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I just got hit with what literally feels a solid block of depression wtf
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please read waste timeits like could ever get balls together actually kill myself unless go plans buying alot heroin once post least important post here even first one either useless attention whore ever kill myself ill sit hope get deadly disease go serious accident ive failed two classes semester one university fucktard im going pass exams got phone lying parents grades enjoy last week here tell truth fuck up get go home week hear ruined christmas fuck piece shit worth bullet would take end it always thing concerning grades fuck lie ive gone counseling ive subscribed pills take im fucktard could point right path give everything need id still go wrong way cant socially connect anyone im failure man well cant even get women platonic relationship let alone romantic one even held hands hugged girl everyone floor including roomate hates around like really expected connection anyone wish could give amount time left life someone else use better things ever will point life anyone suffer make people suffer dead
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nothing is normal anymore i used to be this happy funny kid and now all i do is silently tear up and think about blowing my brain out like seriously there s nothing else to think about i feel like nobody care i m not going to talk to my father about this and my friend would only agree with me hel i didn t know if i should come here i can never sleep and when i do it s in the middle of class i keep everything inside and i think it s making go insane there s some worse stuff on here so i don t know if i belong here i m sorry for wasting your time
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need good news long since got good news really want hear some somthing good happened general good news
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need another copy of visual studio 00
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stupid shit weird keep giving sad people helpful advice never works personally give fuck sunsets finding soulmate succeeding care therell going back whatever paragraphs used write comments true im fucking hypocrite telling people things believe in fun cool idk much take
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im garbage human beingim waste existence oh fucking god dont want hurt one anymore im worthless dont want exist fucking hate alive dont want anyone else get hurt love much hate
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@_mallory_king Well, he's an idiot. He doesn't see the real you like I do. I see a great smile, a winning personality, and a shining heart--and a female engineer to boot. Yes, you are frazzled with depression, but peel back the onion, and there is nothing to laugh at. Just beauty inside & out.
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i see the sun peeking already, hoping this week is a lot brighter
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why still herei understand it start off successfully took life years ago midfebruary large student party student college know anyone person invited me student housing hour half away home night took local highspeed train dorms party was planned going home party started slow eventually picking night gone on making drinks took roughly hour sloshing back screwdrivers wanting vomit alcohol acid sugar coming up stumbled bathroom inside small two bedroom dorm there vaguely remember lifting toilet seat puke next thing woke hospital bed really needing piss jolted fear knowing hell got there see father sitting next hospital bed told details happened memory went blank fallen bathroom hit head proceeded choke vomit stopped moving guy invited party noticed missing found dead bathroom picked began trying resuscitate me even vomit covered facetorso yelled one party goers call paramedics arrived within minutes thanks guys attempt reviving me kept oxygen blood flow going long enough paramedics bring back ill never able live down question is why keep going wanted die knew night want return home nightmares still wish dead want redo it painful begin with retry soon cant keep continuing think life value
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morning tweetpeeps i didn t get to bed until am yesterday wa on msn to alex until and then wanted to play dead space before bed
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Just one puff of this type of cannabis 'could ease depression, stress and anxiety' https://www.thesun.co.uk/news/6137739/cannabis-ease-depression-stress-anxiety/ â¦
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hopelessim lose job seems feel like im vomit cry im going keep job care getting paid thats even mind anymore guess im used getting screwed end too lose job probably lose chance tms hope remission depression ever like still fighting even drag out realistically going work means redflag round bloody right but oh well always seem wake tomorrow whats gonna change time
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@annieoliff so excited about the house!!! you want any help setting up moving or decorating, i'm there xx
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im angry no hate anyone mentioned live deep south everyone bigoted beliefs christian im literally atheist entire familys bloodline even school go homophobes history teacher literally called bisexual people perverts tried call it told wrong people class started telling gonna go hell so parents pretty christian make go church every sunday like mom literally sat talked telling need know gay wrong sin kept nodding know disagreed literally anything bible id disowned relationship strained parents bad people anything though racist love me feed me buy shit take care like great parent would im tired keep beliefs call people bigots im tired christianity whole hate it happen live state extremely widespread happened born parents america support lgbtq know keep quiet thats best do know spoke out relationships would severely altered almost ruined wanted get frustrations subreddit know hardly ive seen literally maybe bigots here extremely large portion support lgbtq care christianity anyone similar situation love parents theyre great people really christian religion ruined south needs change im sorry ampxb edit im gay bi venting frustrations people thinking wrong way
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@SaraLHValo Oh I'm so glad to hear that!!! Each day find something to be thankful for...baby steps...you'll feel better soon
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@MissLordy @movnup Um, Lordy, you are stuck in a foreign land!!
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i don't want to learn physics..it's...i don't know...rubbish?
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ok school sent email online classes dot number four problems internet please mail school email adress way monitor absence someone teach people please xd cant fucking send email without internet ye xddd im dying stupid guy thought good idea ohhhh im dead xd
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need nickname name sucks like it really generic
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anyone else wish could hire hit man themselvesthrowaway account fyi dont want live anymore im m std havent gotten diagnosed cause im scared sucks know would never kill myself would destroy family wish could pay professional assassin kill within months something dont want see coming want shot back head without knowing it poof dead fml
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overdosed nearly died anyone want friends support otheri one told dad odd went back sleep told im going er went back sleep thats family talk anything nothing all im glad survived hoping could meet friend support eachother keep hoping find amazing girl makes life worth living again im holding much hope p dont like admit miss ex years left right mom died cancer like day anyone want come rescue kind soul bit broken inside
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first plani know escalating want done it first thought plan terrifying still comforting overdose hydrocodone suck theres always one dream thats kept going seems less relevant
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gimme hot takescontroversial opinions please im bored wanna see entertaining things wait irl things
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Going to say my prayers and go to sleep!
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freaking aced math test lets goooooo im really known getting prefect scores assignments tests ive struggling keep grade math i freaking suck math since grades closing next week kind test decided grade would b honestly stressful minutes ive while want fail anything b considered failure house today got results got questions correct lets goooo pog ya boi actually pulled off
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everyone hear this next time rickrolled remember pull uno reverse card way win amp avoid rick rolled lesson learned
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i made some really careless mistake at work today i ve been making similar mistake recently i messed up some stuff today and i m going down this slope like i m not good at my job and everybody is going to find out how bad i am and i m gon na get fired and won t be able to pay my bill and lose everything i have i don t know how to stop the negative thought
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@Mike_Kunkle i want to laugh because i know *exactly* what you mean ... but i wont
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teacher nerve teacher nerve send email homework pm i go sleep pm smartalec says thats right sent you like kidding me maybe send homework earlier fault sleep wake am im able work send me
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courage call hotlinei power search number call them afraid say want talk anybody want anybody hear useless voice want friendsnot taking last option much me jump here
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take sat tomorrow advice didnt rly study lol expect
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saw comment youtube said circuit minecraft speedrunner trans someone clarify need know whos dumb one
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humanity like this people wearing masks respecting social distancing protestors tearing symbols freedom civil human right calling white supremacy years ago anti vaccine movement happened people thought smarter doctors phds earth flatglobal warming isnt real even goes way back s people denying basic science seems basic human trait now feel downfall civilization thank coming ted talk
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nazarin directed luis bunuel presents extraordinary view religion mexico written director julio alejandro notable collaborator film put mexican cinema international map receiving grand prix cannes year disturbing film mr bunuel delves deep whats wrong churchbr br nazarin reckoning saint young priest seen living life poverty seedy pension city enough himself mind parting coin beggar appears window asking help time takes small room prostitute hurt fight another woman andara woman repays kindness burning room whole building nazarin seen taking countryside begging food andara beatriz two prostitutes old town follow him nazarins life parallels jesus fact saintly figure makes case humilitybr br of coursemr bunuel religion mind mr alejandro took upon create film ironic spain welcomed film released saw showing christian qualities reality acerbic satire catholic church ministersbr br francisco rabal spanish actor makes wonderful nazarin one best roles mr rabal worked extensively native country also mexico argentina rita macedo andara also excellent marga lopez also makes valuable contribution portrayal beatrizbr br a great film one cinemas master film makers luis bunuel
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even love people always bound leave tend screw notredflag even loved themthe pain way much cannot deal anymore someone never felt love before see person loved heart leave owing fault extremely heartbreaking although numb pain now think function properly anymore want talk someone anyone please love exist
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@just_kelly The fact that you didn't know the library closed at 6, NOT LAME.
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cant cryi cant cry vent feel bad feel numb happy know im happy im probably going kill fucking ass want people know sit like fuck dont give shit anymore ive tried everything people wont care nobody does fuck mr smith fuck system fuck people
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need help anyone good pythagriam tribometry half hours need help discord ahappysleepdeprivednerd someone could help get done would great
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im tempted tell father buy gun kill mei cant really say much beside think living stressful right now aged insurence bull pay pocket dumb ass didnt set obgyn appointment still insurence im causing dad trouble it pay every month ass doesnt cant find job cant get insurance im retarded lazy depressed living annoying doesnt pay insurence month im dead right
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is going to have a late one at mqu today
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@DITAxDEATH AND I POSTED BACK!!
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much said film typical nunsploitation course nudity sex nuns almost incidental storybr br it set th century italy time martyrdom christians otranto battle muslims christians takes good part film interesting everyone running muslim hoards mother superior would ask why fear muslims anything christians done you certainly enough torture sidesbr br sister flavia florinda bolkan sent convent defying father process witnesses endures many things gelding stallion rape local woman new duke torture nun overcome visit tarantula sect whipping ran jew torture particularly gruesome hot wax poured nun nipples cut offbr br sister flavia bound continue get trouble questions maledominated society lives even asks jesus father son holy ghost menbr br eventually joins leader muslims lover sack convent see flesh possible enjoy one time but tragedy come manages exact sweet revenge all including duke father finds muslim lover treats exactly same woman itbr br i describe holy men church heretic end predates torture saw hostel decadesbr br nunsploitation fans satisfied treats movie lovers find plenty meat digest
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i ve lost everything i lost my best friend a community of people who were my only social outlet i m a failure i m i ve never been in a relationship i couldn t graduate college i m stuck working at a job which doesn t pay enough for me to afford rent so i have to live with my retirement age parent i can t find a job anywhere else i started cutting myself today never did it a a teenager but i did it now and it feel great i don t want to die but i don t see any other solution i can not afford help to me being in debt is worse than death i ve lost so much i can t go on
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@deeyoung08 im grateful and proud of them they 110% deserve it
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im using reddit lightmode ill use dark mode ill end jail racist
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@ohhushmusic are you sure bb?
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helpim gonna straight honest dont feel depressed ive never really depressed know of great family loves everything could ever want still want die close friends considered weird kid school currently failing three classes straight student everyone hates tried telling best friend doesnt believe me says want attention honestly cant anymore hate hate life everything it im need advice need now please dont give redflag prevention hotline need help real person knows im going through reason havent already ended life dont tools to tried telling parents believe me
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please help mei feel hated throughout entire life bullied lot gradeschool got bad would actually physically hurt me would come home neither parents cared would say toughen up something along lines thought got highschool would get better since see grade school bullies actually got worse really hurts say sexually assaulted group boys never told anyone that would panic attack male would even look me ive gotten better im highschool feel like im waste space whole life people use make feel better
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@EstelleDarlings good night
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anyone herei already posted sw twice tried looking online find need httpwwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsjbhdarkness_still_engulfing_me httpwwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsjynhsuicidalneed_help moment kind medical insurance im bit time getting back long story brooklyn new york want ask anyone knows psychiatristpsychologistcounselor etc see free receive zero income zero cant sliding scale whatsoever shot dark know see doctor soon talk things someone help me definitely kill myself cannot keep surviving one help really talk to cannot keep pain constantly crying til feels like im literally choking cant breathe made week feels like soon ill gone forever im brooklyn new york desperate need qualified mental health doctor help darkness theres anyone information share me please do im drowning
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@JessieeeeeH hiyaaa my msn aint working :@ . so hi
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seasonal depression please exit stage left the sun made it come back http t co jdote rjd
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last reason stay alive shattered todaythe thing stopping im much pussy it left work bed staring ceiling
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@MissMillions yes it's a beautiful sunday over here
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I'm on my way to houston with new teeth. Haha
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want hereive never depressed whole life family longer talk ive deleted social media except reddit live boyfriend fuck felt wanted felt loved like two years makes feel like shit express frustrations invalidates feelings calls crazy says people usually say you me im telling you me summer told kill one occasion went vegas actually purposefully sliced leg open badly night vegas massacre happened too bad concert right uncle died year go january father ever was feels like father figure look died cant see point more even loaded gun including silencer wake anyone loudly everyone work id feel awful ive got everything ready problem im pussy want live want hurt want find im going burn forever hell even though think exists like happened exist ive already lived full lifetime pain cant get break even decided id bathroom bit easier clean up even though know itll get everywhere pretty much least could run shower get lot it one loves me one cares family friends children pets im burden everyone knows me want wish could stop bitch pull trigger
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cool evening, white wine, homemade cheesy potatoes, HBO, and clean laundry mmmmm..paradise...or at least better than Monday thru Friday..
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whats quickest way kill yourselfgive sincere opinions im writing office cabin feel like worth anything now world shit
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survived last night hurting tonight know alone ive fighting depression life ive moments gotten worse gotten better least expected itit got worse again last night thought could take want diebut want live wrote note thought needed do laid bed turned television funny tv show thought could laugh times would over fought idea back mind want this scared fell asleeptoo tired exhausted worry anymore knew want live thought late me hours later woke up people texted night attempted redflag still responded people reached hadnt responded breathing still am ever want live want get better know changed within me feel hopeful ever had night recognized triggered me made steps stop happening again im healed cured know ill relapses back depressionbut first time feel like im strong enough alone face get it know im faceless person internetbut hurting alone sadthere people love want help want helpand care know feels like devastating hurts physical injury ive ever sustained anyone needs talk wants someone listen promise will pm me post here talk facebook text messaging even phone need hear voice line also skype want see face
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paul grace hartman husbands grandparents deceased met watching old movies good way see work always enjoyed old movies happy discover also good one
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cant sleep anymorea month ago mom passed away arms sudden wouldnt wake still breathing even moved arms flat back whole night always trouble breathing laying back she tube chest kidney dialysis propped head back thats started choking opened eyes grabbing arms stopped breathing awhile cpr minutes waiting ambulance worked seen message help hershe low blood sugar slipped coma normally would awake see message taken new med mood two days prior messaged siblings came visit found pmwhile still alive last thought falling asleep worried dismissing thought thinking itd fine start living myself kids woke crying cant sleep screaming crying numbers pulses cpr cant stop seeing eyes struggling breathe grabs arms siblings also taken unjustly year ago bullied mom lot giving false information make look bad would less chance getting back dead continue get away it proven wrong many times get hoops jump over court judge also called past mom dead risk losing kids forever chance seeing again mom died waiting kids come home also feel like now things happen all feel wrong feeling things mom could saved easily failed neglecting night failing cpr propping neck back making unable breathe people lose people time pretty common therefore stop baby right want die hear see anymore want rest hope somewhere go somewhere
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okay, @T4OnTheBeach please announce some more artists today
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woke sweat remembering rapei havent sleeping well lately lately almost years days since ive self harmed im tired tried reaching people life love support feels like im bugging them like things do everyone life dont want mine
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ive never close beforei really know im supposed post something like need get chest ive long battle depression anxiety despite quite probable born illnesses rather developing time think ive really come close redflag since ive finally reached end line light end tunnel darkness friends care me im another person talk to really second choice maybe fourth fifth choice good day days im last choice point im choice talking friend today told think might finally kill myself responded nice joke point people even believe ive jokingly said im going kill long maybe better way maybe nobody stop me last night realized soon today realized lost important person life probably good stayed extracurricular school upset sat seat cried entire hour none people claim care tried comfort me one person try even know me know feel obligated help minutes ago dad asked plan high school said die scolded not answering seriously little know plan kill within next weeks im letting sink might actually time feels wrong type share story feel right stay would stay world nobody genuinely cares me nobody even loves me worst part want tell someone want someone stop tell prove actually care one left sharing strangers reddit
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it's real depression hours pic.twitter.com/zOG4ZTBM2e
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dont know much longer keep upive attempted redflag times time think im getting better everything turns shit again dont know function without influence try talk friend feel terrible dad alcoholic recently diagnosed bpd completely thrown loop dont know feels like cards ive dealt keep getting shittier shittier fucking sucks im tired trying im tired trying get better nothing working everything feels heavy feel like im slipping feels like end dont want keep going
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t w stalking so the other week i had a late doc appointment and whilst i wa walking a man started following me it obvious scared the shit out of me and my heart wa racing and i felt jelly leg and i wa in tear fast forward a couple of week and i ve started getting a racing heartbeat and feeling faint etc having the feeling only when i m out by myself so i know they re panic attack but they only happen when i go out by myself even if it s from the bus stop to home i m guessing that it may be from what happened are there any tip people have for trying to battle this im seeing a therapist soon but want some extra advice whilst i wait for it
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i don t know how can someone be this much of a failure i suck i have no social skill hell i have no skill in general people say everyone is good at something but not me i suck at everything why am i like this
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sick rat raceeverything parents want focused college marching band even though want to every days would get called guilted enough prepare stupid college feel trapped everyone says getting easy struggle thought redflag almost attempted hate existance asian parents suck
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well i got diagnosed with depression guess 0 won t be my year either
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school antiabortion club still hasnt shut even someone made fun girl got raped front principal pretty much high school antiabortion club fucking stupid preach ever life life matter what group students showed protest club the club meetings school theyve said horrid things people club unironically said girl gets raped baby matter predetermined father say students got extremely mad said one girl got emotional talked experience raped disgusting say that guy said crying wont unrape you principal front him principal fucking chuckled cracked smile what the fuck
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never seriously considered redflag recentlyi always thought redflag knew id never it past days im done cant get right diagnosis whats wrong me citalopram took edge while stopped working tried cymbalta made zombie docs going lamotrigine working mood swings thats starting fail too still leaves depressed crying anyway lamotrogine also given worst acne life im prepared fuck around anymore medications especially considering could lead weight gain see ever feeling good finding right medications psychologist fucking sucks went talk lamotrigine within one minute wrote script ability sent out office four minutes friends never did sister friend got married even tell we still live house dog parents trying help thats it whats point feel good earth feel anything
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needwhat need shelter need food money need job need friends family need hobby have rope
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sherman set wayback machine for united states climbing worst postwar recession japan enjoying unprecedented industrial boom manufacturing industries still significant part us economy factory workers good example average american word downsizing entered general vocabulary yet everyone knew phenomenon bruce could heard radio singing foreman says jobs going boy aint coming back hometown chrysler bailed uncle sam bumper stickers could seen saying buy american job save may ownbr br gung ho better job capturing mood american industrial workforce popular movie made period certainly movie flaws loose plot threads mediocre acting jobs everyone except michael keaton gedde watanabe story really meeting east west keatons hunt stevenson personifies america brash confident outside yet insecure underneath watanabes kazuhiro personifies japan top heap successful system wondering learned western rivals movies plot flawed is simply provides framework conflict eventually synthesis two personalitiesbr br keatons acting overshadows everyone elses practically makes movie itself ive always admired keaton ability deliver lines feel improvised matter script hes following character hunt stevenson likable affable everyman natural leader wiseass streak fatal flaw common many us want disappoint anyone hell distract crowd inspirational anecdotes even lie rather point ugly truthbr br kazuhiro mirror image stevenson shy introspective also japanese upbringing reluctant bearer bad news scene stevenson first comes kazuhiro employees grievances captures perfectly japanese approach workplace conflict kazuhiro replies stevensons complaints i understand saying refuse requests loud stevenson misinterprets agreement goes away saying okay weve got settled this still problem japaneseamerican business relations st centurybr br ultimately kazuhiro stevenson problem get factory working smoothly meet production goals fulfill responsibility workers them working towards goal take page others book kazuhiros family becoming americanized obvious example also note stevenson thinks odd kazuhiro explains make public apology workers failing yet later movie stevenson exactly himselfbr br the plot resolution little cornball hey comedy overlook movies flaws great story selfrealization openmindedness here
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play damn game game among us seconds game started somebody presses emergency button why wanted everyone know girl everyone skipped vote couple seconds killed someone front several people reported body accusing girl clearly impostor every votes telling leave alone ghost every happily crowding girl constantly calling emergencies decide sacrifice themselves next really pisses people even play game like theyre supposed someones gender play fucking game whats worse girl even took advantage win game usually play single player games deal shitheads servers like one
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cnn in term of immune system depression
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in america kill themselves natvies old ppl sad know im defect per human
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listening to Gregory and the Hawk on repeat
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spilt koolaid carpet making koolaid spilled stains im fucked
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@skylinesource awwww..you're so sweet.
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@BellsCullen1901 hey i may not be right. dont blow charlie off spend the night with him. things will work out i hope.
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balance slowly deteriorating right knee keeps getting weaker always keep drifting right walk without paying attention it family calls pinball keep bouncing wall
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need shirts plz send recommendations tshirts preferred
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math is 60% the cause of my depression..
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friends replace relationships im done ittitle says all ive diagnosed ptsd last thing want hear stories reply explain would really like shorten explain want hear it best friend left boyfriend rejecting telling i boyfriend now need anymore never talking again tried everything nothing worked cousin we real cousins marital thing went together well relied problems relied often left boyfriend help start relationship him told sex him did told did said treated like shit would never talk again called motor vehicle incident arrived first one scene wrong way collision head on truck car car drifted wrong lane occupants truck okay woman driving car unresponsive instantly recognized saw face girl left time pulled vehicle buddy paramedics already arrived performed cpr success taken local hospital followed shortly told died likely even scene mother recognized also many years ago told i reason daughter died let die nothing could done never got chance talk make things right her never will httpwwwnjcomcumberlandindexssfyearold_woman_dead_in_crash_cops_sayhtml
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think someone dont even know ended life im scaredi dont even know him ive seen post think hes finally done it idk feel idk calm kinda wanna hurt
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need little supporthi im new here looked briefly rules best follow them please let know say something wrong suicidal ideation since decade now side effect depression im used it ive learned lot coping skills really good controlling days ive actually really well lately exactly crossed mind months couple weeks ago friend mine brother committed redflag brutal whole family talked offered condolences kept distance today heard another aquaintence whose boyfriend committed weekend close either again offer condolences stay bay honestly though im really hard time coping ive always quick trigger comes hearing someone else it surprised handled first one well did one making things difficult feeloff like little dissociative apathetic usual im afraid whats going underneath emotions bubble way surface want tell anyone know everyone understandbly high alert copycats around here know fall high concern list many loved ones guess needed get chest somewhere judge worry me understand mean say things feel guilty like im making tragedies even really mine also know perfectly valid someone history struggling right now guess need reassurance im alone here
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five medical students kevin bacon david labraccio william baldwin dr joe hurley oliver platt randy steckle julia roberts dr rachel mannus kiefer sutherland nelson experiment clandestine near death afterlife experiences researching medical personal enlightenment one one medical students heart stopped revivedbr br under temporary death spells experiences bizarre visions including forgotten childhood memories flashbacks like childrens nightmares revived students disturbed remembering regretful acts committed done them experience afterlife bring real life experiences back present continue experiment remembrances dramatically intensify much so physically overcome thus probe transcend deeper deathafterlife experiences attempting find curebr br even though dvd released motion picture released therefore kevin bacon william baldwin julia roberts kiefer sutherland early stages adult acting careers besides plot extremely intriguing suspense building dramatic climax script tight convincing young actors make flatliners allstar cult semiscifi suspense knew years ago film careers young group actors would skyrocket suspect director joel schumacher did
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really want get out maybe please hopefully someone words might able help all really really sorry long need get outim year old indian man grown quite traditional household uk means mental health always taboo subject never brought issues parents think level might know experienced issues capacity given done lot reading subject done charity work mental health charities etc part wonders upbringing makes obvious believe true problem sorted hugso went good school excellent university great grades show great social skills front whenever need to good job took two years moved japan moved back month ago living parents first time yearssomething wrong feel mentally fragile time nothing gets mental strength run rolling day cycle feeling ok heavy useless again backstory grew friends situation actually remember recently realised sdam inability remember anything recent years always saw positive whatever was past beyond that university always felt completely mentally strong myself time found infidelity father person felt close time excluding brother person id ever call anything went wrong fortunately trust issues compensated finding first love time moved america compensated drinking excessively entire year pretty much joining frat drinking troubles away year without talking family all year concluded breaking girlfriend time due lies infidelity side back uk finish studies started work years initial getting trust ex years probably strongest life felt confident trust issues or thought regained relationship family friends great job great house good circle friends great round timethen went japan again first months life exciting new city new culture incredible new career learning much myself found love nd time happened covid quarantine went incredible comfortable months life someone people say connect way never experienced time finding truly someone feel relationship reciprocated rare me excited slowly next year half turned steady comfortable relationship different people somehow worked think slowed much needed way although good times previously mentally strong highfunctioning probably needed someone lived bringing back healthier version strong mindhowever halftruths lies past side next months sort put damper it made continually question relationship thing time round although condoning it actually see logic lies clearest mind see still confident future together malicious intent long story short year since constant rumination mental battles issues again mainly trust whenever get stuck thinking it takes weeks even months get regresses back worst depressive states although know true because think it rather actual issues relationship think underlying issues previous trust broken father first love put position although want to cannot let go past new relationship struggle trust again screws whole mindthese ruminations kept bay japan still surrounded loving relationship meditation yoga surfing keep mind clear possible although often getting stuck found getting much quicker way really however almost limit longevity relationship mind limit much hurt caused become unfunctional human back uk month stuck beyond belief feel like thought loops get stuck head find going thing conversations brain trying apply logic get it mentally weigh beyond belief continually ruin daytoday life cannot bring things helped yoga meditation everything gets stuck way cannot live know back parents home long relationship lack trust lack job culture shock them think idle mind devils plaything seems playing relationship view ruining mindnow every interaction leads state mental instability today parents came back day told bought new bedsheets gift prospect anything new surprise ordinary breaks me walk away saying want it half angry trying hold back tears crumbing mentallythen get angry acting like dick face kind gesture people love mei know do nothing feels like helps want anything stay bed day torn putting brave face parents see me want get back healthy self point life know itif anyone read maybe provide help something do something focus on anyone something similar even someone talk to would really appreciativei really sorry long post know continue life
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My depression has been cured. pic.twitter.com/kuh342PPjg
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how doe your anxiety manifest itself when you are having severe anxiety
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aging ruined mei completely unblossomed im average child became stunning yr thought everyone naturally nice naive really feel loss identity anybody knew tell shocked badly look now im typical hot girl thats going grow ugly s everyone looks better im really lost know living others opinions thats ive unconsciously idk nothing else worth besides looks gone overheard mum saying older sister prettier aging better im going kill myself ive talked school counsellor absolutely refuse go talk stranger problems again everyone look eye stare blotchy acne covered skin people thought cared using me cant even trust family im going kill probably kitchen knife ive learnt sharpen it found pulse neck probably artery flowing blood might stab backyard sound make less likely heard ill exercise cold weather bit effective going bathroom want stench there ive never felt form love never received truly family treated like trophy feeds look bad hate everyone much including myself online long text messages idc met anyone real life id revolted
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want die cant iti nothing live for friends many enemies im disappointment family im social outcast without future still cant bring coward am fantasise people loving famous standing face danger super confident myself however could never this freeze thought pain im coward cant even bring give pain deserve ive done stupid things coward would do ive betrayed many people without knowing physically cant look anyone eye anymore im disappointment coward and all horrible person want make everyone taking life cant hate everyone everything yet cant leave all
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amazing conversation go big international school get ton new students every year usually never approach new students begging year year regretted that theres new girl joined class never talked halfway schoolyear btw week ago beach cleanup walking back school decided chat her turns hardcore gamer loves fps games batman deadass minute long conversation overused use batmobile arkahm knight anyway friends frequently talk moral story make effort talk people
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@WTFKatie the video's done I can't get the link because youtube isn't working, but it's the newest one under youtube.com/sarahsaysfasho
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anything fineim yr old boy fucking old ass dad always shouts play computer says fucking study knows top student science school even care thinks im lazy planning kill today get fucking home ill find overpass throw cars passing by
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@ronnyvengeance I would be beyond excited
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towards the end of my senior year of high school my anxiety wa at an all time high i d cry in the parking lot having a panic attack nearly every day and i missed sm school because of it luckily my school teacher and counselor were very understanding and helped me get through it and graduate but i wa very close to not being able to walk due to my attendance i got through it though and over the summer that extreme anxiously gradually faded out surprisingly when i entered college my anxiety wa probably the best it s ever been to be specific my social anxiety wa nearly non detectable i still had some general anxiety about school and stuff but tbh even that wa barely there most of the time i kinda developed a carefree mindset where i stopped being so anxious about being a people pleaser and instead wa just myself i knew i wa a good person i m funny loyal adventurous and a good friend so if anyone didn t like me that s their loss tbh i felt this way in high school too at least in term of knowing my worth the only difference is i wa to afraid to show myself to people unfortunately though i think this carefree attitude went a bit too far a it started affecting my academic i have adhd too so that made me struggle with stuff ofc but i think that my new stance on my life kinda made everything even worse academically i dropped out after one semester i didn t want to but i knew i had to since i wa basically not trying at school didn t like my major horrible grade i wouldn t be able to afford it if my scholarship wa taken away due to my grade if i stayed i d probably be put on academic probation for a major i don t even care about anymore there s probably many more reason that led to me dropping out but moral of the story is i m not in school anymore the past two month i ve just been at home honestly doing nothing i enrolled in community college but i attended two class and then on the day of my rd class i got extremely depressed probably the most depressed i ve ever been i couldn t eat sleep or even drink water obviously i couldn t get outta the house and go to my class if i couldn t even do basic thing like that so my mom made me drop out she wa actually the one who kinda forced me into it i wanted to just take a break from school for a semester and work for a bit so i could figure out what i wanted but she wa adamant about going to community college since leaving community college i ve been trying to get my shit together i still have bad day depression wise but it s gotten better i started seeing my therapist again and i m also getting tested by a neurologist to see if i have anything else going on outside of my adhd anxiety and depression a my therapist and psychiatrist think i might have some processing disorder once i see the neurologist i think i wan na get a job again my old job wa great a it wa a small business so they were le strict i m chronically late by at least 0 minute but my old bos wa understanding about that in a way i feel like larger business wouldn t be anyways back to my point today i got a sudden wave of anxiety i haven t felt since probably my first day of college tbh since i haven t experienced it in a while i forgot how debilitating and overwhelming it is idk how to deal with it now
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