this hope able move quickly someone always loses fight
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feel hopelesswhats point surviving failing every attempt one wait you
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im feeling year chronic depressedalready year feel nothing hatred sadness within fueling thoughts negativity ive hope ill ever trust people feel safe loved healed feel happy never person cry year feel like im constantly holding back could cry every day wanted command feel fucked head desire destroy vanish like greatness gone ive felt fucked often became chronic undeniable feel need someone fix make shit decisions professional would expensive right cant put real person shit im always keep evolving often leads going days denying insanity dont know do feel constantly outcast thoughts impossible fit in im either foggy fucked negative spiral inside head ive short outburst happiness hour drains energy
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@stefanie_go AHH! vampire! haha, you ain't that pale naman ah
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i ve turned this into my blog took it over people depend on me to be alive to function to live yet i hate this planet and pedophile politics religion racism and rapist and they are all allowed to live amongst u why because this god people belive in is cruel in the story book he gave up his son for u yet who ha god to either way i would like to ask him before i go to hell or reborn in this earth to relive this life in a different form my favorite part of the day is when i lay my head down and hope not to wake up the worst part of my day is waking up
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know posts joke serious first hookup sexual experience girl kinds shit except kissing we neck kissing tho point kinda rubbed one leg like rub one bed nonetheless girl friend dark oblivious nuted felt shame emptiness inside feel like never things like like god create feel like shit im second year highschool year college
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@chocolatebox279 haha...i went red with mine and love it!
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im sick thisim sick crying every fucking day want end today even worse day me nothing one help day help try cry fucking hard fine im used alone still heartbreaking always be hate day wish could die never wake another miserable day hope much better day me
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i want doctor assisted suicide no one care a store i wa at last night wa being robbed i didn t hide just went about my business thought it would be best for my family and me if i wa killed the police didn t care they never showed up the loneliness is unbearable
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going describe judge comments name redacted call dooramii year old girl like eddsworld danganronpa ojamajo doremi mixels lego movie course like playing legos playing videogames steam account minecraft accounts subscribed youtube channels timtamtom chris cross iilluminaughtii schaffrilas productions living tombstone vivziepop eddsworld rebeltaxi play roblox premium simp fictional characters picture face httpspreviewredditalfjmxyrjthpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampscfeffcdcfdedacddfdeeb
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@cafedunoir absolutely! just pitch in a few bucks for gas/tolls. u in? also we're passing out prospect cds after the show
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cannot sleep supposed excited big company shit thinking much making want kill myself put lot work year get better sending entire strides back depression worried wake time choose gothat it going go cry sleep cuz anything say stupid stupid issue need get myself already wasted enough time anxious know sleep someone please make end soon am start new job hours
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i so mood end shit not trying funny cope
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poop school goddess
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listening want christmas christmas wanted try challenge years ago rules are listen least hours day want christmas cant listen song starts first november lasts christmas variations want christmas allowed give try idk got mixed feelings challenge guys wanna join
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I'm sure The Ting Tings could do the same thing.
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want end sooni want write note want disappear never found declared legally dead while method possible place depends pushes edge going tonight worry respond right away im sleepy
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tyjanetrev i agreee clearly they only want attention sorry i couldn t catch the train mateee
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@mdalin Never did it occur to me
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looking forward literally nothing life want fall asleep wake want go
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hi everyone in the past few year that i have been living alone a a student i noticed myself falling into period of time where i would not leave the house alone it s not a if i don t enjoy going outside i live in vancouver and there are some truly beautiful day here where the sunlight make this city breathtaking my issue isn t a fear of going outside it s more of a fear of the people i ll encounter and how they may judge me i ve always struggled with depression and low self esteem i ve always felt nervous about other people looking at me i avoid leaving the house alone unless it s necessary and when i do it s usually at night i ve even had point in the past where i ve drunk alcohol to make myself feel le nervous about leaving the apartment for grocery i usually don t make eye contact when i m alone outside and keep my eye focused ahead or on the ground why do other people scare me so much when i m on my own i can leave if i m with friend but on my own i always get nervous and procrastinate until nighttime when fewer people are out i think i just feel safer inside because other people aren t there to see me or place judgment i m fortunate enough that my current bos allows me to work from home so unless i need to leave the house i usually won t i even try to get most of my grocery via amazon so i can minimize the chance of going outside i feel like i want to hide in here and not think about anything i don t even want to look at myself i wa wondering if there are other people who feel this way too is there a name for what i m experiencing am i just lazy i just want to know how to feel better
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@cragchris @Sarxos @WWF_Climate @bullyinguk @AmandaSanter Thank you for the #charitytuesday support
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hey question ever wonder would happen stabbed right now like would happen killed right now like would even care would go life
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hahaha by the time u see this, u'd have watched drag me to hell.
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example world war documentary madeusing first hand accounts actual troops civilians participated awful conflictand archived footage gathered around time i caught rerun history channel year half backwith knowledge really second world war timebut enveloped meand consider world war buffwatching reading find itbut nothing comes close landmark documentarydefinitely worth buying boxed set ofbr br this quite simply documentary making highest standard
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Deep depression<Emoji: Broken heart><Emoji: Pensive face>
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convinced george floyd died drugs arrest video leaked dailymail see hear already said i cant breathe kneeled due resisting arrest died heart failure also mean overdosed drugs died stress high time arrest also convict angel known police also stupid believe cops acted racism black cop present scene youve lied cnn also millions americans relying amazon millions americans relying amazon millions americans relying amazon millions americans relying amazon heres amazon video httpsyoutubezqnnjwraak heres gf arrest video thats leaked dailymail httpsyoutubeypswqpfdiw
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low key feel like could get though im way outta league feel like kind connection tho ill still wait
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questioning morality guess titles pretty vague mean worry sometimes im actually decent human being know based moral perceptions listen parents who good people guidance actually i think right deep vile parents ones keeping afloat whats right way know parents influence grueling ive talk mom says even thought proves morality is others told thing response general moral questing outside childtoparent dynamic helped me sometimes still worry know kinda brusque felt share case anyone else experienced ordeal edit spacing
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birthday none friends wished happy birthday someone plz wish happy birthday
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i miss my 0 fam
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tks pa quot tapauing quot croissant tuna knowing dat ive back to back meeting since morning amp zuraidah tks buying my fav starbuck mocha frap
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Defeat #Depression and Execute a Normal Life Using #Valdoxan. More Information @ http://bit.ly/2HXUrOh pic.twitter.com/9s7QGow7X7
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god awkward five morning seven havent done shit internet hear out think mightve discharged wet myself im sure maybe im crazy discharged supposed feel like wetting self maybe pee dunno awkward
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im ready lets get dooveri done point havent felt good years due sexual abuse constant bullying dreams goals going drain religious hope god reincarnation real want get doover born better life done struggle go every day thanks illnesses diagnoses contemplating redflag years feel like whatever lets already point life death doesnt scare me truly terrifies feel fucking good thinking redflag really gone far but might try holding little bit longer surgery want hopefully help me doesnt im done im setting time place method cant stand life anymore point feel like life way rigged people like me actually rigged even people born fortune life hard even them fucking impossible us thank world may fuck hard
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pure hurt my neck at the gym
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@seconddrink haterade? pullllllllease
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view risk
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ive wavering suicidal thoughts since im almost nothing going right im ready give uptitle remember miserable far back consciously remember remember calling redflag hotline hung making excuses everything lady end saying trying help ive loser forever always picked on always forgotten always pushed aside im black sheep family theyre bunch pious christian straight white baptist fanatics im white bisexual atheist mom constantly tells need god tell anything personal dad brushes tells need happy tell anything personal ive downward fucking spiral since graduated high school moved parents got slapped paying stupid amount rent every month failed college programming class lost scholarship flopped around looking jobs dropped out took credit card debt fix car struggled paying rent lease ran out kept flopping around one job next moved back parents crashed car thats mention health issues ive got exact issues mom fibromyalgia though diagnosed benign tumor growing inside femoral neck hip causing suffer basically constant back hip neck pain today im living parents nowhere else go sleeping air mattress relying parents bicker constantly sort travel staffing agency im currently employed work thats within affordable travel range much job interview past months despite efforts send applications even know fuck decided write this think anyone gives shit sure hell dont im ready give put bullet skull even privilege parents firearms wat do
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my year relationship ended about a month ago for me it feel like it just happened yesterday every time i wake up i remember this person is no longer in my life i check my phone constantly throughout the day knowing there won t be message from them anymore i haven t accepted that it is over they were my first for everything it s hard right now because i m not working and sometimes i get a week break from school i ve had free time before but i haven t had free time without speaking to them constantly in year so i feel super lonely and i don t know what to do most of the day i spend in bed i wa diagnosed with depression about a week ago i have probably eaten le than 00 calorie a day for the past week which is just making the depression worse because there s no fuel in the tank sometimes le than that because i have no desire to eat i just feel nauseous i wa doing better somewhat until i decided to reach out to this person to confirm whether or not we could contact each other again and thinking we could possibly be friend in the future i got a message from this person about a week ago stating that it wa completely over a far a ever communicating with each other again and also my dog died so i lost the two thing i cared about the most all in the span of a month and long story short i harassed that person because i wanted them to talk to me i wanted to say goodbye properly and i wanted them to say goodbye properly because it didn t end well and i wanted to fix it i have always tried to fix thing and be perfect and never make mistake i just wanted to fix it i definitely made it way worse by spamming them i didn t mean to i have always tried to be a good person and do the right thing and treat people the right way and now i don t know who i am anymore i feel really really bad about it i would never actually do anything to hurt this person this person knew me more than anyone in my life ever ha i really didn t understand that what i wa doing wa harassment i thought if i messaged them enough they would understand me and talk to me but that wa not the case i tried to message them on multiple different platform and begged for them to speak to me most of the time i sent the message i wa in the middle of one of my panic attack or cry on the floor and sometimes i would try to reach out super late at night when the depression get the worse i would like to add that i ve never experienced heartbreak before and i ve never had anything this bad happen to me my mom s car accident affected me year ago but this wa a different kind of pain i even sent them money through a money transfer app just so i could send a message because i wa blocked on everything else i know that i m not okay but i don t know what to do or how to fix it it s worth noting that this person life very very far away so when the relationship ended i knew i d never see or hear from them again and i couldn t handle not having this person in my life we had talked messaged each other every single day for year and we had traveled to different place together over the last year my life ha always involved this person i don t know who i am without them the only time i m not in pain is when i m sleeping and even then i have dream about them but we are still together in those dream so when i wake up the realization is brutal i thought they were my soulmate and that we would be together forever and grow old together one day i think it s hard because i remember u promising to always be with each other and have each other to love each other forever i think i could maybe deal with the relationship ending but i can t let go of the promise we made and when i remember this person isn t in my life anymore it make me physically sick sometimes i get actual chest pain i m 0 and i don t think i m capable of loving someone else ever again i knew this person wa special from the moment i meant them i hesitated to ask them out because i knew there wa a possibility that relationship could end and i never wanted to have this person out of my life i wanted them to always be my friend and didn t want a relationship to possibly ruin that it did in the end anyways i lost my best friend not talking to them every day feel like a part of me is gone missing it doesn t feel right that we re not together anymore it feel like they died it feel like the universe isn t going right like it s not in alignment and this wasn t suppose to happen i don t think that we aren t suppose to be together it feel wrong they were suppose to come visit soon but now it s never going to happen i had already practiced how i wa going to show them how the shower work because everyone s work differently bought spare soap moved thing out of my room so it would be quieter at night for them planned the place we were going to go and thing we were going to do imagined u going to get food and sit in the car and talk how i wa going to show them new thing and comfort them during the long car drive the movie we were going to watch etc it s not happening anymore now i can t do any of those thing without breaking down how do i let this go and i definitely can never get on another plane again because i ve only ever been on plane to see them i wa at my happiest when i knew i wa on my way to them even though it usually took 9 hour total to get there i have deleted almost all our picture together but all the gift from them and their family are in my bottom dresser because i can t bring myself to get rid of them some of them were very special meaningful gift i wa there for christmas and i don t know what to do with them i don t feel like i m capable of throwing them away i am unable to open the dresser and look at them i feel like i m a bad person because this is not something i thought i would ever do i still love this person more than anything but i am going to go to therapy today so that i can work on moving on i can not do it myself i will never message them again but it s too late to take back everything i did and said i even said i hate them i wa so angry but i m incapable of hating this person even in my anger i could never hate this person i said it because i wa so hurt i wa told that i am going through grief i couldn t apologize because i m blocked on everything understandable so it s probably best that they leave me blocked for now because i m afraid that i will get angry sad again and say thing i don t mean or beg them to talk to me i also sent a letter to them where i said some thing when i wa angry but they won t receive that for week do you think they will ever forgive me one day for the harassment my intention weren t to scare them i needed to talk to them to stop the overwhelming sadness i thought that they still cared about me i think i wa begging them to still care i thought if i told them everything going wrong they would comfort me because our relationship had been so strong do you think that they will know that i m sorry am i a bad person for doing what i did
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why oh why do i watch video of people dying right before i m going to sleep
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im bored wants ok me were strangers love know rules full commitments im thinking get guy wanna tell im feeling gotta make understand never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell lie hurt weve known long hearts aching shy say inside know whats going know game were gonna play ask im feeling tell blind see never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell lie hurt never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell lie hurt ooh give up ooh give up never gonna give never gonna give give up never gonna give never gonna give give up weve known long hearts aching shy say inside know whats going know game were gonna play wanna tell im feeling gotta make understand never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell lie hurt never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell lie hurt never gonna give never gonna let never gonna run around desert never gonna make cry never gonna say goodbye never gonna tell lie hurt still want ok
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cry helpi attempted anything yet mind flooding kinds thoughts put shortly madly love girlfriends friends years lovers almost would constantly fight loved great time together one day two months ago decided break where day gave cold shoulder told fault everytime messaged tried see treated like stranger ever since cant get head talked friends family tried workout tried occupy time way get head cant live without her everything secure future getting good job going college get promoted work even bought ring going propose birthday know ill never find anyone like think driving cliff jumping bridge kinds things im spoiled loving parents great friends even thier words get lost head tried everything get stop even wrote one favorite song artist time see response would make happy im desperate find way out eating alive dont end getting help mind get best me
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@adamagee awesome! super stoked for the new album
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gen z slang teach old ladies class lot old ladies asked could teach slang taught word simp it need gen z words teach asked advice
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alcohol numbing guilt committing redflagi dependence alcohol however drinking every day every weeks couple months may seem like much drink feel dependent it recently something horrible happened feel happy somewhat drunk now know im harm thought dying mental state makes seem much easier doi feel free somewhat happyi plan drinking awhile possibly staying days max avoid ptsd dreamsthese usually triggered stress fear going sleep thats im staying want feel crappy staying up life feel guilt killing myself guilt family may think feel like would okay etc think im going drink daily know healthy feel like way feel alright okay
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lilylauren i get sad when ppl shave their moustache i don t know if i d cry about it tho
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taking driving test today wish luck guys tip me ill update later passed
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@Tortue 日以æ?‰æ»å?³éŒ„ etc etc Can do in Canto too. But I'd just as well memorize the passwords
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always vergeim scared even admit feeling incredibly depressed again keep journal im scared even write feel like killing myself feel like getting day telling least redflag always option like every day say well gets worse ill kill anxiety something ive never diagnosed im anxious call doctors arrange appointment im scared take time work entire life even school months years worse others find dumb settle boring routine relatively ok feelings messed taking promotion work responsibilities spend time home absolutely terrified ive done something wrong replay things head convince wrong lot responsibilities work involve outside clients something wrong could potentially big problems caused company really kicked anxiety depression overdrive exhausted constantly worrying cant sleep eat im terrified time genuinely feel like way end all like im worried something specific moment may sent something wrong client time wasnt worried all didnt think it came home brain started playing day realised didnt remember double checking it weekend ive state worry complete emptiness ive convinced wrong isnt unusual every day come home worry something didnt do cant carry like this cant tell employer dont official diagnosis told previously managing director extremely angry didnt believe me said wasnt trying given wanted fire gave another chance feel like dont leg stand dont sort diagnosis scared go doctor every day think worst things could happen decide happen ill kill sort gets through im worried worst thing going happen one day snap ill kill everyone sad cant see another way this horrible tiring cycle people tell stop worrying wont make mistakes im smart etc makes feel worse inevitably make mistake theyll disappointed literally cannot stop worrying feel thoughts going round round head like stuck loop know boyfriend gets frustrated angry cry shut away doesnt understand worry things wish brain could normal could stop overthinking thinking worst happen normal people dont think killing every day im sorry sending email know long dont expect anyone read all know im ridiculous im grand scheme things none matters wish could normal brain im scared tomorrow go work ill possibly find things ive done wrong dont know happen could lose job destroyed id anxious new job could even find one wouldnt money meant buying house next year go window too feel like cant talk anyone dont want worry them cant tell employer happened last time cant tell dad hell worried boyfriend means well cant understand never worries anything hasnt ever depressed before know long anyone bother with needed type out please dont nasty impatient cry usual ignore dont want ill delete it
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i m only year ago i wa really one of the famous kid in school everything wa going well until first quarantine started i became probably the most antisocial person it wa the last half year of school so didn t go anywhere because i wa doing online lesson i didn t go out with friend at all until next year where quarantine stopped for month so had to go to school again i started getting bullied by my own friend i couldn t handle it i wa thinking of commiting suicide back then to i got through it but this made me even more antisocial i couldn t trust anyone for a really long time because a i said these were my own friend bullying me for fun now at the rd year everything is kinda ok i started going out with friend again month ago after so long but i don t like going out with them week ago i wa in bed thinking and my hole life what i like the most is video game and lucid dreaming i thought the reason why these are the only staff i enjoy to the conclusion that they offer me just an escape from sad reality which is me not enjoying literally anything else school is my biggest enemy my hole life i wait for it to be over but just can t deal with it anymore only for me to wait every day to end just to basically sleep and play some video game so i faked being sick with a lot of fever for the past week to escape school and all the stress i have in life my parent took me to the doctor and he said to do a lot of test so we can see what is my illness my parent found out because the test showed that i don t have anything they weren t mad because they think that i have a reasonable reason for doing all these and they are right but i can t tell them all of these i just can t find the power
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cant cope please helpso im bi cant cope mum hates parents going disown find im bi theyve made clear religion family classmates mocking accidently swore loudly class teacher took class grandma basically raised really young terminally ill dying friend nearly killed weeks ago kind mental illness already feel suicidal deppresed think im going another deppriesive episode cant deal another one nearly killed last time time worse know mum also gaslights think tell shell say im selfish making dad worry last timethe time ever told suicidal said selfish fault satan decided test faith must easy target know cope please help parent gonna disown way kill save mum hassle cutting off
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feel like lost myselfi wake wonder would happen died today bought enough paracetamol ibuprofen kill think use it even stash vodka hidden room note saying drink pills feel like getting life back track finally still want end all cant trust family cause overreact friends think taking piss do
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everything readyim alone room drunk ready jump if fail fall window height would enough get rid me night progress reasons jump increase
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i told them about my suicidal thought and that i don t know how long i would be gone it just got so much easier now the thought of killing myself i mean i originally planned to do it when i wa 9 but thing have changed the thing i wa afraid of wa abandoning my friend now all they all know is that i m taking a break if i just did it they would think i moved on not knowing what actually happened to me thinking that i got better
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feel urge grow up dont im like panic mode tonight it dont know whether save fun thing get motorcycle license motorcycle im kind panicking cause make wrong choice never get around thing dont know im doing idea im life
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engrossing drama four men canoing weekend remote river pacifist ed jon voight adventurous violent lewis burt reynolds obnoxious bobby ned beatty nice guy drew ronny cox first minute greattheres incredible dueling banjos sequence interesting interplay among characters stunning widescreen cinematography vilmos zsigmond two hillbillies attack ed bobby one rapes bobbyand trip becomes nightmarebr br just unbelievable scenery incredibly beautiful yet horrific violence taking place truthful beattys rape never bothered meim aware faked despite good acting movie also shows characters changeed pacifism tested lewis becomes weak bobby violated one people mocked earlier drew tries keep sane direction john boorman also assured sounds forest river help mood immenselybr br the acting mostly good voight ok leadhes better beatty also okbut debut film guts taking risky role cox good especially things start falling apart reynolds superbone best acting jobs ever even nominated academy award escapes me also bill mckinney herbert coward way believable hillbilliesbr br a powerful filmnot children try see uncut versionthe tv version butchered also letterboxed viewing essential capture breathtaking images
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jlsofficial a photoshoot eyy im sure you will all look hot come back to brighton say hellooo to the boy love you load xxxxxx
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played first soul calibur dreamcast thought great played second hooked finally soul calibur iii released bought playstation gamebr br this really keep hours huge amount characters loads unlockable content mention great fighting system really greatest fighting game date br br the games strong points foremost vs gameplay two human players battle other either playing one main characters created customized character create character option vast allows player make thousands different combinationsbr br the thing bothers create character uses fighting style grieve edge only kicks wear ridiculous shoes br br this absolutely greatest fighting game one could wish for now im hoping planned movie crap
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meatrack no more sneaky late arvo surf now man i feel the late arvo glass off is now a distant memory of summer
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throwaway think make next daysi life roller coaster cannot take anymore started college two years ago time life started relationship would first girlfriend things went while came back down finished year gpa depression leaving school friends summer combined enter long distance relationship girlfriend occured one year ago month affected job years camp counselor love working children passion job anymore depression got point affected job performance hired back summer diagnosed officially depression last august put medication never followed psychiatrist fall brought controlling behavior end regret fully understand wrong ok anyway so parent boss acted girlfriend never again december last year broke u third final time mess sent three angry text messages never threatened hurt her regret messages er suicidal times month end month asked girlfriend meet talk said no thaat night climbed ladder next apartment window knocked it never attention break in hoping would come outside realize wrong called police parents picked rushed hosital cops could get me admitted self psych ward stayed days diagnosed bipolar found wrong medication before months left hopsital set go back school past spring continue education major filed harrament tresspassing warning entereed database told would record go back skibum winter dream always had fun many nights spent alone knowing friends life many people liked considered good friend minutes away would text asking come visit not would taken one thing warning would become criminal would record unable work kids contacted anyone since night knocked window life seemed head again came home reconnected every friend blew last summer due depression got job working kids finished first week past week running background check cops said notices would show up local station entered database made clear phone stressed everyday show lose job signed lease apartment good friends fall school estactic thought back longer going back plan anyway days ago found ex filed protection abuse order me knew planning attending school fall months since called police contact anyone her want nothing her go court days there going back school help case certain thrown contacted able say going back important note contacted weeks got hospital respond made descion go back leave behind friends due mess sucks broke heart track attend school again not days see her angry past understand called police want see ever scared death see her gained pounds worked winter look good still scared see dont want bring back bad memories ten days find order thrown away finally move live life peace never see hear again order permanent go record ruin chance becoming teacher helping kids life goal scars self harm thoughts redflag rampant go work next handful days give best cant let affect cost another job affable benign thoughtful compassionate made mistake regreet learned it want live life scars self harm thoughts redflag rampant great this cant handle stress anxiety next ten days want see her dont know do
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name jesus yearold male want dieive thoughts since freshman year highschool dont know much want say part wants bawl lifes story let everything note says hey alive another part wants disappear abyss bother anyone hurt anyone else all ive already let family down let others too theres small part wants live continue hopeful naive fool used be want die always remembered quote friend anthony used say favorite game little the heart may weak sometimes may even give in ive learned that deep down theres light never goes out stopped attempting multiple times now nomatter much want shake die cant ive panic attacks manic episodes years keeping family knowing anything wanna worry them want shun like others opening up dont think life meaningless theres lot things world love family friends significant other music games animals food things cant think deserve this im stubborn opinionated asshole friends openly make fun good fun know lot people care now want die every time try every time resolve myself remember care for dont want hurt them already hurt them want die lived th floor dorms college now roommate differences room myself every night looked window wondering itd like fall never balls it now want die ever ive got word academic suspension university ive poor academic standing continuous threats parents get kicked nowhere stay continue poorly school received threat first term freshman year college since regular panic attacks crying sleep even significant unaware this two former roommates do consider close friends ive here drinking last days knowing talk family im here drinking homemade moonshine friend got late birthday preset wanting close eyes die painless death dont know do talk family keep living every plan thrown window even college education look fiancee confidence finding place together already enough depression anxiety severe own ive pull knife away hands cried tried stab herself theres reason im alive try give happy life cant even that name jesus garcia yearold male former student msoe software engineering program weeks ago someone campus know committed redflag leading week finals failed classes leading go academic suspension want follow suit cant matter much want die cant
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youre flatter flat earth society rip tits ill never ill never know like able store things boobs filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler
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@KimKardashian GO WITH THE HAIRCUT!!! YOU WILL BE GORGEOUS...I COULD TOTALLY SEE THAT LOOK ON YOU
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