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It started with a glass of wine.nnOne turned into two then three and then four. Before I knew it the bottle was empty but my thirst to hurt myself, to punish myself for all the things I loathed had just begun.nnI stood naked in front of my bathroom mirror, the window still steamed from the bath. With my lipstick, I began to write.
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Wow... That is such a horrible and yet inspiring story. I really appreciate you sharing your experiences and I'm encouraged by your attitude.
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Since the pandemic, around the time my anxiety worsened, I've barely left the house unless I absolutely have to (i.e. grocery shopping, doctor's appointments that aren't video calls, etc). Today, I'm going out to see a movie, and I can't remember the last time I went out to see a movie. nnUsually I just watch movies on Netflix or HBO Max. Wakanda Forever isn't on either of those or any streaming services that I'm aware of, so it's going outside for me. nnI also have health anxiety, though it's probably better known as hypochondria, which has worsened since the pandemic. I'm forcing myself outside of the house, regardless of both my social and health anxiety. nnI can do thisnnUpdate 1: The movie was great, imo, and there wasn't nearly as many people out as I expected. I didn't even have a panic attack either! This has been a good day :)nnUpdate 2: Ty everyone for the support! This sub has helped me so much and I wish all the best to you guys, and happy holidays! :)nnSorry if I don't respond right away
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Yay, go you!
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I was just meeting some people in a bar and there were some awkward moments. I won't go into details but I know those moments would have destroyed me in the past and I would have those horrible flashbacks for hours after the event. I would even cry sometimes on the way back. But this time... I didn't even care. I was kinda tense because we don't see each other often but I didn't get that instant traumatising feeling, it just went by naturally like its suppose to I guess. nnI like to know why I have anxieties but I also like to know, maybe even more, why I don't have any sometimes. nI know I have recently made the effort to not care about my current social status which is a big thing when it comes to my self esteem but other than that... I drank a lot of tea... Maybe the probiotics. Probiotics man ! How do they work? nnSeriously, have you ever had a similar feeling? Do you know why ?
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Definitely still improving...nnI think it's just a matter of paying attention to it. What makes you anxious? What reduces your anxiety? What are you thinking and feeling in different situations. Sometimes I'm still totally lost as to why it's good one day and bad the next. But eventually you figure out some things that help. nnEnjoy the good times, and when it turns back to anxiety, just know that you can handle it.
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I recently realized that I lost most of my friends due to my SA and depression. Thinking about it now it's crazy how I've always pushed my few remaining friends away and still can't help but keep withdrawing from them instead of trying to reach out to them and make things up.nnI just can't. I have this one friend who was planning on driving from another state to meet with me but then I never reached out to him and he didn't (he's probably waiting for me to do so) and I love him, I really do but I can't help it. I don't feel like interacting with anyone even tho I feel lonely and always wish that I have friends.nnIt's so difficult to see how SA is slowly ruining my life while I can't do anything about it.
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I'm in exactly the same position.nI have a friend who wanted to drive to see me this summer but, I haven't reached out at all. I don't even know why. I want to talk to them so bad, but I just can't, and I can't even explain why.
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Just wanted to seek some comfort. If you also have something to share, feel free
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First of all, sorry for your loss.nI lost my father when I was 12 and for some reason I didn't cry during the funeral, but as soon as I got home, I broke down in tears. Guess some people just react to death differently than others, there's nothing wrong about that.
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I feel like (am?) an idiot for posting this, but I've totally withdrawn from everyone recently and it's taking a toll. nnNo pressure (obviously). We can talk about SA or talk about everything but SA, either works.nnIf not, hope everyone has a good weekend :)nnUpdate: Thanks to everyone that responded! I honestly didn't think anyone would. Of course, SA decided to rear its head, I got overwhelmed and basically talked to maybe two people. And then, it took me over a week to overanalyze and write this update.nnLong story short, I really appreciate everyone reaching out! And I'm sorry if I didn't respond. It's actually me, not you -_-
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Right? I get angry at myself for being mean to myself. Then, I go back to questioning everything I say or do. It's a vicious cycle.
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She was the first woman I ever felt comfortable talking to. She was the first one I wasn't afraid to look at. I didn't try to avoid eye contact, I didn't look at the ground when I talked to her, I wasn't scared. nnIt was the middle of my freshman year of college. I was going through a really rough time. I was incredibly alone, my roommates and I just hadn't jelled. I was really depressed and suicidal. I'd spend weekends in my room crying. It was one of the worst times of my life. But I had one great night. nnIt was February. One of my roommates brought up his girlfriend for the weekend. He went to take a shower at one point and me and her were alone with each other. I'm really bad at small talk but for whatever reason I just felt comfortable around her. She was beautiful but also approachable. She had this ora to her. For about 20 minutes, we talked. She told me that she also has socially anxiety. It was the best conversation I've ever had with a woman. Actually, it was one of the best conversations I've ever had with anybody. It was only about 20 minutes but it felt like a lot longer, I wish it would've been longer. Eventually I had to come back down to reality and realize it was just a conversation. She was taken and that sucked. nnMonths went by. I had a great summer and I got a lot better physically and psychologically. I wasn't suicidal anymore. The next year was going by pretty well. Then on one October night I was talking to a friend before my college's football game and I heard a voice say my name. It was her. She saw me. I think it was the first time in my life The girl as pretty as her went out of her way to approach me. Once again we talked. I still remember how she looked. She had her hair curled and she was wearing a college stocking cap that accentuated her amazing green eyes. I took in every word that she said through that adorable lisp of hers. She even said that her and her boyfriend broke up. nnI messaged her Twitter a few weeks after that asking for her number, she never responded. I thought that was it, time to move on. I guess I misjudged it, I guess she didn't want me. I guess I just wasn't good enough for her. And that's not her fault, it's always mine. I have nothing to offer. I had to just try and move on.nnA few months passed since then. I thought about her every so often, but I didn't see her ever so it wasn't like I had very many reminders. Then a few weeks ago I just started thinking of her. I messaged her on Twitter and told her about the conversation we had last year and about how much it meant to me and how I wanted to thank her for that. She responded this time. She was so nice and I could just tell it meant a lot to her to hear that. I thought that would be the end of it. nnLast week I saw her on Saturday morning. She was eating breakfast in our cafeteria because the one in her dorm is closed on Saturday mornings. I approached her. I even asked to sit down. I never have the confidence to do things like that. I never have the confidence to even approach a woman but it was like second nature when I saw her. We talked and I got the same feelings I did that I had when I talked to her for the very first time. I was comfortable. As awesome as it was it was a little bit upsetting because this is the end of the year and I wasn't gonna have much of a chance to see her over the summer, but I added her on Facebook and thought that maybe I'd try to make a run at her. Then I saw she had a boyfriend, another boyfriend. I was crushed. I'm almost 21 years and I have never kissed a girl, never held hands with a girl or had a girlfriend. I've been rejected so many times and I've been so afraid to approach people so many times. I'm so sick and tired of waiting. I don't want to have to hear that I should just keep waiting. Waiting gets you nowhere in this world. I've never met anyone would talked to me the way she did. If I can't get her to love me, then I don't think I'll be able to get anyone to. I don't want to wait anymore. I can't wait anymore. I can't stand this. I can't keep living with this deep pain. When I was 13 people told me that I'd find a girl sometime soon. They said the same when I was 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21 and they'll probably say it when I'm 30. I know I sound irrational, I know I sound like I'm putting too much on it. But you don't understand. I can't stand this anymore. What can I do? There isn't anybody else. Considering the situation right now, there won't be anybody better. I missed my chance, but I don't want to wait. What should I do?
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I dunno, there's a difference between shyness and social anxiety and just not being very good socially. Whilst you may suffer with the former perhaps the latter is actually the problem and why you come across as creepy. Imagine the girl you're talking about coming across this thread and knowing it's you talking about her - saying that you spoke to her for 20 minutes and then a handful of times after (so, what like 1 - 2 hr total?) and then saying things like
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I'm a parent volunteer at my children's school and my daughter's teacher is making each parent do a presentation on themselves by bringing in items that represent who they are and explaining how it ties into you. nnFor Christ's sake, I didn't know I'd have to be doing school projects and presentations in front of the classroom at 35. Every time I see the email reminder to sign up for a time slot my anxiety flares and my night is completely ruined. Why don't people understand that public speaking is scary for a lot of us? I will have to spend days trying to mentally prepare myself for it and inevitably I will get up there and embarrass myself. I'll be breathless, dry mouthed, tripping over words, voice cracking, breaking out in hives and not able to think on my feet. The last thing I want to do is be an example to little kids of how tortuous public speaking is. I'm crying as I type this because I'm so scared to have to do it. nnI'm half tempted to disenroll my kids from the school because the social expectations get worse and worse each year. I'm still not re-acclimated to social settings since covid isolation. I don't know what to do.
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Potentially get kicked out of the school for failure to perform your parent participation duty that is required of you for your child to attend. They frequently remind us of that.
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Alright, first I just wanted to apologize about the poor format and/or the lack of required information on this post, it is both my first post and I'm posting from mobile.nnSo let me just start this by giving some background information, I've had a crush on this girl for a while now, which my friend knew about, he then convinced me to begin talking to this girl in group conversations with some of my other friends. I've done this about three times now and I am starting to find myself wanting to trust her more than anyone else I know. She often picks up on my different body motions (I can't think of anything else to describe it, like shaking and such) and asks me if I'm okay and if there is anything wrong. I feel as if she would be more accepting than any of my friends and actually understand my issues then try and help me with them. Although I want to be in a relationship with her more than I can express, I feel as if the inevitable break-up or rejection on top of my depression would ultimately end in a very poor outcome for myself, therefore I feel that I should make it my goal to just push for a friendship on a more personal level so I can talk to her about things that I wouldn't tell anyone else about.nnSo ultimately, how can I strengthen my relationship with this girl to a point where I can talk to her about different things in privacy instead of in public situations?
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Thanks, I may or may not be back for more help after I try some things. Overall it sounds like some good ideas!
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Anybody get the urge to poop when you get really nervous lol?
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Yeah my stomach gets all fucked up
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I have been talking to this guy recently and things were going really well. Hung out several times came over a few times and even talked about like wether we want casual or go towards a relationship- which want to work towards one. I was great! I really like him. nnOr liked. Idk. nnOne day like a week and a half ago he randomly stoped texting me that day- I was like :// I sent a few messages but no reply. Until the next day- he was like I'm sorry I was working under a house and lost my phone under there! I was like oh ok no big deal!!nnWell it's been over 3 days now- he was texting me up until about noon consistently and then dropped off. I thought maybe he lost his phone or something again. But nothing. I texted him a few times Thursday - and only twice Friday and once Sunday and today. And today I'm like....I guess I'm crazy ! nnI don't want to keep texting if like....he doesn't want to talk to me... idk if his phone is lost again, if he blocked me and hates me, or something else happened. nEither way I literally feel like I'm going crazy. We only talked for a few weeks so I don't know when I should just stop trying. Honestly even texting today I felt like a fucking weirdo just sending him a text saying u201cI hope you're ok and I'm not annoying youu201dnnNot rly sure what I can do at this point and if or when I should just stop stop messaging at all. I don't have any other way to contact him (we met on tinder) he doesn't use any social media really and I don't know anyone he knows to be like u201chey is soandso dead or just hate me?u201d nnanyways I don't have anyone to talk to about this and would like someone to tell me u201chey you're not crazy do this u201c or u201chey you're fucking crazy stop and give upu201d nnthanks for reading I needed to get this out.
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Yo...this experience must be really anxiety-inducing. If I was in your shoes, I'd make one last effort to reach out by saying,nn
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Does anyone have any recommendations for any natural remedies (vitamins) to help with social anxiety?
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Vitamin b1, get it from nutritional yeast
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I find it so difficult, painful even. I have burned many bridges (some maybe beyond repair) by avoiding messaging people because I'm afraid that I'll screw up. It hurts people when you don't message them back because they think there is maybe something they did or said wrong, but in my case it's pretty much always just me being caught in my head. I've tried to explain why I sometimes take so long to reply or don't reply at all (and it all makes sense to me) but people don't understand - and I don't blame them. The tragedy of not doing something due to fear of what might happen is that inaction is worse than putting yourself out there. I've hurt people, and that hurts me a lot.
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What if I don't think so.
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Always keep in mind that social anxiety is a drama queen. That's how I think we should see it. We can't take her seriously, or we'll make it more powerful.nnThen, dissociate yourself from your thoughts. You're not your brain (I know it's strange, but we have to think that way). Your brain process thoughts and emotions without you willing it. You DON'T have to listen to it. Sometimes, it's gonna try to focus on how someone look at you, or why they're laughing while watching in your direction. It's not because your brain cares, that YOU have to.nnPersonally, I know I don't care about what people think of me. But my brain, because of social anxiety does.nnDon't always listen to your brain, because you know it is SICK. It has a mental illness. Again, it is sick. You can't trust it for everything. So, when you're in a social situation, you'll have negative thoughts, and after too. Let them pass, don't take them to overanalyze them. Let the flow and go away slowly. You don't have to care.nnYOU are in charge. Not your brain. Your brain is a soldier and you, well, you're actually the brain.
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It's taken alot of counseling and talking with others for me to see that as well. And I'm a counselor!!! For me a big realization was that I dont think about what others do to the extent I think they think about my behaviors. So why would other people think about my actions more than I do theirs? Its humbling once you realise how almost narcissistic social anxiety can make you lol
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OMG I CANT BELIEVE THIS IS HAPPENING AFTER 13 YEARS OF TRAUMA
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Congratulations!!
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I have a vivid memory of being in second or third grade and sitting in class with my eyes shut tight, hoping that if I prayed hard enough I would leave my own body and become someone else. Some other girl in my class, one who could talk to people and didn't feel so ashamed of her own existence. nIt's been like this my entire life. I don't know how to recover, because I don't have an identity outside of my anxiety. I'll always mourn the person I could have been.
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Yeah. I often tell my parents that I resent them for bringing me into this world because of their own selfishness. They didn't even ask me if I wanted to be created. Had they asked, I would've told them HELL NOOOOOOOOOOOO!nnMy parents are so dumb, they never recognized that something was wrong with me. I later found out that my great-grandmother was worried about me as a child and thought I needed help, but she never voiced her opinion. I found out as an adult when I was permitted to read her daily journal (not a diary) 15 years after she died. That made me incredibly depressed for about 2 weeks. The most important person in the world to me saw my struggles as a child, but did nothing. It was the early to mid 80s though, and people just didn't talk about stuff like that around here.nnBut maybe it's better to have social anxiety your entire life because you never know what normal is. I can't imagine what it would be like to develop it as a teenager or adult. Going from sociable to afraid of socializing. That would have to be very devastating, like a piece of you died. OTOH, if I had developed it as an adult, at least I would be in a much better place with the ability to seek professional help. My particular situation = doom and eventual homelessness and worse misery.nnThanks Mom, thanks Dad, thanks for the wonderful genes you've given me. I also enjoy the plaque and inverse psoriasis you've given me. The constant itching in my nether regions is loads of fun.
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16M. People were having a discussion in the gc. Someone said they liked school, and I said
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You are overthinking about it. Keep being goofy keep pushing. Don't let this make you quiet again.
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Yes when I am around people I am not comfortable with (everyone on earth apart from close family), I technically am quiet and boring but that's because I am anxious, that's not my personality.nnMy real personality (when I'm around family) is like a normal person. Super funny, outgoing, loud, talkative. Someday I will get there
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Yea wtf?
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Yep... I have nothing, done nothing, feel worthless and useless. Every night i sit here and think about dying... At this point i wouldn't mind going to sleep and never waking up.
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The answer isn't dying. I know it's seems like it might be, because I've been there, but the answer is never dying.
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Socializing has never come naturally to me- sometimes I feel like a living computer program during conversations, and if the other does or says something unexpected, I freak out just like a program being fed bad input would. If somebody calls on me in class or calls attention to me in a group, I get this horrible feeling in my stomach, and my face goes flush (or at least I'm pretty sure it would- I have a pretty dark skin tone). I get that same feeling if I'm walking around a mall alone or if I'm meeting up with my friends and I'm the first to get there.nnTexting has to be the worst, though. I can't count the times I've typed out a simple message a dozen times only to discard it and not respond to the person at all (I wish I could let them know that it's not their fault that I don't respond). It feels so helpless being completely inept at texting in a generation where it's such a huge part of the social experience. When I do let loose I usually get ahead of myself and say something stupid, breaking the brief illusion of normality, and ushering back in a very real world of extreme self consciousness and perpetual regret.. Drinking helps, but I'm scared that it'll become a crutch for me to feel normal, and I won't be able to operate without it.nnI don't know. This post doesn't really have a point I guess, just venting. I've had friends my whole life, good friends, but it feels like they've just always been my friends. I just can't express myself to people without having known them for a while, and people don't want to be around me for a while when I'm so awkward to be around at the beginning. It just seems hopeless, and I'm afraid of going to college, having to make a whole new set of friends and completely dropping the ball. I've always used video games as a crutch, and I don't want to waste what could be a great 4 years with Netflix, alcohol, and Dota (it just seems so much easier that way sometimes). It always seems so easy when I'm at home thinking about it:
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Dr Drew in his podcast talks how people with our issues need one safe and stable relationship from which to learn these skills and get comfortable with them. Doing some therapy, once I found the right psychologist, really helped me improve and put me at ease socializing. I went from wanting to never talking to anyone, to the best times in the past year being the nights I was out with friends and co-workers.nnTry reading these and see if they don't apply:nhttp://www.helpguide.org/articles/secure-attachment/attachment-issues-and-reactive-attachment-disorders.htmnnhttps://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Attachment_disordernnAlso, you're crazy if you think DOTA is easier than socializing. ;) I'm so super burned-out/frustrated over playing, though TI5 is super exciting today.
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Since I started college, I've never been so lonely in my life, my shallow friendships from highschool kinda doesn't even exist anymore so I started going to cinemas, cafes, restaurants, grocery shopping all on my own, and honestly I was enjoying it, until I felt super lonely again. I keep saying people are overrated, I don't need people as a joke, but I truly need them. Just venting here, anyone with the same situation as me?
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Are u me?
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So one of my goals as of late has been to actually read a novel. I have attention issues and everytime I've tried to read a book in the past 5 years have been complete failures, BUT I picked out a book last week, a recent steven king novel called the outsider. a horror true crime story and I'm happy to report I'm almost halfway through the novel!!! c: so I was wondering if any of you have any wins you've had lately you want to talk about?
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I've been able to speak up in front of a group of people and not immediately get anxiety when the attention is turned to me. Usually by the second sentence, I'd start choking on my own words. I've been doing so much better
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I constantly have the issue of thinking about things way too much, days or even weeks in advance. like if I have a place that I have to go I'll think about it all day, for days and days before it even happens and it really gets to me mentally :(
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I appreciate your help
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Nope. Lets not. Fuck that.nnAnyone else have problems being put in this situation? I had to leave my last team training because of this. When the lady said lets introduce ourselves,i got hit with a panic attack like a ton of bricks. i got up and took off home.
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At my jobs last meeting they passed around a roll of toilet paper and you had to take a few sheets then the amount of sheets you took is the amount of fun facts you had to tell about yourself. I knew the ice breaker ahead of time and took none. I can't stand those types of activities literally make me sick to my stomach
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Sometimes I feel totally Unlikeable and this holds me back from socialising quiet a bit. I'll isolate myself believing no one likes me, which makes me act more awkward which I then use to justify feeling unlikeable. It can stop me reaching out to friends or even speaking as I think no one wants to hear what I have to say any way. I'm just not really sure how to deal with this thought, as when I tell myself I'm fine, a doubt creeps in that I'm so Unlikeable I can't even see I'm Unlikeable. It will sometimes get to a point where I believe total strangers dislike me on sight. Which I know is ridiculous.nnHow do you deal with similar thoughts?
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Mood same
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Has anyone seen this anime? I know it's based on a manga. It's about a girl who's social anxiety is so bad she can't talk to people but everyone assumes she's just stuck up.
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the anime is amazing and so funny honesty recommend watching
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So, this is not too typical of a post her, but still fits.nnI basically am looking into some input about what I can do, that would not seem to pressuring towards her. While also helping me with my social anxiety.nnGirl (20, possible social anxiety, as she did say
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Random thought. My friend is in much a similar situation, and came clean with the girl he's dealing with a couple days ago. And he basically got n
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I successfully made an hour-long phone call today for work... something that feels huge to me. I mention it to my family, and of course they don't recognize how hard things like that are to me. To them, it's just another day at the office and no big deal. To me, it feels like I've conquered the world! It's a bit of a bummer... a high five for getting through these things would be nice. So since I can't celebrate my victory with them, I'm celebrating here with you all!
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Thanks!!
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I've been working at customer service for a ISP for about 10 months and I can't stand it anymore! It's horrible! I can't deal with raging assholes anymore.nnIt worked out in the beginning, most customers were nice and I really got the hang of it even though it was quite exhausting. The problem is that the exhaustion got to me and the company I work for made some really bad changes to the way we handle customers (I'm not gonna go into detail) and the customers didn't like it which made most of the customers frustrated and angry. This company had really bad reputation even before the changes but now it's way worse, I do understand their frustration but most of the time we can't do much to help (due to the changes) which just makes them more frustrated.nnI started working more administrative after a few months which was really nice, but the problem was that the administrative tasks would run out before the end of the day which meant that we needed to go back to regular support calls, it's hard to explain but sometimes the task would last the whole day but you could never tell if that's the case or not. This caused me a lot of stress and it really messed up me mental health.nnThis job made me feel so bad that I would cry myself to sleep every night because I didn't wanna go to work. I isolated myself and didn't talk to anyone outside of work. I got so bad that I tried to commit suicide and had to go to the hospital. A customer called me a worthless piece of shit and that lead to my suicide attempt.nnI was on sick leave for over a month due to my depression and now I've been going back slowly but surely and only did administrative work until now. But it still feels horrible but I keep lying to my boss about how good my calls are going even though I never talked to customers, in short I don't do my job properly because it feels meaningless and I'm still scared to take calls.nnAll of my closest colleagues that made the job somewhat fun to go to has quit, all of them...there's only new people at the office that started when I was on sick leave. There's nothing fun about my job anymore.nnOn Monday I'm officially back to working full time, which means that my time of working administrative is over for the most part, and on top of that we now have to mix support calls with administrative tasks which sounds absolutely horrible.nnI should just quit but I'm scared to do it because I've never done it before and I don't know what to say and I'm so anxious that I don't gonna be able to get a new job, it was hard enough to get this job. This job made it possible for me to finally move to my own apartment so it's added pressure to be able to pay rent, my parents says that I'm always welcome back home to live with them, but honestly that feels like taking a huge step backwards and I love my apartment.nnI'm kinda stuck and I'm not sure what to do. I know that we have really good unemployment benefits where I'm from and I think I'm eligible to apply for unemployment funds, but I'm not sure for how long you're allowed to live of that, it's really hard to find a job when you have SA and it will take time. Gonna need to look into that.nnI don't know where this post was supposed to go but it was nice to rant about it.
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You have listed legitimate reasons to leave the job in my opinion.nnI suggest spending your free time looking for a new job, because it is always easier to get a job if you already have one. Find a job with a company that is more reputable and treats people, customers and employees too, fairly. nnAs for how to quit, walk in with a terse resignation letter advising that you have found another job.
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I'm 2-2 against my anxiety when it comes to fucking , 2 times my shit wouldn't get hard because I was stuck in my head and 2 times I did , no more Ls lol . Ima report back
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Do u watch the office? That happened to Andy lol
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I'm just curious to see if anyone else has like,, online social anxiety as well as rl social anxiety?nLike I'm fine making a post, but replying to people is a huge source of anxiety as well as trying to make friends on discord and stuff, and especially online games.nnLike i've tried to join discord servers and talk to ppl because i'm insanely lonely atm, but i can't even say hello because I'm too scared.nnalso I really want to play scp: secret laboratory, but i literally can't. I've been staring at the join server screen for a few hours now but i'm way too scared to click. it has voice chat as an important part of the game which probably contributes but it still took me weeks to gather the confidence to be able to play among us which is chat basednnIm just wondering if anyone else has this because everyone ive talked to has said they can be really confident online and i would love to know how to be confident online too
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Another confidence boost you can have is knowing that you most likely will never meet again the people you're playing with. Next match there will be new peoplennSo even if you embarrass yourself or if someone makes fun of you for whatever reason, it's whatever since you'll never meet them againnnThis helps me a lot
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My (21f) fiancé (22m) and I just had a really long talk about my mental health. I have a therapist, and I'm looking into a psychiatrist, but I'm still having a really, really hard time getting myself motivated. I want to be a good mother to our child but I struggle being present. I play with her when I can, and I always feed her, change her, watch her, give her attention, but I want to do more than just the bare minimum. I want to be a better mother. A good future wife. nnI struggle with cleaning every day. It's not like the house looks like a tornado blew threw it, but for some reason I keep just not picking up a mess or sweeping right away and it makes me feel like a shit partner and mother. nnI want to hold myself more accountable and stop living through a learned victim complex lense. nnI want to be fun and enjoyable and not such a downer. I'm horribly depressing. I've gone through some recent trauma, but I'm still not making any progress on my grief, and it's becoming a detriment to my daily life. nnI feel constantly unmotivated. I'm struggling to get into anything I even used to like. It's just mostly mindless scrolling, and I don't even pay attention to half things I watch. I need some advice while in between therapy appointments. Please, any advice
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This is just my experience and not saying you do have this but can relate and I do struggle with adhd and being a mom (single one at that) and having the proper diagnoses and medication is so important. nnI wasn't diagnosed until an adult and my child was 4. Although been seeking answers since 18 and tried many things that didn't help. nnAdhd is difficult to diagnose/looked over/not as studied in girls/woman versus boys/men. Adhd fluctuates with hormones too and make it worse and even meds less receptive, awesome lol. Mind fog is better and rare, more capable of energy, mood is better and been able to keep handling life and it's been really rough to say the least.
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I have a social phobia. I have no girlfriend, no friends or no job so I have no money either. Because of all this, I also have depression. I've got no one to talk. I am afraid to take any job. Even here, when I wrote the post, people ignored me. What should I do? I don't even know where to start and what to do with myself.
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OK. Thanks man ;)
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Well, ofcourse nobody can know for certain, but can anyone else relate to knowing that because of who you are and whatever circumstances that the likelihood of finding someone is slim to none. I have no belonging, im totally undesirable, unfortunately im pretty much an outcast. I dont believe the cliché
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Even if it doesn't happen for you, that pain will fade over time. Also, meeting someone isn't necessarily the panacea that the lonely make it out to be.
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Does anyone have any advice on getting through job interviews with severe social anxiety and derealization? I also have issues with psychogenic tremor due to anxiety while being watched which are only relieved by alcohol and issues with my mind going blank while speaking publically even in one on one situations where it's someone I don't speak to everyday, even tripping on my words and sounding extremely nervous and anxious again only alleviated with alcohol. I have also relied on alcohol to get through job interviews in the past and while looked down upon this somehow enabled me to get past my anxiety and get the job. I am on medications such as buspirone and klonopin but I don't feel like they are enough for my symptoms as derealization is making it harder to hold a job in a setting with a high degree of socialization. I am not functioning at the degree I would like even after years of hard work with exposure therapy and cognitive behaviorial restructuring. I have had social anxiety for 12 years but have just developed bouts of derealization on and off for the last year or so. It has been a huge struggle. Does anyone have any advice for how to be sucessful with this type of issue without self medicating with alcohol or a similar experience?
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I am wondering for anyone with experience if this socially anxious hell ever ends
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Next year I will be graduating highschool. Throughout the course of highschool, I failed at making friends and didn't do any extra activities. What I'm worried about graduation for is the clapping. I'm worried no one will clap for me except my family and they'd notice and never would let me live it down. I'm tempted to skip grad and get it sent in the mail...
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Your words are comforting but still the moment it happens will suck
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This seriously has destroyed my life, as a kid until mid teens it came with an anxiety feeling which disappeared like 5 years ago but now my mind still goes blank all the time. nI force myself to say yes to events and what not but EVERYTIME a stranger (ie my friends friend) even comes to a conversation with my friend I suddenly have nothing to say so I just end up staring at them enjoying everything while I stare from the sidelines. nIs there a point in going to a psychiatrist for this?
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I don't have a suggestion, but just wanted to say I experience this as well. It's so strange because I feel like the way SA used to manifest itself for me was me having negative thoughts racing and being 'in my head'. For some time I practiced meditation, and now I don't have that same issue as much.nnHowever now, it's like the opposite. My mind goes completely blank in social situations. Like there's no creative thought on things I could say to further a conversation. Just blank. Also my memory seems to be even worse in these situations, to where I have trouble recalling things that I otherwise would be able to if I was alone.nnEven if I don't have thoughts running I think I may be 'checking out' of the situation as a coping mechanism, not interacting with it and sort of detached from reality.
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Before I start, I'm going to go ahead and apologise for the way this is set and typed, I'm on mobile, and this is more of a ramble than a fully coherent train of thought, but I would appreciate some advice. nnI've always had a very hard time maintaining friendships. Now that I'm older, I've been diagnosed with Early onset mild depressive disorder,
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Firstly, Thank you for the advice! It'll certainly be taken into account. :-) nnSecondly; nYes, I discussed These relationships with my therapist, Though not in complete detail. As I said, I was more there to discuss my Panic attacks and Suicidal ideation at the time. She was very polite, but I do feel at times She didn't take me very seriously. The local office is not great, and I stopped going after a year and a half or so, because said therapist moved states. The only exception to that is when I went back to be tested for ADHD- Which ended up being a Cocktail of OCD and my other mental illnesses. It was officially noted that I seem
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All my life i've been alone and without real, good friends. As a kid I did the weirdest shit alone at home, until i was 12 or so i played with not only toys but also household items when there were no toys left and all happened in my fantasy worlds. I didnt listen to pop or any kind of music, just maybe the music from my videogames and sunk into them, along with movies and series and often talked to myself pretending to be in some kind of TV show or something - Just thinking about it creeps me out now, and i have basically pushed all these memories to the back of my mind when i grew up. I only sometimes remember them and it shocks me every time. Until puberty hit (and it hit late - maybe at 14 or 15) i was basically the weirdest, loneliest weirdo you could imagine. It often fills me with hate to think about me as a kid. I want to punch that kid in the face and tell him that other kids don't suck and he should go play some soccer or games with them.nnSo i wasn't normal. The reason? I don't know. Maybe i had social anxiety from the moment i was born. It was different back then, and i didn't get that depressed. I think kids just do this - sink into fantasy worlds and lifes to protect themselves from dying inside. But now I'm 18 years old and have depression. I'm not a kid anymore and i just want to do stuff with people. I basically have no hobbies or real interests. Most of my
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I already feel better than last Summer - the worst point of my life so far. But i have depression for maybe 2 years now and i now certainly know that i need therapy. I'm not in school anymore, and now i'm lost. I don't feel like i can do anything - like a job or studying - right now. It would just destroy me completely. I know this because every little event and change affects my state so much that i think this would be huge and i fear the outcome...
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Like I'm over here having full conversations with just myself lol. I feel like I can articulate myself a lot better when I'm alone and speaking just becomes so much more natural for me. It doesn't feel like I'm being judged, so I tend not to trip over my words, stutter, or forget what to say; I just feel so much more confident and can enunciate my words more clearer when speaking alone. nnIs this normal? I swear social anxiety is making me go crazy…
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Exactly, just responding to respond because being quiet doesn't seem appropriate. I'll even have this with people I'm close to if I'm with them for too long. I really need to be alone to recharge. nnI started writing, which is a great way to express yourself if speaking doesn't work. I can highly recommend writing stuff down and refining it. You don't even have to publish it or anything. It helps put your thoughts in order and makes it easier to express yourself in a social setting.
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I feel so underappreciated as a friend, a sister, a human being. I put in so much effort into relationships and I'm just ignored or just brushed off. And I know the world doesn't revolve around me (putting this out there for any mean comments). I'm a type of person who cares deeply about every person in my life . I always want to make sure they know that they are loved. I'm always planning the next fun activity we can do to make great memories. And I kid you not, in a day, I think about my past and present friends or classmates(I think about the past alot because it was a great time in terms of friendships compared to my present). I guess you can say I'm an overthinker. But I just keep people in my mind alot.nI make time in my stressful days to call my
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It is really hard. Thank you for the kind words, I hope we both find our people!
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Personally, I can't imagine talking without a mask, I would probably just die inside and get stuck.
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Ah, sunglasses. nnI don't know if it's just me, but I'm afraid to wear sunglasses because I think that people will think that I will look 'cool' in them, so I'm afraid that they will judge me because of that, anyone feeling the same ?
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Personally I sit on my ass all day in my room playing video games. But I always wonder what other kids that go to my highschool are doing. I wonder if their lives are as boring as mine.
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Hmmm well I go on my phone a decent amount, but I also write in my free time and read a lot. I bake and sometimes work out (in my garage). I try to challenge myself by walking to the downtown area from my house and getting a drink/buying something occasionally. nnMy siblings do not struggle with social anxiety, and they hang out with their friends much more than I do (and have more friends in general), and go on a bunch of little trips (like getting food, coffee, etc). They also do more public workouts (like going on a run/playing a sport with friends). In addition, they both go to parties pretty often. They also communicate with people through other social media apps allll the time. I could not stand that many notifications. I can definitely see a difference between us, but I also don't particularly want to be as social as them either. But also, one does yoga/lifts weights, and the other journals/studies all the time, etc. so we all have our less social stuff as well. nnBasically, main difference is they communicate w people more online and hang out w friends more often, and I spend a bit more time on my phone. I definitely don't use social media as much tho, so it evens out.
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Got a trim today. Lady was skilled, sweet and friendly. But, by God, she was so chatty. So chatty. I wanted to die.nnShe asked me so many questions about my life, my job, my education, my family and so on. It made me very uncomfortable. I felt like I was being deposed/ interrogated. nnMy anxiety was sky high. I wish I had thought of a polite and non-hurtful way to deflect the personal questions or to make her stop talking but I couldn't think of anything. My mind was blank and I was just trying my best to hold myself together coz my anxiety is really bad.nnShe also talked about hair care and gave me good tips which I appreciate greatly. That was okay.nnBut, I wish, she had kept the convo limited to stuff like hair care, skin care and stuff. I wish she didn't ask me any personal questions.nnI understand that she was just being friendly and I am sure most of her other clients like talking with her about all sorts of things but I was so, so uncomfortable the whole time. Maybe, if i were normal, I would have been okay with it too and would've happily chatted with her. But, i was feeling anxiety and the personal questions were making it so much worse.nnAfter she left, I have been giving myself a pep talk not to answer personal questions in the future. I don't want to and it makes me uncomfortable.nnA mostly silent haircut would be so nice.nn
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Sounds exhausting. I would need my alone time after that to recharge.
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I have u201cI want to kill myselfu201d in the back of my head usually everyday. I've been having this thought for awhile now but I don't see hurting myself or anyone. I've been curious about ways to go on google but never really have plans to do it. Am i suicidal or just depressed?
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Same. I have been feeling very low and empty. And just want everything to end. But I am not thinking of hurting myself or anyone mortally. Not sure what this isnnnEdit - Yes I have googled such stuff in the past but didn't do recently
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So I posted this in r/introvert but I after reading some stuff here I think I may have got the wrong group.. So I will just repost here, and instead of introvert, Ill replace the word with socially anxious.nnWere you guys always socially anxious? or did something happen that changed things for you?nnI used to be a huge extrovert, I loved parties, meeting new people, being the centre of attention, festivals, travelling the world.. the more chaos that surrounded me the happier I was.nnThen about 3 years ago a bunch of stuff happened. I lost my job, split from my partner under really stressful circumstances, started eating pregabalin/lyrica like they were sweets, and before I knew it my life had completely changed. I think what really brought it into perspective was the lockdown. I suddenly realised that I had no friends really, no acquaintances I really valued, I didnu00b4t enjoy the bars or parties anymore, speaking to people I didnu00b4t know caused me abject panic. Even walking down the street makes me so anxious at times, I just feel like everyone is judging me. Which is silly if I think about it rationally, I mean I don't think there is something objectively wrong with me, I am in good shape, and I act normal and stuff.nnMy life now basically consists of meditating, going to the gym when there is hardly anyone else there, reading books, youtube and drinking cup after cup of matcha and staring down at the street and watching everyone mingle. I never ever in a million years thought that I would be like this. I don't take any drugs anymore, even stopped the Lyrica just before covid hit (terrible withdrawals, omg avoid that stuff, its poison). I hardly ever drink, and I just feel unrecognisable to myself. I have no idea how to even socialise anymore, and the idea of it fills me with dread, even when I do end up talking to someone I am almost instantly filled with this kind of bored feeling and I go back to youtube or a book or something that doesn't require so much commitment.nnI feel really lonely but at the same time I know that as soon as I spark up a conversation with someone I will lose interest and run out of things to say, and it will be terrible.nnIs this just part of growing up? Or did all the drugs and stress eventually catch up with me?nnHow do you guys make friends?nnThanks for listening.
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Good luck!nnJust dont think of yourself negatively, it really affects you as a person. Whenever you start thinking negatively about yourself just do whatever you can to stop thinking about it.. i dont know.. start singing, doing push ups, cold showers.. The more you think about something the more your brain is like: Oh so he constantly thinks about this, means it must be really important, lets remind him more often. And the less you think about something, the less you are reminded of that thought so it gets actually easier and easier. And if you are near people dont see yourself in that third person like how everyone sees and perceives you at the moment. Just make your brain busy with other stuff like focusing on whats happening right now.. its called mindfulness and it can really help. Start focusing more on people, how they look, what they do, whats their eye color and stuff... As you progress mindfulness alone (there are known techniques on internet) it gets easier when you are in social environment.nnMaybe get little selfish. I mean.. you dont deserve such a thing, right. HOW CAN SOMEONE EVEN DARE TO JUDGE YOU.
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It's so frustrating because I probably seem boring and so basic
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its not like those people still cant do something about it. it will be harder but they are still able to develop coping mechanisms to minimize it as much as possible. that kind of thinking, to me, seems kind of narrow-minded, respectfully. i know its harder for some people but its not entirely impossible to calm it down. our brains are very adaptable and we can recreate new neural pathways through practice, so i dont really agree with the idea that since youre genetically more prone to anxiety that theres no hope for you. and this is coming from someone that has very extreme social anxiety. i think there are coping mechanisms and skills that we can develop to significantly lessen our anxiety and improve our mental health overall
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Like sure there are a lot of people who have social anxiety but mostly it's just limited to a certain field or something like that. But for me it's fucking everywhere. There is absolutely no kind of social interaction where I don't feel this anxiety. Not even on the internet. nnThere are some discord servers I'm in and I have been reading their chats but never talked myself. Sometimes I will even think about an answer that I will never even type out, which is absolutely stupid. nnSo I guess I just feel lost alone (and sad).
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I feel similar about going crazy. More specifically I feel like anxiety can uncover or unlock other mental health issues. I also recently feel like that has gotten a bit worse but it's gotten a bit better the last days, since I talked to my therapist about it. I guess keeping some kinds of thoughts to yourself for too long is maybe stressful.
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I'm so sick of feeling like this. I hate that everything I do is regretted. I want to go to a party and not question everything I do for once. My peers look so happy, but I'm not. I take everything to personally, everything hurts. I'm so lonely, trapped within my thoughts. All I want is to be normal and enjoy a party.nnSorry for the depressing post, just needed to say this.
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I am the same. Its a kind of torture not being able to be authentic because of anxiety .
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That's it.
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So I tried asking this question on r/solotravel but didn't receive any answers so trying here instead.nnI really want to go on a 2-3 months trip this upcoming January but I've never done it on my own before and I'm afraid the shock of the new experience would heighten my anxiety and ruin it for me, that I'd be so focused on my feelings I'd miss everything around.nnSo any socially anxious people in the crowd that have traveled solo and have some wise words to give?
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I honestly envy you, I need to think thrice before I make a move in a new direction. Wish it was more simple for me to take the plunge.
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I usually take my breaks at my workstation. I'm by myself and it's peaceful. I don't have any friends at my job and this new rule has me sweating. Now instead of looking forward to a few minutes of rest, im absolutely dreading it. I've been like this my entire life and I wish I knew how to deal with it.nnAll I wish is that I could be by myself. What should I do.
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one thing i can pride myself on is my ability to find a comfortable spot and make it my own. that's how i've managed to get through school without breaking down. we had designated areas and were forced to interact, but i was the exception to that. id find a spot (preferably in the corner somewhere) and consistently go there until it was established that it was my spot. if anyone needed me, they'd know where to find me. all in all, it worked great for me. i'm saying this in the past tense because i somehow managed to make friends. i enjoy their company, but sometimes i miss having alone time. there's nothing shameful about it so screw what everyone else thinks! get yourself a cozy little space and get used to it.
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I had to join this stupid employability online course thing today and they made us put our cameras and mics on and I really wasn't prepared for that. I was shaking so much and there were tears coming out of my eyes. I tried to make it look like I was just itching my face when I was wiping them away hahaha. I feel like other people noticed I was crying though. Idk. I must've looked like such an idiot either way lol :')nnI did start to feel more comfortable as the session went on though so yay I guess
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Happy for you buddy. Could have told your colleagues you were crying because of how boring the course was gonna be. ud83dude04nnJust divert your mind and you would be fine.
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Every friday or saturday i order food from any restaurant,i have the money but whenever my food arrives i tell my house worker to give them the money, cause for some reason i just can't face them, i ruled that out as shyness and even when they call for directions i for 6 months forced by little sister to answer them but i can answer now, well the last friday the food arrived but i was scrambling for my purse and i was a little frustrated cause i couldn't find any change it was 7 dollars but i had 10 dollars it took me 2 mins to find the change but i almost teared up and my mom shouted at me cause she thought i was unsocial, is this social anxiety or just me being shy?
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thank you for telling me I'm glad to know about your experience :) I'm a teenager and i rarely go out cause of covid but I'm still gonna try working on it
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Hi,nnI have SAD.nnI have noticed that when I'm immensely anxious I get dry eyes (resulting in a teary/watery eye sensation). I'm so worried about u2018tearing' up that I get even more anxious. nnHowever, there are days (a lot of the time) where my eyes are dry before anxiety appears and I become anxious in social situations because I'm worried I will tear up.nnAny have a similar time?nnIs there any way I can treat my dry eyes? If I didn't tear up / get heavy eyes all the time I reckon my anxiety would be reduced by like 70%.nnHelp!
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dude this happens to me wtf
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TW; Suicidal thoughts. Self-harm. Not eating.nnIt's a lot sorry.nnI'm going to sound selfish I know but I can't keep it a secret anymore. I feel like I'm going insane.nnI'm a teenager I know. I haven't had 'real life' issues I can't complain, can I? But I feel like I'm not myself. I'm lying to everyone about who I am because nobody can accept me for who I am. I still fuck up all the time somehow and I don't understand. I try hard to be a likeable person but I'm still hated. I have friends so I can't possibly be hated but I am. No matter how hard I try they point out all my faults. I'm too loud for them. I'm too quiet for them. I'm weird. I'm boring. I don't know what they want from me.nnThey get so mad at me when I don't even let them see my messages. I don't get it. A group of eight were all yelling at me. Accusing me of talking shit. Does this count as talking shit? If I do something they don't like they get so angry and yell at me. I can't handle when people yell at me and then they get frustrated when I stay quiet as they yell. I don't even talk about them to other people unless it's good things. Apart from this, I guess but that's not the point. I don't let them see my conversations because it's people online talking to me about their own issues and I keep those private from everyone because they trust me to talk to and I try to explain that to my friends but they don't listen. I'm a liar in their eyes.nnOne of my online friends that I've been close to for over 2 years has suddenly turned on me and I don't know why. She keeps telling me to cut myself and to kill myself. I have already been trying hard not to cut but I ended up doing it. I was a week clean and I know it's not much but I was a little proud for making it that far.nnIt's been a long time since I've opened up to anyone. The last time I did was hell. My old friend forced me to open up to her. She was telling me how selfish I was being for not talking to her. She was asking me if I didn't like her enough to not open up and kept going until I finally opened up to her. I told her some things but not everything just enough to satisfy her. It's a regret of mine. After that happened she started calling me toxic, stupid, bitchy, fat. The list goes on. She told me how I don't have a good reason to feel like this and that I'm a spoiled brat who thinks the world revolves around me. I don't think that at all. She was so angry at me for feeling like this and told me how I've never been abandoned as she has. How I don't know what it's like to have my dad abandon me and move to a different country. I don't even know my dad? She told me how I'm weak and she's not cutting because her dad left. I don't understand how that even relates to anything? I don't know I really don't know.nnShe ended up calling me a lost cause and told me to follow my thoughts and die. I cried for a few hours and I wanted to do it so bad. I had a thought saying I should do it to make her feel like shit knowing she killed me and it took so fucking much not to go through with it. After a few hours, I ended up apologizing to her and telling her I would stop thinking like that. I said anything and everything to make her happy so she didn't hate me. I am so fucking desperate to keep a friend around holy fucking shit I am such a desperate cunt. We stayed friends for a while until she found new people.nnMy family also hates me. My brothers and sister show it the most. I'm the youngest why wouldn't they hate me? three of them constantly tell me how I don't do anything and I'm fat. I remember when I was nine my sister forced me to sprint non-stop for over half an hour so I could burn any fat I had. If I tried to stop she would make me start again. My brothers are the reason I've stopped eating. I tried to eat some blueberries the other day and they saw me and started talking about how I've been eating so much and I'm chubby. I put the blueberries back after that. My mom was there and she didn't say anything. Like it didn't happen at all. Is it wrong to still care for them?nnI keep having these thoughts to kill myself and I'm not afraid of dying and what I could be leaving behind I'm scared that I would wake up the next day in a hospital and having to deal with the aftermath. I just want to sleep forever and not have to worry about expectations or anything. I don't even feel like myself anymore it's so stupid.nnI think that I don't actually feel like this. I think I'm just mimicking other peoples emotions and making them my own so I can feel different. I mean seriously? It's only friend and family issues that can't cause me to fall into this right? I got told by someone with BPD that I had signs of it but I'm not just gonna self diagnose myself with it and I'm also not going to get tested for it. It would be a waste of time.nnIf you made it this far I am truly sorry you had to read it. I hope you have a good day and sorry if there are any spelling mistakes or it doesn't make sense I just went with what was at the top of my head I usually do better but I'm just not the best right now.
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Rumours and things are very troublesome, I tend to try to avoid such things by getting a big group of friends to shield myself from them. I really recommend leaving your friend group, because I would rather take rumours then the constant abuse they seem to be giving you every day. Some tips i would give is, hide in the library to study and avoid getting into the spotlight in school (such as getting in trouble or causing drama), hopefully you'll become 'invisible' which while might be a lonely place, you'll be safe from people. Maybe study a lot as well? Because, while saving up is obviously a good idea, you do need an education to make sure you can survive in this world. The money you currently have is short-term, so make sure you get in a good university just to secure your future :) Have a good day/night as well!
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I've always been the quiet guy, have struggle with social anxiety my entire life. However, people that know me say I am one of the most calm and level headed people they know. I work as a paramedic and rarely feel stressed even during life or death situations, but put me in a room with 3 other people and my anxiety levels are through the roof. It's weird, I'm very confident in my skills, intelligence, appearance etc, but I always have it in the back of my mind that I am being quiet or weird when I am talking to people and this causes my SA to become a self fulfilling proficy
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I have a pretty solid career going. I feel I do good work and have the respect of the people I work closely with. And there's a voice in the back of my head telling me that it'll all come crashing down as soon as I put myself out there too far or say the wrong thing.
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I barely even have the patience to type this out I'm so mad angry sad and frustrated. I've been practicing the song into the unknown to sing it to my parents and yesterday I was gonna sing it big when I went to ask them if I could before they got mad at me for not eating and almost made me cry so I had no interest it singing anymore and then they got mad because I didn't do it. And then today I told them I would do it in the night and I told them to come to the living room and they said that they are tired to just do it in their room and I said no come to the living room or I won't do it today and they said no so I said I'll just do it tomorrow and then they said you just get mad and then you never do anything. Bruh I said tomorrow cause I want to do it at the living room. Then they said that I'm always bored in the house because I don't go out with friends and I said that my two friends sometimes can't go. And they said that when they were little they had a bunch of friends and they always went out and I said that I don't have that much friends then they said we'll make some! Bruh it's so hard for me to talk to anyone I'm so shy probably have social anxiety I can't just make friends easily I've tried to explain to them that I might have social anxiety before but they just don't get it they said everyone feels insecure sometimes but you learn to not be. Bruh I literally can't change it they just never experienced it and dont get it. I feel disgusting my face is disgusting i wanted to do aloe Vera face masks over night but I got lazy and only did it a few times I asked my mom if she could cut the aloe Vera and Bri g it to me big she said she'll be busy making lunch for my dad for tomorrow and I'm already in bed too lazy to even put anything on my face or wipe off the mascara that's probably already ruined with the tears so yeah I literally don't even know what's weird with me anymore
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It sounds to me like you're a very sensitive soul. Which is absolutely fine, it's okay to be quiet and shy. There's nothing wrong with you, many of us suffer from social anxiety, even for what seem like such silly reasons. I know it's hard but try not to focus too much on what people might think of you. I fully understand how difficult it is to make friends as a quiet person, maybe try to join a club or something and force yourself out of your comfort zone a little. I'm trying to do the same. Good luck with your song, and don't be too hard on yourself. Take things one step at a time and you'll be just fine.
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Had to post it here otherwise I won't be able to keep studying. I joined the call and there were like five professors and I though....... u201cuh that's weird where are my classmatesu201d and I hear a professor say u201cwhy are there students here? says my nameu201d. I left that call so fucking fastttttttt a minute later I get a private message from my professor saying u201cplease leave the callu201d. Yep....... I wanna disappear. nnThey were gonna discuss the oral exam we're having next Tuesday. This memory will hunt me till Tuesday...nnEdit: well it's been two weeks since that, already had the exam, went great. So now I can forget this ever happened.
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Not your fault, it's their fault for not making it inaccessible for students.
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So I had this mental health issues since three years ago, starting with a lot of anxiety and focusing on all the bad stuff. nToday, three years later, still working with a psychologist and a psychiatrist, I feel like my parents keep attacking me. Why is that? nThey keep saying that I'm selfish, that I don't help enough at home and that if I'm not ok it's because I don't want to. nnOn the other hand, I have 26 subjects at university (cause I'm studying two careers) and feel overwhelmed, stressed, anxious and a complete failure. nnBesides, I wanna change my psychologist but my parents won't let me. What can I do? I feel judged by them and by the psychologist. nnHelp me please :( nThank you u2665ufe0f nHope you have a nice day nnXxx
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I'm a good listener if you need to rant, just message me!
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There's literally nothing left for me to do, I've tried my best but it doesn't matter because I still don't have anything resembling a friend. I'm 16 years old so whatever but all those years I haven't had ONE fucking friend. I could understand why I wouldn't have friends for example last year. I was depressed to hell, low confidence, dressed like shit, a fucking loser, and whatever else. But like even when I'm doing so much better nothing actually changes. I started fucking trying this year. Honestly, a huge reason was because I really liked a girl but I'll talk about that later and I had other reasons. But basically it just fucking popped to me. I had to fucking try. I started dressing nicer, I picked up new hobbies and stuff, I gained way more self confidence, allowing myself to be more comfortable and do stuff like make my class laugh. But none of it, matters. I'm still always alone. Nobody ever wants to know about me. I've just lost hope. For a good 6 months I'd say I pulled off this
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I completely relate to this. I fucking suuuuuck at talking to people and making conversation. There's huge long silences, they seem bored, and eventually make an excuse to leave. I have no fucking clue how to talk to anyone. I only have one friend as well, but we barely talk since I moved. I also suck with girls too, not afraid to admit it. Every girl I talk to, they seem to know something is fucked up with me and they get all weird lmao. I'm right there with you bro, I know exactly what you mean.
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I had a class presentation and I did it , but my legs always start shaking towards the end . So everyone was asking me if I was okay and obviously that was embarrassing cause it would look like I'm just doing it for attention and my teacher proceeds to tell me “if you keep doing this it's gonna be hard for you “ felt bad but what can I really do people don't understand how it feels so it's fine i guess. Next morning my friend comes and tells me that everyone thought what I did was kind of dumb , and my heart sank , cause why would she even tell me that like keep it to yourself. I wish people were a little more understanding I don't expect them to understand completely but I mean if you see me struggle physically atleast don't call me dumb
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There's nothing worse than a teacher that does not understand anxiety. A teacher should be kind and caring
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I don't think I can live a normal life
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I don't know how people find jobs that are only certain days of the week. It's like they'd only work two or three days and go to school the other days . I know people who had that kind of schedule and I don't know how they made that possible
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I'm really starting to resent having fb and insta! Constantly seeing posts of engagements, weddings, and having babies is really depressing. Not to mention I don't have any real life connection with these people anymore. I seem like a jerk for not liking their photos. It's a constant reminder that a. I don't have friends anymore and b. I fucking suck at achieving milestones. nnI just wish to melt into the floor and no longer be tormented with life. I can't deal.
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I feel the exact same. That's why I only follow music pages that post old throwbacks, so I can be happy. Lol ud83dude02 Social media is not fun as it was back in the 2000s/early 2010s. ud83dude23
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Curious what you all do to Treat your Anxiety? Myself I use benzodiazepines to treat it, it works better than anything else and I have been prescribed for 7 years.nnWhat I do to avoid dependance/addiction is only use twice a week. It sucks though, because I'm really only anxiety free the days I get to use it.nnSo this is why I'm asking, what do you all use to treat anxiety? Supplements, Prescriptions, natural remedies? I want to find something on the days I cannot use a benzodiazepine.nn Only having no anxiety for two days out of the week for 6-7 years is getting old. I want to be anxiety free the whole week without taking more of the benzodiazepine.
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Breathing techniques definitely do help. It didnt work for you because you probably didnt stick with it long enough, but it worked for me and many others
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Anyone else find it really hard to even apply to these kind of job descriptions:
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What I've heard is that you don't need to fulfill every requirement to actually get the job. In fact, one factor in the gender pay gap is that men will apply for a job that they're only somewhat qualified for, and often enough will get that job, while women will usually only apply for a job they're 100% qualified for. nnnSo while the job posting might say they desire excellent communication skills, if you have mediocre or at least not horrific communication skills you shouldn't nix applying on that alone. Unless its a sales job.
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I've always had anxiety that I am already dead, and that I'm being put on trial in this life, or just waiting to be cast away into hell or something like that... It was probably brought on by my drug abuse in the past and overdosing in an attempt to kill myself. I was on life support from what I heard for about 10 days, and I woke up and spent another 4 in the hospital before they sent me to the psych ward as apparently I had said I wanted to kill myself and that's how I wound up in the hospital in the first place.... which if I hadn't said that, I would probably be dead. Isn't that a blessing... nnnIt's been two years since, and I haven't touched hard drugs, but I have always struggled with anxiety and depression. The other morning I was sitting in bed and all of a sudden I noticed I wasn't breathing, or I couldn't feel myself breathing..... and this panic hit me.. I tried to say a word, but nothing came out. And then I stood up out of bed not needing to breath but not breathing, and I walked out into the hallway, and I knew I was dead. I just felt this sense of dread wash over me like... I was a ghost. I tried screaming but nothing came out that I could hear. Maybe I couldn't hear either? nnI was so convinced that I was dead I burst into my room mates room and he sat up out of bed and the second he saw me I was able to talk again. And it was like nothing had happened and I was breathing and everything was normal. I then tried to explain that I was having weird breathing issues and to please keep an eye on me. He calmed me down and went back to bed. I went and sat on the couch but that feeling was always slightly there. Like I wasn't really alive. I haven't been able to live normally since then. I had a legitimate actual panic attack a few weeks later and went to the ER thinking I have heart issues. I'm on 5 different medications now. I started drinking after that because I was convinced I was dead... It was such a real feeling of... pure terror.nnMy girlfriend and everyone I know is trying to reassure me that I'm not dead. Has anyone struggled with this type of anxiety before? I'm really going through it. I'm definitely an overthinker as well.
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Absolutely! If you have any GERD or related questions feel free to DM me
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I need to talk to someone on the phone. I'm in about as much as a mental health crisis as I can get without being actually suicidal aka I'm not in danger but I'm concerned without help I will decline to being in danger. Any numbers?
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what country are you in?
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... and I'm freaking out!! Seriously. I never did any sport before, and I'm all the time thinking: what should I do when I get there? people will know that I'm a beginner or they will give me exercises just like any advanced practicioner? And what if I can't complete a serie of some of the cardio exercises? Yes, my mind works like that everytime I'll get into a new experience.
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Because I think is the best option for girls. :) I saw some videos and I really liked!!
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So I've always been u2018addicted' to sports, both playing and watching, in a mostly healthy way. I also like maths and statistics and I had been sports betting profitably for a while, all of this naturally always made me interested in fantasy football (soccer), although I never really played it until last year because I could never find a group of friends who were interested. So last year I started playing as an inexperienced rookie and I loved it: I started focusing more and more on it, I was spending a lot of time doing research etc., and after a bad start I won our league title with an improbable comebacku2026 and kept talking shit about it to my league mates ever since. Riding the wave of excitement from last season, we decided to play again this season and even expanded our league to include 2 more guys. By now I was very experienced, I had learned and created a lot of the game strategy and I was excited to give my team the best chance to win again starting with the auction draft. Once again I started the season very slowly and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't already getting desperate about itu2026 thankfully though, I knew the sample size of games was still very small and I quickly began rising to the top of the league table. Right now, I have a decent lead at the top of the table with a few games left, which I need to hold in order to win the title again. Wellu2026 during the whole lockdown period, which was devastating for my mental health for several unrelated reasons, fantasy football eventually coming back was one of the things I was looking forward to the most, hoping it would give me something to distract myself from all the stress. I couldn't be more wrong: ever since it restarted I've been having daily anxiety attacks because of it and I just can't cope with the stress and especially the fear of everybody making fun of me if I lose, it terrifies me. I can't even enjoy one of my favorite hobbies anymore because of social anxiety, I know it might sound ridiculous but it's obsessing me.nI wanted to know if anyone else's social anxiety has become so bad after the lockdown, I was not in a very good place before the whole pandemic began (I've had social anxiety since I was in preschool), but at the time I didn't expect it to get this bad as this was an example of how I can't even do the simplest things now.nFor the record, I restarted going to therapy every two weeks after the lockdown measures were eased.
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The best thing for me to do that is ignore my phone when watching a game, so I'm not tempted to check the standings every few minutes, when multiple games are on at once. nnWith lineup decisions before games, I try to ask myself what choice I'll feel better about later, so there's less second guessing myself
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I'm a 20 year old male and anytime anyone tries to talk about sex with me, I start shaking uncontrollably. u201cShiveringu201d we be a better word. My teeth start chattering and I start to feel cold. I don't know what this is and I've experienced it for as long as I can remember. Does anyone else experience this? And if so, how do you cope?
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Are you sexually experienced at all?
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So today was my first time working at the HT kiosk and I was feeling excited and now I'm left my shift super anxious and crying on my bed. n I had two incidents one which my manager took care of where a women didn't ask for change and left in a hurry and another where I got so flustered giving the change that I gave the wrong amount resulting in a warning I need to sign. Besides that, sometimes I've forgotten to take the censor off or I get overwhelmed with the amount of customers I get nervous to the point where I'm trying to do things quickly so the customer doesn't get annoyed. How can I cope with the anxiety of being a cashier for the first time and not making that mistake with the money next time?
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I mean my assignment managers told me to go slower but I guess I get caught up in trying to do quickly so I don't make them annoyed that I go faster
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Just super annoyed by some people's behavior towards me, keep scrolling.
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I feel that way a lot of the time. I feel inhuman just being around them. At the same time, I feel empathy for those who are genuinely nice people. I wish to help those who are oppressed or left out. Finding nice people is hard, trust me. I only have one close friend, and I met them here on Reddit. I can understand how you feel, even now I sometimes don't want to find new friends. Because people can be snowflakes, ignorant, disrespectful, immature..... I feel content being alone in real life. Even nice people can change. No one stays with you forever. Even if I am not feeling good about my species, I need to show respect, even if they don't reciprocate that respect. I'm conflicted all the time. Sorry if I'm rambling, I thought I could try to sympathize with you. I can see why people feel this way.
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I'm not (usually) very anxious when socializing, but I am an introvert.nnI'd like to break the ice with somebody who seems to be socially anxious. I have observed this person enough to know that they are intelligent, capable, and interesting. I wouldn't be approaching out of
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You sound really nice. I bet we'd have fun talking in real life. Thank you!
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when i'm at home my face feels okay and it doesn't feel bad but when i go outside i feel like everyone is seeing small details of my face and i just feel like a whole other person. When i'm home with my brother i feel comfortable enough to get close to him when showing him something on my phone but outside i feel this sunken feeling. especially the thought of eating at a restaurant with someone opposite me
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that s bdd i think, i have it too
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Hi, I can't even believe I'm posting this because I never talk to anyone about it but I think I have depression. I never feel real, proper happiness anymore and if I do it is quickly just gone. I'm 15 male and in year 10 in Australia. I eat a lot less now and I have trouble getting to sleep but then I have real trouble with waking up. I feel down all the time, I feel like everyone looks down on me. Especially at school because I know everyone does and even my friends. I feel like my family can't be bothered with me. I feel like I and everyone else would be better off if I wasn't here. I always feel self conscious about everything. I don't really feel like myself anymore. I miss being happy and being me. My school councillor said I might need anti depressants but I wouldn't be able to ask my mum about it and I need her to come to the doctor to get it and to get into therapy. I don't know what to do but I know I want to feel better.
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2 months ago her father broke us up(I am not getting into further explanation on the problem)... Since then I am not the same as I was. Overthinking gets me more than it used to do(I am an overthinker),I don't know how to feel,emptiness but not really emptiness is the only thing.I have a chest burning in hell feeling 27/4 that never stops, I eat a lot or little, I always feel tired and want to sleep leading me to sleep for hours or not even sleep at all due to the pain and overthinking,I don't enjoy things I used to do and I loved to do, I can't concentrate to a single thing for more than 5 minutes not always from overthinking but also because my mind gets empty.When I have
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...and wonder if I am actually the most boring person on the planet. Anybody else?!
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All the fucking time, with almost any question.
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So I left my job over 4 years ago but I still think daily about how weird I was. I spent so much energy every day avoiding eye contact, avoiding interacting, it was draining. I also used to try force myself to look angry so nobody would approach me. Whenever there was a break at work, everyone would sit and chat and I'd stand on my own as far away as possible looking down at my phone, not at anything in particular, just to look as if I was busy. I always think that my coworkers must've thought I hated them or that I was really arrogant which is the complete opposite. I know it's the past but I so wish I could've talked and been part of the group but I was just far too anxious and awkward. Even a simple hi to someone and I'd be thinking to myself oh shit, what have I said, did I say it right, why am I like this. Work would end and I'd go home, not sleep & sit up thinking all night about one word I said. Go to work the next day as a nervous wreck hoping I could avoid any social interaction for that day, that was the u2018dream'. Why am I still thinking about this lol. Stupid & weird, but, that's me.
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I was exactly like this when I went to school, now 10 ten years later all I can think about the past is how weird I must have looked back then
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Hey guys,nnThere's something about making phone calls that makes my anxiety skyrocket. It's so strange, I'm generally a very sociable person and don't find it difficult to interact with friends, acquaintances or even strangers, but when it comes to making phone calls or answering phone calls when I receive them I get so anxious. Talking to strangers, friends, appointments, all of it.nnI have had to make and answer phone calls many times but I always take a while to build up the courage or to convince myself it's fine - and feel so anxious the entire time it's ringing. I recently had to call my s/o, who usually calls me and It made me feel so anxious. I have absolutely no problem interacting in person and I never feel uncomfortable or awkward, so I don't understand why I'm so anxious when it comes to phone calls. The only person I can call comfortably is my mom.nnI'm just wondering if anyone else feels this way. I always opt out of making phone calls if it's possible to text, email or handle it online - but I would like to make phone calls because it's a convenient way to communicate. Maybe anyone else who feels this way or has overcome this fear can give me some advice on how to make it feel less worrying and much easier to manage?nnThank you.
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thank you!
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I think I have a habit where, when I have a great conversation, or if I crack a good joke, and everybody laughs or I get a great reaction, I will replay that moment in my head multiple times, or almost silently act it out again multiple times later on in the day when I'm alone with my thoughts.nnIt's almost like I'm revisiting the euphoria I got from making people laugh or connecting with them. Like a funny clip from a movie that I'll constantly replay after watching the movie.nnIt just makes me smile when I think back on those moments. Like I made a connection or something. As stupid as that sounds. nnI feel like it's almost the opposite of social anxiety, where we'll replay a horrible moment in our head, and try to think of a better response. But instead I'm just replaying the best moments, cause every response was already perfect. Not even because I'm trying to revisit and learn what went right, but because the whole thing was just right.nnI definitely used to have social anxiety though, so maybe that's where it's coming from.nnDoes anyone else do this???
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I love this!nnI'm going to start doing it , play a greatest hits film montage of social moments that well today instead of the negativennI had a cruddy day SA wise, but there one or two good moments I'm going to focus on themnnThanks
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My husband lies to me consistently. It has been an ongoing process to try to understand when he's telling me the truth. He has kept secret relations behind my back (which were layer found out by me by chance). He had a vasectomy performed and didn't tell me so for at least a year. He runs to his mother constantly and he lies about how often. He proclaims that I'm the sole reason for his issues. But this whole 18 years we've been together, I've been trying to
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Yeah, I'm sorry to hear you are being treated this way. As much as seems like common sense, this man will not change who is innermost. I have seen it time and time again in my own life experience, as well on numerous talk shows. The man is either physically or emotionally abusive and swears on his life that he will change. Maybe he does for a short period of time, but soon enough he will be back to his old ways because that is who he is. As difficult and disheartening as it may seem, I believe you need to leave him and move on with your life. It will be hard, but I promise it is in your best interest in the long run. You need to realize that if this is the way he is, it is only harmful to you and not an improvement on your life. Don't continue to be dragged down in his ways. Be strong and do what you think will benefit your life the most.
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I needed to pee during the class before lunch so I was shaking in my seat because I was too anxious to ask to use the bathroom. But when I knew I couldn't hold it anymore I went up and got a pass from her and walked out the door calmly (since I didn't want anyone to think I was in a rush). When I found a bathroom I eased up a bit and when I tried to open the door it was locked so I ended up peeing a bit on the way to the restroom. nnI'm fine now though, I just wanted to tell this story so people know they didn't fuck up as much as me
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Yes I did that in elementary school in my seat
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I had a crush on this guy before lockdown in 2020. It was a pretty normal thing, I was 14 so nothing unordinary. After lockdown finished and things started to go back to normal, we returned to school and I didn't like him anymore, but I felt like I had lingering feelings. At some point, I don't remember when but I started to struggle with my body image and I would reflect on this boy and compare myself to him so badly. I ended up having quite a severe eating disorder and it seemed to be driven by this boy. It wasn't his fault because he rarely spoke to me but he was the main focus point of it. I'm a lot better now but I can't help but think: is what happened a common thing? Do crushes turn into anorexia a lot? Am I just strange? I need answers, so if you have anything please let me know.
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I honestly don't know if this can be considered “normal” but I just wanted to say this is literally happening to me rn. I have a huge crush on this girl and we met through our sports team, but I'm jealous of her in a lot of ways and now it's really difficult to eat all of a sudden :')) So while I can't tell you if this is common or anything, you're definitely not alone
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I'm 21(M), and I besides not being mentally stable for possibly a decade now, I'm beginning to have a lot of physical issues and it's causing me anxeity.nnI'm just 21, and yet I feel like my body is deteriorating rapidly. First, I think I have a jaw problem that's beginning to affect my hearing and causing me head aches, neck pains, among other things. I looked it up and it likely might be TMJ, a condition wherein your jaws are not aligned properly. A cause of this is chronic grinding of your teeth at night and tension, which are both stress - related factors. I'm just 21 and god I hate how there's already such a serious manifestation of stress.nnThen there's my eyesight which just gets more blurry by the year. I recently found a tumor in my neck and I'm terrified that it's cancer. I have a really bad case of acne. There's a white blotch on my right rib's skin and it might be skin cancer for all I know. There's also a weird looking block circle in my left thigh that won't go away. I'm growing more moles in my face, and that might be a sign of skin cancer. I've also had sleep issues, and I tend to undersleep. Pretty sure that's gonna lead to dementia or whatever in the future. I lost a three toots now. My right molar, i think, needs checking for cavity. They might need to remove it for all I know. So physically, brain is in danger. Eyes is in danger. Skin is in danger. Jaws are in danger. Ears are in danger.nnAnd treating all of these?? IT'S GONNA CAUSE A FORTUNE!!!! And that's just physical problems. i have A HELL LOT OF MENTAL PROBLEMS TOO. God I just wanna die. I can't exactly go to physicians at these times because hospitals are LITERALLY FULL with corona patients. Going outside actually is a big risk already... so i'm waiting it out. But i don't know, I just hate my body's situation. I just want. to dissapear so that I won't have to deal with a body that's falling apart and will probably get a million times worse in the future. Some of it might be treatable, but god the cost of it??? My mom would be willing to pay, but we have other problems because of how corona has been affecting our bussiness. So things aren't stable financially, although we still have money to get by. I just wanna dissapear. Fuck i hate how I'm this young and I have so much body issues that could've avoided if only my MH was better growing up. Now there's so much I can't change about it.
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What meds do you take for anxiety?
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I'm 18 and don't have much money so I'm hoping my parents will understand, but honestly I did have some money to spend on more gifts. But I just couldn't figure out what to buy this year.nnI bought everyone (mom, dad, brother) a gift card and one gift. I only spent about $40 on my mom. The problem is that I come from a wealthy family and it makes me feel absolutely horrible. There are countless gifts under the tree right now. To make matters worse, the gift I bought is SO small. It's this skincare product that my mom wanted. I just feel...pathetic. I'm going to have this tiny bag with a gift card inside the xmas card and this puny little product that only cost $20.nnI'm always insecure about the gifts I buy but this year it's worse. On top of what I mentioned, my mean grandmother is going to be over this year since she has nowhere else to be. She never knows when to keep her mouth shut so I'm expecting her to say something rude about my gifts.nnCan anyone else relate this year? I asked for help with this on another sub and they just told me I should be grateful I'm in a rich family. Gee, thanks, a$$hat. So If you were going say something along those lines, save it. Thank you.
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Hey, I understand you so well, buying gifts and receiving gifts stresses me out so much... when I buy, it's always the :
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Hi everyone, hope things are going well for you.nnI don't know if this is the right place to post this. Recently I've been finding it difficult to leave the house. I used to force myself to go out because I had to walk the dog but now that I don't have that responsibility I'm really struggling. nnI feel dumb about the way I look, my hair has gone curly and I love it and think it's really cute but I know it's not trendy and I'm terrified of being made fun of. It looks nerdy I guess.nnI'm insecure about my skin too. I visited my gran a while back and she loudly announced
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I'm in the same boat so I just want you to know you're not alone. I can't even leave my room sometimes because of it. I wish I had the answers, I really do. The things people made fun of us for really stuck with us and it's hard to just forget about it. I'm sure you are good looking and that there are many good qualities about you. We tend to only focus on the negative when there's so many positive things that we just ignore.
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Why do people tell you, u201cjust text/call me if you're ever feeling like that againu201d, just for them to then make excuses for why they can't be there?
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Someone on this subreddit posted that. It's really annoying. I think people just say it hoping you wont TEXT them.
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Idk if this fits right in the subreddit but I really do not know where or who to ask for helpnnpls read I need tips of any kind nn//tw: mentions of slf hrm - dprss1on - s1cd3nnI used to hang out in a discord server in 2017 and over the years it became kinda big for its topic (nieche italian mario kart server), it shifted towards more topics and more people joined, at one point it came to a big hundo, over the years the server was kinda losing traction so the owners and the active users sticked together and made a private server (20-30 people circa), like two or three years ago that is, just some days before 2022 I left the group beacuse I was still in the closet and that group always made some bad jokes regarding sensitive topics, this post is about that group and two new ones. some months ago one of the few people who respected me in that group texted me via Whatsapp right when I thought my gf broke up with me, he asked how I was doing and fast forward I came out to him, I told him that I'd like to rejoin the group after he asked me to but I cannot do it, I can't bring myself to just... hop back in like nothing happend, I know those people are understanding I just need to tell them to calm it down, but I think I might have Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria and Dependant Personality Disorder upon a lot of other suff (I HAVE NOT BEEN DIAGNOSED, but the symptoms are all there and I feel like it's the only possible explainations to a ton of things) so all of this scares me even more, I wish I could just go back to that group, I do not have anyone else, the other friend that hung out with me is now in a group home/foster home (idk the right them in english bc it's
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Really OP? If discord made someone anxious and they dealt with the anxiety by self-harming, you would have nothing to say to them?
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Would anyone want to be friends? I am bit depressed, as I have no friends atm. All I do is what work now. I am 19 and had anxiety since 8. My anxiety was causes due to moving to the U.S and it sucks. Hopefully I get a few responses
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Hey my name is Steph. Where did you move from?
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I've had social anxiety for 7 years now and have actively tried to fix it the last 3. I have studied a lot about it online and gone about conducting my own gradual exposure therapy to fix it. I have come a long way from where I was but sometimes I get days where I say or do something awkward in a social situation and it's all it takes to ruin my whole week. I sit at home obsessing for hours what it is that makes me so different from everyone else and if I'm ever going to catch up to 'normal' people. Anyone here ever made it out of SA? I feel like the mental and emotional damage we pick up from being alone for so long is so severe we never truly heal and best we can do is get better at coping with it.
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In the back of your mind you'll always have that feel for what it was like to be SA and how wrong it could possibly go. But flip that idea and it's an added bonus for when you do succeed, you get so much more of a rush because, again, you know how bad it could have gone.nnAnalogy time: I run long distances. I've done marathons but it's insanely difficult with 2 small kids and work to find time to stay at that level. So if I want to run a marathon I'll have to build back up to it. Some days I'll go out and feel like I could run forever. Other days I'll be shooting for 20 miles and at mile 16 I'm just done. 4 miles is nothing to me but at that moment, after 16, I am completely defeated and cannot make it. I make that dreaded call for someone to get in their car and come pick me up. It really REALLY bums me out and I'll think about it for the next week. Am I not in the shape I thought I was? Will I ever be fit enough to run marathons for time and not just to finish? But then I think...what are the point of these thoughts. Either I take that loss and give up completely, and I dont have to worry about it anymore. Or I set my mind back to my goal and push onwards, in which case I don't worry about it either because if I knew in my heart of hearts that the goal wasn't possible, I wouldn't be trying to achieve it. But I am trying to achieve it, so it must be possible.
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Idk if this will get taken down, but I'll share anyways. So I got over my social anxiety of going to meet this girl, I was super nervous, but I went and all went well. I left with some regret of “I can't believe I did this”, but also I feel happy and confident at the same time, all of a sudden now I'm riding this high of happiness even though I had some regret of going??? I'm not sure what it is, but my confidence in speaking to people and women in general has increased, I guess I don't feel so nervous around women anymore. Part of it might be because if things don't work out with a girl I'm flirting with, I can still go meet an escort the same day and do what I want. Any other dudes have a similar experience?nnEDIT: I'm not encouraging you guys to do it. But I haven't been with a women since my gf 4 years ago, and what I was trying to get from women by flirting and what not, I got so easily. It changed my mindset and the anxiety around trying to get laid. The fact that I don't really need the girl I'm flirting with to sleep with me, like she won't, Kiki will.
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Just on that....Once they PERFECT Female Robots (that 'put out' on call...lol) we won't need to discuss these issues anymore.nnBut it won't be in my lifetime... UNFORTUNATELY...nn:)
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What gets you up in the morning or what do you look forward to? What makes you stick out the hard stuff?nnRight now I dont have much, just my cats and theres a possibility that I could be finally able to travel for a bit. I don't have friends or family to keep me going. I don't have a job or even plans. Life has never been good but for some reason I always thought it would improve and the hard stuff was temporary and had something to look forward to. Now I just have given up coz I don't have anything to keep me going.
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My job keeps me going. It's also like the only place I go and where I get most my anxiety, but I know I'm better off than when I didn't have one. I like having money. I like having a purpose. No matter how hard it gets I take each day like a new day, with no past errors and awkwardness. I'd suggest getting one, sometimes it's enough to keep going. Do you live alone? Just wondering how you afford it.
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Thank you to the sub, and the people in it, for existing. Without y'all I would feel so lost and lonely. For years I thought I was the only one feeling the way I did - I felt like a freak, and at times like I didn't even belong in this world. But coming across this sub has made me understand that I'm not alone, and that makes me feel safe in a sense (though also sad that many people have the same problem). So, thank you!
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I agree. It's comforting that communities like this exist, especially since we sometimes don't have people in real life who understand. I feel like this is a place where I can vent, ask questions, get encouragement and advice, and feel like I belong.
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For the past 6 months, I have been openly talking to my best friend about my mental health. For the past 3 months, I have been openly talking to my parents about my mental health. nnI talk to my friend about how I feel terrible every day. I tell my parents I barely get any sleep. nnBut recently, I don't want to tell them anymore. I have the urge to just tell my friend u201cI'm fineu201d when she asks u2018how are you?' Though, I have sworn I will always tell her the truth and only the truth. And I know she would never believe me. But I don't want to talk about anything because I know they don't understand and it's draining for me, and probably for them too. nnAs per my parents, I have the urge to just tell them, u2018I slept great last night!' When they ask how I slept. In reality, I got little to no sleep. nnMy brain is in a constant fight with itself about many things, but this has been most prevalent recently. nnI don't know what to do. I would appreciate anything you have to offer. Thank you ud83dudda4
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When I figure out i'll let you know.nnEasier said than done but just tell them you are exhausted talking about it, you just want a break, maybe say like we'll talk once a week about this stuff, I dunno.nnI know it can be exhausting, I am most likely on the other side of the conversation, mainly my best fiend who has frequent panic attacks, and sometimes he just wans to talk and that's fine but sometimes it's hours, I sometimes can't do stuff, make dinner, toilet, because he needs to talk, I find it hard to say hey can you hold on a sec, i'll be right back.
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I'm 16 and I'm really new to Reddit and don't have really any positive experiences. I have depression and anxiety (undiagnosed due to parental reasons) I've dealt with depression for going four years I believe but my anxiety started getting really overwhelming maybe a year and a half ago. nI am undiagnosed/unmediated because I feel having my parents know about al this would put more stress on me than I already have, so I deal with it on my own:)nnEdit: my depression did not directly come from my parents at first but they sure add to it lmao. My anxiety is mostly about stuff like getting a job, school, grades,etc.nI hope you all have a great day.
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Thank you.
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I was at this thing today where I knew about half of the people, and everyone was having fun and talking to people the entire time except for me. I spent the entire time just standing there by myself, and I could feel people looking at me and judging me, especially the people that I knew. Nobody wanted to talk to me and I was completely alone. I could tell that I looked pathetic and that everyone there hated me, and I was on the verge of tears the entire time. Whenever I approached someone they would walk away or if I was standing near someone they wouldn't even notice and I was pretty much invisible, and if I walked past a group of people they would suddenly start looking at me and laughing and it felt like they were talking about me and making fun of me. I know that this is somehow my fault, but I don't understand what I did to deserve this. What's wrong with me?
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gives virtual hug:(
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i think it's because i've been at home all summer, i literally went to chipotle rn and i was on the verge of a mental breakdown. it wasn't this bad because i used to work at chipotle but it has gotten so bad. i want to cry, i hate myself so much i wish i wasn't so shy
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I know you will, don't let the anxiety take you down anymore
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So I suddenly had the urge to ask this (I don't know why) but what was your first social anxiety/panic attack like? (don't feel like you have to answer this if you don't want to). nnSo for a bit of context, we where at my grandmother's, now this is important because her house has a weird entry room were there this weird little nook to the left of where the door is when you walk in, and to the right opens up to the dining room straight ahead, with a door farther ahead on the right that leads to the garage where other people would usually come in(I don't know why they just didn't use the front door) and a small set of stairs that went up a bit to rest of the first floor. I would usually hang out in the lower area to avoid people. We had taken both cars.nnI got my first panic attack when I was 12 or 13, on Thanksgiving of all days. I've always been really shy, but family was never really a problem until then. I had been hanging out in the lower level as usual and It had been going pretty well, but then I found out my ant uncle and cousin were coming over. My cousin is around twice my age and he and my uncle always kind of scared me ever since I was little and I never really liked them in general. I was told that they probably wouldn't show up, but then they did. No phone call, no anything, they just, showed up. I have a hard time when things don't go as planned and I just kind of, broke down. My heart started beating fast I had a hard time breathing it felt like I wasn't in control of my own body, all I could do was curl up in a ball and cry in the nook by the front door because no one really went there. my older brother came down to see how I was doing, after trying to calm me down and failing, he then went to discreetly get my mom who brought me out to the car and finally got me to calm down enough to try talk. I didn't know what had happened just that my hed heart from all the crying and I never wanted it to happen again and that I didn't want to go back inside.nn My mom being the amazing human being that she is agreed to take me home after telling my dad what happened and everyone else that I felt sick. We then proceeded to stop at a Stewarts and get mac and cheese as well as a special tree for later, then we went home and watched a movie. I don't know what I would have done if my older brother and mom weren't so understanding and helpful. I later discovered that I have social anxiety.
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the earliest i felt pressured by eyes on me is when i need to go up to the stage to get a prize because i got a good score. i was 6 and i need to go on the stage alone. a few steps on the stage and then i cried. they even took a picture of me crying lol. my family always make fun of me because of that incident esp my brother. now im trying to get better slowly :))
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I've been told I'm unapproachable because of these things, and I can tell.nnI feel like slouching can be fixed with some hard work but resting bitch face? I don't know about that. I could be in a great mood, beaming, then someone asks me
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Lol yea
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