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life just fucking suck i hate everything but above anything else the most i hate is religion i cant help it but say that i do not understand religion and their concept guess what i had to be born in a religious family fuck yeah because of that i am constantly threatened by religious friend and family looking at me like i am a disgusting being constant physical abuse by my mother just because i disagree with their belief i never wa disrepectful to them i just hoped that i could be free and decied wetehr or not follow the religion but no my mother is more worried of what other family member think of her so she try to force me to not reject religion or else my family will think that she is a bad mother and look down on her my family is a fucking joke this is not my only reason that made me start having suicidal thought i am a teenager male so i unfortunately still depend of my mother but that doe not matter because i decided that after finishing uni i will kill msyelf i am weak i cant even handle a full time job i have no realistic goal i have no ambition and even le motivation to do anything it seems i am not suitable fort this world so the only thing i am able to do is fuck this shit i give up i am not strong enough and i know it is pathetic and cowardly yes you are right i am a fucking coward piece of scum so please kill me already
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im horny anymore kidding im even horny
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everything say gets deleted but genuinely do really really want kill myself also not live loving life hate horribly cut routine feel now like baths cleans makes less visible family noticeask kill hate
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im girl please give attention bcos im girl im begging
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im waitingfor one final straw drive edge finally all ive prepared everything except im going redflag note point dont even want write notetheres nothing want say anybodyits fault born suicidal self harming piece shit
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@drlfarrell #irishmed T1 Early intervention. Also, GP aware of impact of physical health on psychological well being aside from discrete MH difficulties ie anxiety/depression.
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yeah sure breakups hurt ever lost amazing person life guys miscommunicated started dating best friend cant tell really felt see together time
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better die means saving hersometimes vivid thoughts usually dreams sometimes happen im awake too ampxb see her bruised bloodied crying front me see feel warmth hands feel smell blood like see hurt dont always beautiful matter looks sounds like time always see her bleeding head cowering fear horrible always know im responsible sometime even sobs stop cant take it know never ever loved ever wanted but even infinitesimally small chance could reality better die loneliness enough make want kill myself even somehow somehow wrong that better die anyway protect whoever future victim wouldve been know ill never loved saw experienced physical sexual emotional abuse whos say girl love worth dying too make sure that chance future girlfriend exist finds someone actually take care instead someone wholl carry pain
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second semester college starts tomorrow girl ive talking mia lately fact ill never successful streaming dreamsmp making sad wanna say something nice imma sleep rn ill wake whatever im awake say anything want song recommendations life tips whats going life anything ill see em tomorrow gnight ladies gents
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keep living herive suicidal long time ive made several attempts before im used people caring attempt ive made new friend think would take hard wrong got really sad scared visited afterwards hugged crying tried make promise keep alive her want make feel like hard keep fighting still want end feeling guilt thinking taking life know much would hurt her really know anymore since feelings constantly gnawing me harder psychiatrist taking break holidays cant speak either this
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want die stop burdenim tired burden everyone around me im trans matter life able pass appearances put strain every single relationship ive ever had lost friends family detests me family letting stay graduated college ended dropping almost year ago point able find job anything pretend go college every day dont soon figure may latest supposed graduate theyll throw ill homeless unable keep transitioning unemployed feel like get instead go put family trouble throwing im issue
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goodbye amp thank youmy ex girlfriend years left hours ago watched leave knowing never come back knowing never see feel again always knew day would come however would deny deep inside prepared happen next life therefore decided time finish adventure here would like thank ex girlfriend girlfriend best friend amazing person supporting me accepting following around world truly deserve amazing person life travelled played video games suffered achieved many things together planned whole future together excited unfortunately something changed something flipped switch head decided longer going part future love felt gone chance try fix it made decision left quickly time react always knew ever lost would longer able live life carry on knew would completely dead inside energy motivation continue move on one person really helped life gave reason get every morning work love much person wanted spend rest life with gone thank sharing years life me travelling creating amazing memories together could asked better person nobody ever able replace you would also like thank father allowing amazing childhood allowing amazing relationship ex helped us go explore world encouraged us follow dreams matter what thankful father cared much invested much time making sure life great was last person would like thank sister giving somewhere stay looking tough moments life never got tell much amazing sister really are know really hurt please understand need do know cause lot pain longer live like this ex true love person could really talk to something funny show going tough times fought hard get were love different everyday special waking next seeing face gave much happiness could write much feel want get finish need say quickly life unfair one moment flying clouds next struggling get bed make breakfast even shower feeling way killing me ive never felt sad life know get better matter much try longer love life giving energy decided time right pull plug accept people handle better others years planet last spent best years life really fun longer accept fact us things building causing much pain cant face family tell happened cant open phone without seeing pictures videos together every seconds memory pops head makes cry instantly time come leave awful place job place own money perfect time leave thank reddit always giving something times tough im sure understand this hours longer honestly excited seeing this good luck anyone strong enough still go lives thank time see side
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scared that the ceiling fan will drop and decapitate me can t turn on the air condioner either scared that it might explode
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@Sageogfruit He has a derpy smile in honor of how I feel about the Classics one. Hate-yet-not-hate art?
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i haven t thought about killing myself since 0 yet here we are today year later getting closer to 0 and i m in the bathroom of my workplace and the only thing i can think of is slicing my wrist when i get home i haven t slept in 0 hour and i m seriously considering drinking my pain away maybe i ll puke in my sleep and get done with it i don t care if anyone will cry for me probably will but i m in pain so much pain guy
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fragglerock excellent way schindlers list excellent great watch children adults genders big noses seen hinting towards phallic symbols way hr puff n stuff hinted towards marijuana smoking kids love movie enjoyed much child father showed movie child enjoyed well pointed exaggerated noses phallic symbols although time clue were movie comedy adventure storyline wacky cheerful shall enjoy together
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aight teenagers socially adept need help got back camping trip walking path chilling two girls maybe fifteen think laughing one asked ig gqve it walk hopped insta saw taht bith themhad followed sent dm requests said heyy obviously tiny stroke dont know anything kinda shit next day met again asked could hang anf explained campgrounds weekend can someone explain would greatly appreciated
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im exhausted existingi tried therapy ive tried medication long term neither really worked me feel like cant trust anyone im isolated alone ive terrible life experiences cant trust people cruel im hope one day gather courage
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doe anxiety get better after 0
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said deep feelings me suggested meeting another time without booze morning text apologising asshole replied said think that little overwhelmed since heard much him cant stop thinking it
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thinking would kill suicidalstruggled depression whole life im spot right second im faced lot things coming together potentially disappointing lot people including kids mainly myself feel like shallow pointless useless thing im even sad more im just empty feel suicidal think redflag daily think easy would turn car bridge divider easy would take entire bottle sleeping pills wonder would feel would able actually slit wrists could bring it reasons to many reasons right now hurt would cause people still big priority me want hurt people love made mistake telling husband things think daily hes freaking out feel like theres distinction thinking redflag suicidal really convinced plan except ways think it like ive sat put calendar maybe im denial maybe suicidal want kill myself just want alive more prospect facing future overwhelming feel like can worry point desire hurt people around overtaken desire live asked would tell got point answered honestly know think honestly point caring hurt pain much probably tell him now telling that ive inadvertently hurt him increased worry lot wish hadnt im sorry told him wants sorry tell sooner kind thoughts know know exactly started want think using excuse trump card argument attention seeking thing know want tell him know im posting this feedback feel like low level call hotline something like this like thats people knife hand car bridge someone thinking it way think grocery list chores
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superb film draws variety talented actors musicians top form levant crosby martin rathbone manone completely home story apparently supplied billy wilder one would love know much it exceptionally clever variation sterile masterfertile servant tale nearly allegory entertainment industry run driedup numskulls made vibrant world art play exploited underclass nobodies nonwasps looking last six decades music tv film us hard see underlying insights film prophetic
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know might feeling many relate to depression less half life due many different factors things happened throughout lifei used drink alcohol quite frequently even smoke lot weed however quit things completely couple months ago another journey itselfi knew indulging different substances make highdrunk pushed feelings redflag depression aside making disappear forgetting moment came back last couple months completely facing shit unable or say unwilling escape means constantly feeling want cry time little feeling want let floods real got much tension inside know potential would feel much better afterwards time feel empty cannot cry matter hard try feels like emotions somehow trapped deep inside me would need terrible reason able let go pressure instead letting go getting rid it keeps staying is really frustrating want cry cannot
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i hate it when i m having depression day and then something i wrote get published like i m sad but also happy but also guilty for being sad brain bitch what do u want
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hate nose rgasm fades like relationship guy
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lost lost game remembered
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really considering redflagi thoguht life turning would get away bullying followed like years ago ive became bullied think time go ive feeling weeks now ive felt kind since week ive felt usually weeks cant stop thinking redflag im turning weeks ive accepted im gonna experience th birthday know im gonna die alone nobody ever love me even know im writing this maybe im drunk knows
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@LindsayWolves No nothing planned really, hopfully if the weather is good sitting in garden and getting a tan x
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sister tried commit redflag last night confessed rapedshe tried commit redflag last night taking bunch pills really slowed heart rate down doctors said sick took probably would dead still resuscitated though stomach pumped still currently hospital shes obviously depressed says i want anymore worrying confessed thats raped years ago someone knew beginning downward spiral her found going great difficulty conceiving child ever can relationship trouble distanced family feel like belongs anymore locked up cant visit stays bf still stays grandparents controlling possessive fear is may wake one day may anymore helpful best thing say situations someone sensitive stuck ways really open healthy change also acknowledges need it help frame mind feel like living anymore much people offer around good enough emotionally tiring im half months pregnant four year old cant dedicate every waking minute feel like risk rn wish knew right thing was
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toddler though april fools april long found one day year reeeaally dissappointed
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currently researching guns buyive never bought gun never gun person shot gun maybe times life im learning lot trying avoid botched attempt even reading medical papers studies selfinflicted gunshot wounds works doesnt lied therapist today said im danger myself never lie him cant wait gone
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tonight s episode of house incredibly sad and it ha nothing to do with meatloaf s usual bad acting
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I'm entering a post-infinity war depression bye
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posted rdepression im feeling really shitty yesterday birthday know bother anymoreso made plans party today invited people month ago reminded week ago people said bought bonfire permit today lot money right since im broke wanted happy birthday once well birthday rolls hear anyone another loneliest day year today reached people said theyre coming either got reply come literally everyone second birthday row something like happened spent alone maybe cant remember mention every holiday people funhalloween ect actually hung friends since graduated college year half ago ive things supposed make feel better like going gym trying get university something worthless like college degree quitting toxic job deactivating facebook none fucking working want fucking friend
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kyrei eleison ego defeceruntalea iacta est die cast please understand present wish subdued it written letter wanted write little girl decision final she everyone else better without taint regrets adding another failure huge pack sorrow everyone might give damn failing little girl seeing grow up man love babe much reason message ask simple wish thank you thank letting part community this cannot say owe let acta sopa pipa form cencorship prevail keep internet alive free yourselves children future fight bitter end reddit chan gag memebase win cyber war believe all thank you oh small ps favourite movie whos afraid virginia woolf check out roles richard burton elizabeth taylor planted transcend every movie comes today
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everyone everyone oh work here saddd
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cant winwhenever im sad thinking i wanna die cause whats fucking point want feel like anymore whenever im actually happy thinking this going last im always going super fucking sad again might well kill tonight least die knowing last day happy know take much this
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tired disappointment muchwhats point living nothing disappointment pain im forced go everyday ever since kid ive living shit life everytime think something good happenit gets ripped me ive always kept faith telling get better years later im typing tears eyes cause pain getting much try hard nice polite look others im always volunteer someone needs shoulder cry onnever shoulder cry on like feel peoples pain really really can hurts ive always kept head up looking forward good future me people try help well brother needs kidney hes dialysis promised mother would find one two years feel mothers pain hurts most try hard help others make progress disappointment makes worse want end badly know would absolutely destroy mother that would killed long time ago cant even keep head anymoreim army soldier supposed keep head up supposed walk confidence head held high confidence everytime think something good happendisappointment follows suit like im grateful already eitherbut grateful health motherthats it
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need find courage iti cant live world cant happy desire keep anything all im still going work insignificant wish courage mind lay cold woods alone peace slit wrists ways dying extreme torturous cant this want this course cant let anyone know fuck dynamic thing look forward to would easier nothing want die dire circumstances id rather go still privelages still enjoy still basic necessities life could done total peace meditate it feel fear etc eventually hopefully enough peace it
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storyi havent bad life honestly things considered fortunate but still happened thought gaping blackness lurks within minds rose took grasp twice life twice looked death face emerged scathed yet alive able learn move on tines girl different girls tine two deeply cared for friends quickly fell love them exact makeup type witty sassy sweet caring always trying make smile finally got nerve confess feelings turned backs me times thought killing myself seriously considered it fact recall pair scissors open neck crying mirror changed mind yesterday started crying work pause look mom completely oblivious pain bring back considering again year old white man never girlfriend kiss relationship kind body image issues related manhood raised religion teaches lust desire sure fire tickets hell perhaps important others wanted say struggle thought well do trick decide keep going gets better know sounds like cliche genuinely believe it give up fight on one day emerge victorious faith you you yourselves catch later good day try smile
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donniewahlberg donnie when are you coming back to the uk it s been toooo long x
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need someone talk to right nowi cant afford miserable yet front people know me want talk little bit chat sadness addicting nature misery stop disregarding stop suicidal hate much
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message fellow teenagers myanmar hear anything us next hours days please know military cut internet connectivity taken freedom speech away well citizen myanmar agree current move would like request world leaders un global media give hand country leaders people bitter acts want democracy want country track democracy route saynotomyanmarmilitarycoup justiceformyanmar savemyanmar
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first day of school. *tired* :-& http://plurk.com/p/113ph6
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reasons date me many ask whatever want me
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Happy Birthday to me!
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artistofcalcio amyisunited all of them will be i imagine i mean i have sympathy for him having depression but his performance haven t been good enough over the last year amp he wa quite happy to let raiola disrupt thing every month
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im sad thats it thats post
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yes ultralow budget movie acting award winning material times action slowpaced filmmakers shooting longer sequences million instants get edited movie film makes outstanding script takes vampirism seriously explains develops full plot it aside vampire story get detailed genetics info legal law enforcement martial arts action philosophical musings good metal music kudos go dylan oleary directorwritermain actor beyond man could fulfilled roles well think appreciate movie wellversed sorts themes see writer lot research knows things great camera work too interesting camera angles one underwater vampire attack something seen before pays homage underwater zombie attack fulcis zombi casting good far sexy female sexy indeed main vampire also looks perfect role female victim looks vulnerable complaint low budget horror flick nudity want see original vampire movie great story flick you im looking forward seeing future projects mr oleary
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possible spoilers included nothing critical given awaybr br i watched classic low budget movie video knocked level energy present screen actors proud especially john daniels must see another films movie boast great performances manages stylish sequences like baron throws someone window see shards glass falling swimming pool erupts impact fallen man love way slowmotion photography used s cinema dreamy hypnotic cool witty black dudes spout great one liners slimy seedy lumps white trash come unpleasant ends love it rating ever comes dvd count purchase
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@s4r4hj I know! already looking online to see what I'm after! Lol!
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hey ive got new sub called rfattestdogs pics gifs fat big doggos new want get started
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killing todayits over redflag note done tonight ill free free emotion free self hatred free everything im almost done will brain trying one last time survive look help one time please thats says august th felt first stroke pain born coddled school issue went there stemm academy september th first thought death kept hidden told parents feelings told old thing redflag permanent solution temporary problem problem go away then got really irritated teacher might well spit face told whole class teen redflag caused thinking little things big now makes sense give up ive fighting war long ive left stemm echos pain still ruin me please help me truth want die ever want pain end im weak know it im coward ive given survive longer old strength support
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wish could end years suffering alreadyi stopped showing class again looks like thats another k student debt nothing show yay rd attempt college years last night go night got drunk stabbed thighs stayed bed day cuz walk apparently called mom asked pick take home wanna go home thats nowhere apparently voice small child memory it suicidal im weird blackout drunk well im tired dealing this know need help cant stand another day month year feeling like way cant talk anyone depressed suicidal gets redundant awhile know
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let lust take love oh boy even start well gone shit regarding relationshipsso lets call ex abigail around three elder me trust say this fell love even kidding happend and well one day confessed bam dating already best friends hung everyday park talked lifesometimes life sometimes china could become world leader coming years basically could talk days without getting bored well loved every bit hence loved other month datingwe first kiss always bit awkward didnt help first time lmao nonetheless enjoyed it thats began sweet moment ecstasy pure joy kiss someone love incomparable retrospect bit soonfast forwards weeks full making outher apartment mine top parents good friends could visit practically whenever wantedi talking full rd base here realised it got addicted itnow horny teen uk sux i would go way get actionnow would say whats problem right well problem getting addicted person dating rather act getting action love became lesser anything lust overcame love herit felt good used like toobut turns liked act her obviously naive self told oh guys together means love right wrongi horny realize much good person slowly losingafter first months remember nothing relationshipno talkingno hanging constant making outand wellthe day came feared most obviously cuz older go college firstnow love never grew lessit lust grew strongerso said you know even though going bout still keep relationshipwe love whats lil distance eh thats started long distance thought well diffcult be love someone stay away still love em problem love fell short front lust week lefti realized felt emptywe talk muchnot anyway even ever get enoughi always wanted time caring anywaybut realized talk much started looking friends friends anyone could talk freely like actually care know well graduated next gradeand saw one hotter classmatesand straight went like huhshe would pretty nice datebut looking back it realized much scum wasthe reason happen lustbecause well moreover care someone lovedi wanted boneand thats abandoned lovei started talking less frequently started talking friend loti legit became simp girl sexi wanted fill void created stupidity boning someone elsenow remember want current relation end either wanted bone well thankfully lil bitch never really advanced friendi happy didnt relationbut like fuck enough texted abigail outta blue told herheythis aint gona work us left herthe fucking irony situation still leave me first thing replied heyare ok want calland looking back it realize much moron leave her said said think us fight lot really get along anymore leave itbut still somehow managed convince break upbut disagreement little topic used bring topic breaking well started crywell much ever wanted run away heri see cryi couldnt well continued months finally december we decided end iti guess matter much love person tolerate much bullshit eh well might scum least know needed study well getting admission good high schoolso decided drop ideas girl study seriously fortunately exams got time lock imposed country well plenty time think everything happend happen future well quarantine realized knowsex aint everythingi blind lust see love regret everything done hurt saint womani realized much human trash probably deserved sexless quarantineactually funny thing thati even think enjoy sex anymorei guessi disturbed nowdisturbed easily one wrong things wrong reasons finally realized realized years agothat sex product lovewhen truly love someone wish physical things thembut guess young naive ever consider it took joke blatantly left girl nothing short perfect supporting getting action tldri human piece trasha scum may decided improve gonna go back hurt enough infact taking break sort relationships probably wont date someone find someone see settling with
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i fell so fucking in love with my best friend and i m feeling very alone and in a dangerous space rn i normally would say more but i m tired of telling people the same story and just plane exhausted i just want someone to talk to don t have to be therapeutic just a a fellow human
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anyone make laugh ill give award doubt anyone funny enough make laugh
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I've been fighting severe depression and extreme anxiety for about 5-6 years now and anyone close to me knows the lengths I've went to escape it. While I'm still fighting I will say I feel myself coming out On The winning end and a lot of that has to do with those around me <Emoji: Heavy red heart>
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first saw foreign film festival beautifully paced nailbiter plot relieve estonian treasury billion gold shot gritty grainy style hollywood rarely uses captures atmosphere newly emancipated baltic states beautifully note tallin actually looking lot less grim therebr br theres lot humor romance too want spoil number startling yet logical surprises ill say heist film starts great script directing performances top notch darkness tallin simply fastest nerveracking example genre id put rafifi topkapi miles ahead new oceans though deliberately glossy rent buy now
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there s much depression in europe and the leading cause can be traced to psychological overload the peace and prosperity of europe come with boredom something nigerian will never understand or relate with cuz there s no loneliness in nigeria
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it using alt account say this cant take life thrown me lost job applying everywhere months even fast food places hire me move back parents im forcing marriage apart hurt father mother hated since wants tells every day doesnt care never sees again would give peace mind gone dads life taken possessions including car shes taken away phone several times always bought new one anyway guess wont need car phone tonight wake mom peace mind guess goodbye reddit wish best rest there
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i am not wanting to go to school tomorrow
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toi apologize advance use insensitive language first time writing matter familiar terms lost relative redflag year ago painful days ago heard another news high school friend scares much might lose redflag scares especially relative took life one saw signs protect ones care for know loved one danger late good reading non verbal signs strong tendency think everything okay makes blind subtleties would help someones pain
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sucks im christian ive always thought church ive going past years great teaching generally really good really lost respect whole pandemic mandating masks worn services treating covid like joke mom agree irresponsible were attending person carelessness understand cant decent thing take seriously top first service back building watched online pastor basically shaming people afraid come church mean yes agree together fellowship want people come part make sure safe youth group same wear masks really liked youth group seen people age often past months obviously looking forward would able meet again cant go theyre safe
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hi r anxiety i m a 0yr old male with what i would say is a decent amount of stress but nothing out of the norm yeah work is stressful rent is increasing and a proposal to my gf are all looming but i ve always been able to accept those thing will come with some mild stress since i m human i ve been experiencing what i can only describe a mild severe panic attack recently that are completely wiping me off the face of the earth this past saturday i found myself in a bathroom stall at noon after being out with friend for lunch drink experiencing symptom last night after work i came home wa slapped with tunnel vision trembling tight chest and once i laid down in bed had what i would describe a the worst experience of my life for 0 minute borderline exorcism i m completely new to this experience and am obviously concerned what my trigger are or where this is coming from i plan on having a wellness check with my local physician but are there buzzword or thing i should include so i can do exactly explain what i am experiencing i constantly drink water i take only about 00mg caffeine a day i exercise time a week i have what i would describe a a pretty well balanced diet why is this happening all of a sudden appreciate any feedback this is more of a vent
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look furry stuff sad get never anthro gf never happy
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saw true crime first released back midnineties watched many times since great mystery mary played alicia silverstone high school senior california town whos classmates younger sister tortured killed unknown murderer mary meets tony played kevin dillon police cadet sees bright decide work together try find killerbr br many suspects one true crime feels true real me read newsgroup review someone wrote total suspension disbelief present true alicia silverstone perfect role kevin dillon bill nunn great job actors locations right writerdirector pat verducci really captures realities teenage life marys loneliness see scene mary awakens dream sequence viewed photos took tony wish verducci would make moviesbr br i seen movie quite like true crime
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listening to birthday sex
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im doneim fucked continue living ive tried many timesive gave bestbut cant continue anymorei want find peace mind seems cant find life im letting goodbye note reddit thank everyone everything goodbye hope guys great day
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get socially worn quickly went downstairs see sister playing wii decided chill downstairs comment game chill started discord call friends chilling like hour kinda tired it good time laughing lot idk feel like idk want call social battery gets worn quicker average
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yeahi really much left except alcohol absolutly one life turn times like this always anyone else world remember things tell them im rational want call hotline again one life im sure much longer deal it im sorry edit im sorry want someone tell day was want deal again
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want love people butif experience people past ish years going is going past days kind teetering edge wanting truly end everything but im still scared afterlife ever able rest never bothered again listen everyone money money lets whatever want move pos parents house never look back buy sex people hold shit head relationships contribute something loved otherwise lazy annoying piece shit thats waste space thats love according society loved are standards hard work teams hold others to reciprocate people ever keep promises you know else say anymore everyones going say fault anyways believe capitalist people eat alive shithole website run nerds survive job retail think theyre menial work like play video games watch anime shit responsibilities goals outside shit too wish someone would prove wrong doubt will im always told pray god never seek actual help something wrong wanting keep paycheck something wrong placing value human lives anything wrong believing things make life worth living yes matter snowflake must die collective cause organizations giving money relationships must left pick reference social cue go school us growing up part clique friend group etc working hard paying bills im responsible for making work time supposed privileged according people cant handle wrong considering ending everything whats wrong makes unlovable
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redflag hotline sick voicechecked position waitlist months noncourtmandated appointments tried chat service instead waited queue minutes told services area
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people make want kill you look like guy insults women refuse send nudes ampxb dont think fair seen creepy monster rapes murders etc im lonely even leave room anymore leave work go home dont energy go out date someone never killed anyone raped wife beater ampxb snap would long time ago suffered school bullying home absent mother stern father vibe weirdness say look totally creepy souless eyes souless smile creepy really mean really something menacing makes run life average unnatractive guy see street pic reddit ampxb im sick labeled something not sick living want end all
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long post aheadi really know feel like kind last hope letting without people constantly trying help shitty you need move forward shit like that i well lonely man years feel like lived life theres nothing live little more why lot issues depression anxiety self loathing loneliness stuff well comes back teenage years divorce really messy exposed everything hate ensued fear understanding goes it help feel responsible it mean bullied school came back home insults flying around like say hello also help first time life top class yeah add dissapointment vocabulary parents school side things no stop there see picked guitar mom like dad encourage pursue learning it self loathing comes that hey whatever everyone shitty teenage period next thing explore situation became even worse come family mom dad sisters brother get worse well older sister left house go live dad tensions rising mom her without father confessing everything her missed us forth left tend younger bro sis much me brother hard time acting out mom constantly tail saw turn red anger sweating much would thought fever thing thought of go dads since whenever went there okay so comes fateful wednesday month october told mom going dads evidently took well throwing bro curb wait dad pick us up let sister behind made stand her telling mom also wanted come always raised support ourselves did told mom leave us alone moment hated her hurting supported know thats mistake looking it since understand feel left curb alone dads everything went fine went away university dropped of younger sister bullied brother slaps face shit like that came back home trying fix things family breaking apart failed again oh good note found love time became escape shitty family whenever visited felt like loved even family big change me depression began everytime come back home felt like torn inside out fear stress point lived mom cause dad kicked out saying piece shit gave nothing trouble huge problem find way get home impose mom long tried contacting mom touch seven years now went well point little sister called middle night time told missed wished her nobody defending little bro night explained everything treated bro slapped hard busted lip raging remember sleep finally got visit buying train ticket propose meet mom again everything fine expressed desire stay mom could make feel better worked while good true cool things fast pass cycle began anew decided get job far away move gf time years knew other know say life always find way mess you well lung infection nearly killed me oh also girlfriend cheated me kicked since lost job pay shit disspointment everything fault even mom still thinks fault back square one back moms depression kicking ass since fucking long year comes big fight tonight my mom remarried mom new hubby told move soon year already staying struggling get back feet failed therapy failed job interviews inability connect others even stronger before nowhere left go one talk to called redflag hotline prevention shit hit fan mom new hubby lost parent redflag caught talking could go he really helpful anyone gave shit saying people wants kill it talk stop threats snapped told fuck life since source problems their words imagine feel now laying hotel room bed sister worrying nothing her sorry long post wanted never it ashamed family anyway hope get sleep tonight laying outalso hopefully stopping thoughts
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@dolphinking: we are the same plight
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dont depressed commit redflagi think really interesting everyone concept sad depressed want kill yourself mean sometimes get tired waking dealing bullshit every single day every time get car contemplate crashing it im young adult felt way since teenager feel way forever maybe thats way im meant go out im sure advice reddit friends dont feel like place purpose ya know like maybe id everyone favor following though ive thought many times before
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anybody else get weird halfcrush fictional character need seek media involving them like waifu cant escape
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cant family think timethis year thought better especially starting meds ive weeks think killing even once lately im sure redflag ideation always abstract kind terrified death really want kill myself wanted things end never thought worth much think it feel like main reason stopping sometimes want cause family kind pain know will theres real point this wanted vent think ive exhausted friends emotional wreckage point fed want anything anymore really anyone else turn to
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music suggestions please like abt everything preferences feel free drop albums artists songs
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@SecretShadows mixed indigenous and European. Majority of Latin and South Americans are indigenous and Spanish mix.
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decided hang myself know where made decision head cannot overcome depression redflag
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feel like like gone me meet week chat daily im kind unhappy im getting cant get enough talking experience usually comes along enamoured start nearly always reply within mins im busy im still excited pahse get lot wait times read receipt coming whatsapp within period get reply hardly screams hes really ok wait long reply assume hes messaging others me im new potential gf
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i ve been having these the entire day but i had sore throat since yesterday anybody else know what it is
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heading to bed have to be at work in hour
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i want to get back in bed
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bought a couple of books.. and cds.. next whole week to enjoy.. MPH - i love you..
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suffer depression redflag baghdad iraq sporadic pops bangs sounds explosions really haunt time sound easily like combatmy wife passed years years ago really nothing help cope actually got new friend shared advice live far limited do appreciatedi miss wife would hold hand play xbox volume cranked lay bed me holding fell asleepi think solution really exist miss wife much sorry pathetic story holiday reminder truly alone am missing wife helped time year
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updated user flair birthday today woohoo year old gang at
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@muffinwomanxo Yes kristen stewart is pretty much a tramp but im glad you admitted you love Twilight I love you even more now
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cant parents understand mental illness me im pretty sure im like severely depressed anxious something please go doctor literally cannot live like need medication something mom oh need get game system pm like literally begging let see someone fucks sakes woman everything phone game system whatever i spent hours minecraft yesterday friend mine seen while normally play long anyway literally cannot get bed morning ive slept classes barely leave room even leave bed im tired clean anything dishes garbage everywhere give shit get kicked school something work im fucking exhausted care anymore ah yes phone ps problem sure always puts facade parentsteachers seems care much mental health shit comes step siblings always oh add take time him overwhelm him oh anxiety thats thatwhile entirely disregards probably have also severe adhd unmedicated despite asking go meds get told instructions way makes sense brain like step brother does get called lazy piece shit needs get act together get good grades else theyre going failure im tired it
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stop myselfi tried die using zipties things looked mirror head turning purple cut them dont know did want dead indecisive
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Kids couldn't play outside today becuase of the rain, so we just made them a tent out of blankets and chairs!
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feeling brokeni know anymore thinking realized easy way it right
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@chrisbrown902 hey..when is you new graffiti album coming out in the scotland? been waiting for ages...Hahah
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im alone manage mess whatever happiness manage stumble acrossim done ive alone long cant even decent conversation online anyone without fucking up maybe spur moment now feeling always resurfaces im year old male real friends never hint romance cant go world even wanted to nothing seems make sense world always seems turn back around set me wish realistic way in stop
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@NoOneYouKnow Good Morning Adam How's the world treating you today?
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@nglancy I was alright.
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god way things saw ex guy holding hands hes wearing iron maidenmy fav band shirt jeez poser got shat universe multiple ways
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